My problem with the Guardian article is that he shows no love at all
If I write about late MIL you'd be hard pushed to spot the love.
God knows I was hard pushed to spot the love for 20+ years.
I didn't even know I did until more than 3 years after her death. I had spent so many years being decisively dispassionate about her, to keep the hate and anger in check that it was squished under many layers of entirely necessary denial. I had to keep the hate and anger in check. When you have stood over a frail old lady with a pillow in your hand and had the horrible realisation that, yes... you could. And you really wanted to. Keeping emotions severely, tightly locked down is better for some people's breathing status, and other's non-incarcerated status.
I grieved for her very belatedly. On my own. With so much regret for what could have been that I was utterly floored. With an extricating realisation of what the illness stole from her, from the woman she would have been if she hadn't had it. Because we saw glimpses, in the few times it was more controlled. And she was warm, funny, quirky, loving and desperate for a daughter-ish relationship in her life. She was a lot like me in some ways. We could have made each other really very happy. And the menfolk would have quivered in the face of The Matriach, and Matriach in training.
But the illness took that away. It took everything. Killed who she was supposed to be. Killed who we should have been. She's dead and we are pale imitations of who we thought we were, who we could have been.
Burying the love lets you survive when feeling the love is the lead weight that will stop you fighting to keep your head above water.
Give him time. It is early days. He is a bereaved man. Probably mourning, in the only way he can manage right now, not just his granddaughter, but the maiming and scarring of all the other people he loves.
Wanting people to make expressions of the right emotions on a "socially acceptable" timeline is a almightily huge ask of the exhausted, worn down and traumatised by suicide.
We can't all be everything the rest of the world wants to be, when they want us to be it.
Some of us were never cut out for care and responsibility for mentally ill people. We didn't choose it, it chose us. We fail. We fuck up. We don't feel the way we are supposed to feel.
There are two choices.
Judge us.
Or forgive us.
Forgive us for being flawed humans who did not choose the challenge that left us on our knees. And maybe don't heap more on our already tottering pile of regret and internal self recrimination by asking us to emote in a manner, on a timescale, that best pleases the observers.
If that is an unacceptable proposition , maybe the better alternative is for lots more jumping up and down at governments the world over that have scaled back mental health provision to the extent that the incapable are being asked to do the impossible.