Nan's bungalow is being taken today

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We had a couple of extra weeks to get everything cleared, but today is the day it is being handed over, and I'm hating the thought of someone else coming out of her front door.

Went down yesterday & looked through the windows one final time, and it looked so bare.

I know it is not nan's house without nan, but she had lived in that house since I was a little girl, and I am finding it all very upsetting.

I haven't done yet, hazy, but will take a look.

Had a quick look on that site, hazy, but wasn't sure which one was your grandson as there were a few little Jayden's on there.
Very moving site.

our jayden from yeadon leeds

What a gorgeous little chap.x

yes he certainly is, we used to laugh at his red hair but god do we miss it,pc ,i hope things do get easier for you,you must have a lot of wonderful memories with your nan, my inlaws never bothered ,they miss out,i have many happy memories ,the last day is the worse,it was so unexpected, hang on to memories and dont part with anything you will regret later

I can imagine you miss him terribly, hazy. Your tribute to him is very very moving - he was a gorgeous little boy.

I am not parting with anything yet, not even that hospital band - I can't, I can't just throw it away.
I have gathered the bits together & put them in a pile though, and am going to buy a nice box to keep it all in - a nan memory box!

My youngest son is really missing her - he keeps talking about her & says he wants her down from the stars.

it was set up unknown to us by my fifteen year old daughter , it really helped us, his mum has no internet so comes up here every day to c if any one left him a message,it cheers her up

It is nice that the site is a comfort to your family, hazygirl.

how old are your children,my four gd finds it hard, you cant explain it to her,the two year never noticed hed gone

My boys are 4 and nearly 8.
I thought my eldest would take it harder because he is at that age where he worries about people dying, but it is my 4 year old that mentions her the most.
He would see a lot of my nan, more so than DS1 because mum would take him round on a Tuesday while I was at work - they had quite a relationship. Nan used to call him a little rubbish!

He is constantly saying "I miss nanny X", and said he wants to hug her when she comes back. He just doesn't understand.

I know just how you feel. When I say my Nan's house for sale on an online estate agent it just felt wrong. I have been so tempted to ring her number sometimes.
How are things generally?

i think its nice they both remember her she will b so proud of them both, the eight year old will have so many memories,thats nice, but its so nice the four year old has lovely memories too

I have had moments where I felt the urge to ring my nan's number too, NAB3. It just doesn't seem real that she has just gone like she has.

I still miss her so much, and would give anything to have her back, just for a few minutes. However, I think am doing a lot better than I was a few weeks back.
You kind of feel you must get on with life after the funeral, and you try to do just that, but then I will see something as simple as my telephone number written in her phone book & I am in pieces. I guess that's normal though.

It is nice that they have nice memories of my nan, hazygirl. I do feel sad when DS2 says he wants her back down from the stars though. Sometimes he seems pretty upset.
My mum thinks I was bad to mention anything to them, but I couldn't just not say anything at all.

Little things will shock you. I found a photo of me in Italy in front of a shop called Hazel's things. Her name was Hazel and I remember instantly why I had taken the pic.

you have to mention it to them, ours do get confused if they dont c or phone she thinks we gone but we will get there, four is the age the mind seems to start thinking so you have to explainx

NAB3

My DS2 brought in a musical wind up train in a box the other day, and said "This is from nanny X"
I hadn't seen it before, but it would have been one of the bits she picked up for him - she knew he liked trains.
Because I hadn't seen it until then, it really got me - something so small - so I know exactually what you are saying.

I feel I had to explain nan's death to the boys, but I tried to do it as carefully as I could, hazy.

My son only met my Nan once and the other two never so we didn't tell him when she died. He knew she was poorly and drew her a picture but it was only this year that we told him. Can't rememeber how it came up.

im sure you explained it as best as you could , i bought books to read only trouble they make me cry,coni care told us to do that,

It is a very hard thing to explain to children, isn't it?

My boys like having her cat, although they are a bit scared of it atm because it is very timid & hisses when they come near it.
DS2 often asks if the cat wants to see a picture of Nanny X!

thats so sweet. anyway thanks for listening but have to go to work soon,take care and things can only get betterx

Thank you for listening to me today when you have so much to cope with yourself.
Take care.x

Couldn't sleep - her little house is no more.

That's so sad, PC.
It wasn't there to stand empty, though, without your Nan's warmth to keep it a home.
It sounds as if it was a home to you too, when you were little.
i felt the same way about my granparents bungalow.
But now, years on, i'm hoping that other people arehappy in the bungalow.

Very sad. It must be so hard to know it is there, empty.