I'm 12+ weeks pregnant (unplanned). This is child number 3. My husband last week has just gone back to his old job, meaning I had to stop my business to look after the children (he was a SAHD but at his work he can earn double what I can). I am suffering from hyperemesis and have done with all of my pregnancies, and now I feel like PND is creeping it's ugly head in. I spent all of last night in tears wondering how I'm going to cope with a newborn, a two year old and a just turned four year old...how am I meant to be doing the school run if the baby is due it's breakfast (bf)? I genuinely don't think I can cope and I feel if I continue with this pregnancy I'll end up resenting my husband and snapping at my existing children. I guess I just feel things would run smoother if this baby wasn't happening. I'm sick of feeling sick and tired and run down to the extend where I can't even be a decent SAHM because I genuinely don't even feel up to driving most days. My husband is fully supportive of whatever is best for me. Please know judgemental posts, I'm really on the edge today.
AIBU?
Exquisite, as a pregnant mother of 2 with DC3 cooking away I really feel for you. I too suffer with PND, I can also feel mine creeping in & although my DH is wonderful, I currently feel I'm struggling to cope. I secretly know I'm ruining my marriage but can't face up to the PND. Today I rang the doctors... My personal first step...
I really hope you can work out what YOU need to do with everything your going through. Although PND isn't really talked about, your not on your own. Good luck with everything 
Having a nanny or au pair when you've got three preschoolers isn't self-indulgent, it means you get time to actually enjoy each and every one of your children without being mentally and physically exhausted by the boring bits. Best wishes.
And MrsPixieMoo which bit of the sentence *Please no judgemental posts, I'm really on the edge today?' did you not understand? 
"as usual none of the anti-choice people are offering practical help."
I saw suggestions of telephone counselling, Homestart, getting a nanny/au pair, advice to see a GP regarding depression, so I think we must be reading a different thread, specialsubject. Or are you meaning that those of us who wouldn't have an abortion should pop round to the OP's house to personally help?
exquisite, I am very sorry that you find yourself in this situation that is clearly very difficult and worrying you. I've suffered from lots of nausea and vomiting in all of my pregnancies and have needed some admissions.
The things that have helped me is people bringing out meals, helping out with housework (a lawyer friend of mine came round one evening just to deep clean the kitchen!), nursery a few mornings a week for the children to give both them and me a break, ready meals sometimes, throwing the children out into the garden while I sit at the open French doors with a cup of tea, going to bed as soon as my DH gets back from work.
I have tried to balance out the guilt in my head for not being a great mother during pregnancy by remembering that (as much as it really does drag on at the time and feel it will never end) it is for such a short time in their lives and how wonderful it is to see their relationship as siblings develop.
Don't feel guilty about getting more childcare. It really is a very modern invention that one mother stays at home on her own with her children all the time. Before people lived in far better community with childcare shared amongst the family and neighbours (or indeed staff but that's not the circles I would have mixed in, unless I was the staff!). My DC have a great time at nursery getting to do things I just don't have the energy for - or sometimes the desire for (full body painting at home, I think not!)
you're smiling now but that's just a mask...........you've done a brilliant job......
need2move your GP sounds like solid gold and very astute. I'll bet those words made you feel a million feet tall and think
"Hey. Y'know. I'm doing good" 
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Below is my view. I am not judging you. I am simply giving my experience. You must make up your own mind. It is utterly shit and unfair but you alone must make the decision and live with it.
I had one at 6 weeks. The regret and mental anguish did not hit me for several years. We are obviously not all the same but I would caution you that mentally you may feel fine about doing it initially but later it may be something you regret. Especially if you go on to have another. I bitterly regret it now and I went on to have a further DC. You can't take it back.
My reasoning at the time was similar to yours. I had 3 year old twins and an 8 year old. It was a total accident and I immediately knew I would not be able to cope especially as one of my twins has behavioural problems. We were living abroad where the school starting age is 7 with no free preschool and another 3 years at home with a baby in the mix would have been impossible. We had absolutely no family support or the finances to pay for help. DH also worked away 2 weeks out of every 3. It would not have been fair on my existing children and on the baby. The thing that tipped me over in doing it was that my due date would have been slap bang in the middle of winter (Canada) and I feared going into labour while being snowed in alone with the DC and with my husband away! Nearest maternity hospital was over an hour away.
I know NOW that I would have coped, rather that the constant guilt at what I have done when I look at my other children and remember the sibling they should have had. I try to think of myself as a good person but in my lowest moments I think 'but you did that' 
. I am not saying that women who abort are not good people at ALL, but that is how I personally feel about myself. I still can't believe I did it.
Don't underestimate yourself and what you can cope with. Think very carefully but time is of the essence. There is no way I could have gone through with it at the stage you are at. 6 weeks was my absolute limit.
MsMarvel the rights of the child are taken into consideration after it is born. Your post is not helpful in any way shape or form.
And it is not a viable foetus/fully functioning being as it could not survive outside it's mother.
No judgement from me at all. I have 3 but large age gaps so not as much pressure, it was still hard work though! You must do what is best for you in the long term.
Wrt to the au pair/nanny suggestion, it's a great idea if you can afford it and there is no palming off going on. A business owner would employ someone else to take some of the work off their hands, this is no different. I put my DS in nursery part time while a stay at home Mum and felt not a jot of guilt!
Oh, my dc are 6, 5, 2 and due soon - if I could afford someone to come and help, or convince the local lion tamer to baby sit for half hour - I would!! 
No guilt at all about wanting to cut out some of the drudge to allow me time to enjoy the little buggers I have created!
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