My mum begged my dad to kill her with pills about 30 years ago, at that time she was 'just' dealing with depression. She was in and out of hospital for many years, she had ECT which I now think had a part in her now dementia.
My mum attempted suicide many times but never succeeded ( maybe because she didn't actually want to die?) who knows? But she still kept asking us to kill her.
Fast forward 10 years and my mum started to loose mobility, it was a long long time until she was diagnosed with acute atonal polyneuropathy. She suffered the indignity of having to use a commode and not being able to go upstairs In her home, sleeping on the couch (later a hospital bed).
Eventually, after a number of years, my mum and dad were moved into a wheelchair adapted home. Then my mum stated to show signs of dementia.
For the last 10 years my mum has been on a sharp decline, she no longer recognises me as her daughter, she thinks I'm her (deceased) sister and that her 10 yr old grandson is her nephew (actually nephew is 40 yrs). She has to be lifted between rooms in the house on a hoist, wears an adult nappy, is distraught 90% is the time. I mean really distraught, there is no quality of life here, her body is just not able to give up yet even though the mind is traumatised. We can't get her out the house as the hoist will not get her into a car. She goes to a rehab centre twice a week on a disabled bus which is my dad's only reprieve.
My mum is a haunted sad old woman at the age of only 70 years old, I crave for her suffering to end. For it to end for all of us. There should be an end of life directive to help in situations like this...