@vivariumvivariumsvivaria that has been covered very well by the dietician, though she didn't have a tough job on her hands with me because I'm very well informed, have already dealt with all the usual issues and she didn't have to convince me that calories exist and must be counted accurately, as with some people
Usual issues being- binge eating and comfort eating. I stopped that years ago, that's what got all the weight on me. Losing it is a different matter.
I ideally would like to lose ten stone. I am twelve stone over my supposed ideal weight. I can manage fine to lose three stone or so but with my insane hunger levels, it takes all my mental strength and focus. Each time I have got that far, something else started sapping that strength and I gradually regained the weight - and since dealing with larger issues it would very slow regain as I would only be eating very slightly over my TDEE. This adds up to 20 years of diets and getting the grand total of nowhere significant.
In my earlier attempts I would just be discouraged and give up when weight loss slowed down and I believed all the 'fat logic' bollocks like, 'I'm just meant to be curvy' or 'oh it's starvation mode' or 'oh my metabolism is fucked' but as time went on and I learned more, it would be bigger, more horrible issues stopping me. Things like bereavement, moving house twice in quick succession, Divorce and then four months of pleurisy.
Each failure is a massive humiliation and takes such a toll on self-esteem. The self-hatred for failing again is devastating. I resisted the idea of surgery for a long time, as an intelligent person I felt sure I must be able to do it. The last three attempts I was convinced that was it this time, my lifestyle had changed and there would be no regaining anything. The last three failures have been so devastating that I finally had to say enough - I cannot go through another humiliation and I cannot live as I want to with all the weight either so enough is enough.
This time I know there is light at the end of the tunnel in the form of GP support and my ghrelin being largely removed, thus (hopefully) it not taking every SHRED of my mental energy to stay in a large enough calorie deficit for decent results.
Plenty of people in that bariatric surgery group have been waiting for 2 or 3 years because they are still getting their heads around it all and are not ready. Psychologists are seen when needed, but it's not needed for me.