I'm having one of those weeks where i feel totally overwhelmed with doing everything myself. I am getting hassle left right and centre and feel like i am constantly treading water. It wont last, i will sort my head out but do you all have times like this? I think i take two steps forward and 20 steps back. Positivity is overated, i should come to terms with the fact i will always be one step behind and a huge failure. Sounds like i am full of self pity, im not overly. Just sick to death of living off nothing. My x is slowly leaving me behind, i feel like everyone i know is going past in sports cars while i am getting soaked with puddles at the bus stop ( Metaphorically).
It will take years before i graduate. blah blah blah. suppose im just sulking. I also get sick of people telling me im doing the most rewarding job of all bringing up two boys. It doesn't feel like it sometimes, i feel trapped. I know i am doing a good job, but surely i am capable of more. I used to be ambitious and bright and now i look round and i am in a flat on income support. I totally messed up.
Right, well thanks for listening, you have just saved some person getting an earful down the phone . I know what i would say to myself..........you dont know how lucky you are.
Just wanted one self obsessed whine.