Hi
I know that this post may make me look very foolish may get me some tellings off to be grateful for the one dc I do have.
However for the last 2 years or so I have hated having just the one dc and despite ttc for over a year its just not happening and I am getting all the more depressed about things.
I worry constantly about my only ds who is almost 8 that he is missing out and I beat myself up every day for letting him end up as an only.
My feelings on my ds being an only have got worse inthe last 6 months or so as I have gradually come to the realisation that I am probably not going to have anymore dc's.
I find everything about having an only a strain and a worry.
I worry that my ds is lonely and I do try and arrange for mates from school to come and play after school but I find it quite stressful to try and keep doing this as I find some parents not very forthcoming with the invite and my ds doesn,t get that many invites back.
I am quite a shy person myself and don,t have any mom friends to share days out with with our children.
Its always just been myself and my ds and I have always felt like a freak whenever I take him anywhere.
There are no cousins in the family that I can get my ds togeother with.
I always feel as though days out are not enjoyable for my ds and although I have taken the odd friend out with us its not always possible and I always feel bad for my ds on holidaySwith him been on his own and other children are running around having fun with their siblings etc.
I find that my ds holds back on many things that he would probably otherwise enjoy if he had a sibling to do them with.
Please don,t slate me for it but I also find it quite stressful as I find that with my ds being an only that he is always vowing for my attention to play a game with him etc although I don,t mind this sometimes at times I find his demands quite stressful and always feel guilty if I don,t do things with him.
Although I know that having more than one dc can be hard work I think that having just one is a challenge in itself and I have come to hate it despite the fact that I think the world of my ds.
Please am I the only one to feel like this or can anybody relate to what I say.