How would you feel if you made a mistake or series of mistakes that was negligence and lead to a young woman university age getting cancer and losing her womb before she's had children?
(triggering myself)
How do you feel about other gynaes who have been involved prolifically (i.e. several occasions of negligence) in this?
Honestly, it gets to me a decade later. I know what I suffered and suffer, every single day. I saw them in court, some of them at least, they walk away because they are protected by NHS, even when they openly admit negligence. Not mistakes, negligence. Some seemed to car, some seemed to think nothing and stared right through me, even as it was clear the judge and everyone in the court was disgusted with them.
I of course have had to make my peace with an incredible amount of ongoing pain, difficulties and loss. I was never given the respect of acknowledgement (it took a Judge in the Hight Court to note negligence), concern for what I lost of went through or any concern as if I or my losses and pain matter.
I try not to think of these people, but I do wonder if they still think of me.
I spoke to one doctor who misread a colposcopy (exam of cervix for precancerous cells for the non gynaes), inexplicably. She seemed upset and actually looked at me in court. I followed her out and gave her a hug and told her it was ok and we would all be ok. She cried.
She was unusual however. No changes were made to the system and it was the opposite for me with others, they were awful, smug and agressive. That was devastation on top of devastation and it stays with me. I wonder f they remember me, wonder if I'm even still alive because it was very serious, wonder how I am because they know all parts of my life were destroyed and taken away, if they remember were part of doing to a young girl.