I came late to this case. Mostly because I am aware that personal bias could easily influence my thinking, and I have a residual naivety in that because this is a hospital based case the evidence must be sound and compelling.
I believed that at the point the crimes were discovered it was because something so blindingly obvious happened that it was indeed a slam dunk.
Until now I have almost actively avoided looking into it as it brings me back to a dark place in my life and I've worked very hard on myself to get it into some sort of perspective.
My tipping point was seeing that concerns were raised after three alleged incidents back in 2015 and Lucy Letby was not taken off the ward at that point.
That was my WTF moment. As soon as it is suspected that a caregiver of any kind is harming a child, certain steps are supposed to be taken. The most important factor here is the protection of these mist vulnerable children. Whether there was any merit to the concerns or not, in this professional setting the best interests of the children comes first and unless someone is a complete psychopath even though it is distressing to be accused, the logic is clear and one has to hope that subsequent investigation will prove or disprove the allegations.
Whether Lucy Letby is guilty as charged or innocent is not clear, but the real horror is that if she is guilty, the hospital gave her a free pass to go on and harm at will.That is a major failing indeed.
I repeat, the protection of the children over rides the accused's rights to be believed innocent, painful though it is for the accused.
So coming back to the now, reading through all the medical jargon, the issues of probability, confirmation bias from every corner in both directions and reading phrases I have imprinted in my soul is chilling to me.
In terms of criminality, given that Lucy Letby has been away from her alleged "hunting ground" and thereby technically children are protected from her, it comes down to justice and punishment. If her guilt is as clear cut as is suggested, then her punishment is just. But given the complexity of the medical evidence and the arguments surrounding it that is in doubt. And it's not just armchair detectives and "conspiracy theorists" saying it.
The ramifications of taking the evidence as presented as gold standard could lead to a precedent by which any baby discovered with these findings after an unexpected death could be claimed to be a murder victim. This is why careful consideration of all the other medical and environmental factors should be weighed up and given proportionate weight.
In this situation we have pre-term high risk babies with extra health challenges like haemophilia. We have a unit that was reportedly under pressure and where other negligent mistakes were made, one of them by a doctor who accused Lucy Letby. We have a culprit who yes displayed some odd behaviour but with nothing like the psychological profile reported in other similar cases. We have parents of alleged victims also criticising their general experiences in the hospital.
There is blame shifting and arse covering galore, all muddying waters which we are told is crystal clear.
The fact remains, this didn't have to happen. Claim all you like that the management's hands were tied that no-one could do anything, that Lucy Letby pulled all the strings. At the very beginning when the first suspicions were raised she could have been removed from the environment. And she wasn't. In my eyes that is the biggest crime of all.