Hello @Moriartea - found you on our running thread, so popping over to catch up with you here. It sounds like you are catching yourself in time. I would be inclined to ignore posters such as Frenchsplit. Wanting to stop engaging with what is, essentially, a poison is not health anxiety - it's being sensible. And if you are cottoning on to the fact that you are keenly - anxiously, for want of a better word, looking forward to the opening of a bottle, then you are right to consider other options.
It's easy to become "desensitised" to drinking, even problem drinking, in our society and especially if your family and others around it encourage excess consumption.
It's a very brave thing, to stand up and think "I might have a problem here", even more so to do something about it. You're asking the right questions, and before you get to the state of needing a real scare to shock you into action. There is a MN thread called The Reality of the End, which is very grim reading but certainly prompted me into serious thinking. Whisky was my tipple of choice, back in the day. I went sadly down the road of serious illness, requiring withdrawal help and addiction counselling. It was not a happy place.
Many things were helpful, these two books especially: The Sober Diaries by Clare Pooley and The Unexpected Joy of Being Sober by Catherine Gray. The One for the Road podcasts by Sober Dave (though I'm not a podcast person really). Lots of other support books and podcasts, Youtube videos, etc., are out there. Different things help different people.
I tried AA, but although they were friendly and welcoming, it wasn't for me. I did find SMART recovery sessions very helpful. I know it's a bit of a cliche, but I also found taking things one day at a time. Telling myself "I will never drink again, ever." wasn't helpful. Telling myself "I won't have a drink, just for tonight. I'll have some tomorrow if I want, but not tonight" was easier, and gradually easier to repeat. I try to focus on how it will be to not feel like sh-t in the morning after a night of drinking, another cliche - sorry - but the sober morning feeling does not get tired. I also downloaded and use the I Am Sober app (it's free) - you can track your alcohol free days and it works out how much money you're saving alone the way, as well as other benefits.
I'm sorry to say, but I doubt that you will get much support from your parents on this. People who like a drink enjoy the company of others drinking with them. People who don't drink by choice can seem odd to them. Perhaps they are secretly questioning their own intake and feel uncomfortable around those who abstain. Or they feel that they are somehow being judged by non-drinkers. Often far from the truth of course, I never mind if others drink around me and wouldn't pass comment on their choices, but there it is. Plenty of tales abound - Catherine Gray relates how people had a real go at her for "ruining" a 2-year-old's birthday party by not necking down the wine with the other adults present. And, for some reason, non-drinkers can present a bit of a fun "challenge" to regular drinkers. "No thank you" or "Not for me tonight, cheers" will often elicit repeated entreaties of "go on, just the one", "oh, go on, you've earned it", "you're making ME feel bad!" "One glass..." from 'well-meaning' companions. Would they say the same about cocaine? "Oh go on, just one sniff..." "just half a line, just to be sociable..." or heroin? "I'll get you a syringe, you can only have half if you want..." I'm guessing they wouldn't. But alcohol is a toxic, depressant drug too - it's just more 'acceptable'. Although the effects of too much too often can be just as bleak. For this reason, I would not expect your parents to agree with you or encourage. They might even mock you a bit. But that's OK. You're a smart person, making a smart choice; it's alright for others to disagree. They can make their choices and you can make yours.
In the end, I gave up, with the help of SMART recovery and the books mentioned, because I wanted to, very desperately. I was drinking more and more heavily, choosing drink over most other things and the effects were becoming more profound and more obvious. I wanted a better life than the one mine was becoming. I hated feeling like sh-t all the time, the guilty feelings and unpicking the nonsense I'd said/done/posted on FB whilst drunk, the miserable existence I was condemning myself to. But most of all, I did it for the dog. They deserved better than the hell of living with me and my mediocre companionship.
Happy to answer any questions that you might have. But fantastically well done on taking the first step and posting on here - that takes real courage.
It might not be easy - it probably will be hard, I'm afraid, at least to begin with. But I can absolutely guarantee you that it WILL be worth it.
Every good wish to you. xx