Some gut wrenching stories here, i am hyper aware that there are absolutely no guaruntees at any stage of pregnancy.
Every day for me is a milestone, every day done is...well, a day done.
I am not thinking anyway ahead of the end of today.
Thing is, for me, its not just Downs, its the serious health implications that are possible with Downs, the cardiac issues, the possibilities for life limiting illness's is very real.
Its not just Downs, it is also true what others have said on here, its the other chromosomal problems that are a possibility and can be detected.
At 42,this means that i also have a life limited, i wont be here for ever, i cannot commit to invest in being around for a child then young adult with severe health problems. I also have my little boy. I cant now do this to him.
So i need to know, absolutely and without doubt.
Also, for me, i have ruled my fertile life with stats. 1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriage, i have always been that number 4, always with every single one of my miscarriages.
I knew by counting the people around me who anounced their good news, that this spelt doom for me and my pregnancies.
Well, no more, i refuse to rule this wonderful, amazing, surprise baby by probability and by what may be. For once i need concrete facts.
I feel so much more confident in my future plans thanks to you all sharing and and your kindness. This is difficult subject, bringing back torturous memories for some of you, so thank you from the bottom of my heart xxxxxx nananapsxxxxxx