I've name changed for this because it's not something I'm proud of and I don't think I'll come across well but I wanted to see if I was alone.
I always thought I would have a daughter, it wasn't so much that I wanted one just that there are so many girls in my family I'd kind of got it in my head that I'd have one too. I found out while I was pregnant that DS was DS and didn't think much more of it really.
Once he was born I started thinking about what his life might be like, how the world would change in his lifetime etc and I realised all the things he wouldn't have to go through just because he was male. No catcalling, no pinched bums from old men. Much less pressure on looks. He'll be listened to more in the workplaces. He'll probably earn better. The list goes on and on.
I know it's not right and I will continue to use my voice for change for women but, selfishly, I was relieved. I know that as a white male with married parents living in an owned home he had privileges not afforded to some and I'm relieved.