Its my first time posting on here, and I am at the end of my tether. I have 2 children 3 and 2, and I have suffered from depression in the past but "snapped myself out of it" as I didn't want meds.
Recently tho, i could feel myself descending into a dark place and I don't know what my true feelings are whether they are really mine, or because I am getting depressed again.
I feel all i am doing is shouting at my children and snapping and getting cross over sillyt things, and that I am losing my grip. I hater to say it but I feel I could lash out at them but I stop myself, but it scares me :'(
Today I feel I dont want to be here anymore, i wish I could get in car and drive and not come back, and i feel guilty for having these thoughts but i dont even feel like i love my children or my dp at all and although i know deep down i do, i want to go. I am sick of dp saying he will help me yet he never does, the first thing he did when he came home was go on the pc even though he knew i hadnt been very well yesterday, he promised he would come and help do some chores (i havent stopped doing them all week!) and he did f**k all. I am sick of it. Sick of my life not being how I imagined it to be. I know this sounds selfish and horrid but all i am doing is sitting here crying and I want to run away now but i am scared.
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Want to run away
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Pookie76 · 31/08/2006 11:03
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