So much work to do on my life

[icecreamwithflake]

I don't have a clue where to start.

I'm starting completely from the bottom if you like with (almost) nothing.

So - you're me. Your career is over and you don't know what to do next; your health (physical and mental) is poor, you're physically unattractive so no hope of a marriage giving you an opt-out clause and you've no one to support you (Apart from mumsnet.)

Where would you start?

And what might you do?

Sorry, I had not read the whole thread before.

A year ago if it hadn't been for the kids I'd have killed myself, I really mean that. 12 months has changed so much and things are much much brighter than they were .... You have to give your self time and have this belief that there are things in your future that you don't know about yet that will bring you joy. Baby steps

OP, you said: 'I can walk to end of the street and stuff. But after that? What am i going to do?'

The answer is simple: take a deep breath, and walk just a few steps further. And those steps aren't pressured, full of rage, or even defiant. They are for you. Because you deserve that bit of time and attention.

And the same is true of all the other things. One step at a time, you can make changes.

And you WILL find people who love and care for you.

I hope you are all right today, icecream. Call the Samaritans if you feel too bad. Could you go back to the GP?

You can get through this.