But I do always love her.
My 6.5 yr old daughter is a nightmare, she has the attitude of a 14 year old, everything I say I get 'so' or 'dont care' or 'what ever' she is really starting to make me dislike her.
She is a very talented little girl and a real extrovert, she shines at her ballet and tap and has even had comments made about her, she is excellent at school and is very consistent in all subjects, but at home she is awful, she seems to have so much energy that she wares me down, shes always back chatting me, she wont sleep at night, and the holidays have been very draining, the only peace I'm getting from her is when I'm asleep. It was 11.30 before she finally dropped off last night.
My major problem or potential problem is that our son (4) is an angel, he's so laid back, does what hes told and rarely is naughty, he goes to sleep when told and only takes a few minutes to get off, in fact you can put him to bed and say I'll be back in a minute and he's gone, you don't even have to sit with him.
With her, she wants you there all the time with her, you have to lie with her to get her off and if you move to soon, she wakes up and creates. I keep thinking that she thinks that we favour our ds over her and perhaps she's feeling a little insecure, but she gets all the praise we can offer, we do love her dearly, if I ask her for a cuddle or go and grab her, she turns away and refuses you in her space, she will only dance if I'm not watching for fear of critisism, but I never would.
Because she is SO good at what she is interested in, she seems to have got it into her head (not from me) that perfection is the only thing to stride for. She didn't want to go swimming anymore, because at one swimming class (arm bands) she was the best, but as soon as they moved her up to the next class (no arm bands) obviously because she was new to it, she was the weakest, she refused to go after that.
I think also, she reminds me of myself, always the joker that everyone laughed at, but I didn't feel as loved as my sister, I still have a problem with my sister to this day, my mum and dad said they have never favoured her over me, but because I'm feeling like this towards my dd, how can I believe them. My confidence is very low, and I just feel as if the only job I thought I would be good at (parenthood) I'm failing at.
Please don't get me wrong, I do really love her, but I am currently going through this feeling of hating her at times - I thought all the troubles start when they are 14 and not 6.
Hopefully going back to school will make it better - at the moment I just can't wait for 7 September to arrive