if You can’t relate to what the women are saying they see in her story then consider yourself very fortunate.
i sadly can.
to regale you with a few stories from my own life. I had severe ante natal anxiety with my first baby, im talking about not sleeping, spiralling etc, there were a few medical scares, i was being bullied at work and i come from an abusive home, it caused my child to be born small. I referred myself to the local therapies, they rejected me because I was too articulate. So background of worrying. Unbeknownst to me she has tongue tie and I was consumed with the need to breastfeed but because she was unable to, she didn’t sleep, so for close to 3 months I survived on 2 hours sleep a day. I manage to get referred to the peri natal mental health team, they came to visit and I explicitly told them I don’t feel safe, and I was having thoughts of ending my own life, and even when I lay down to sleep I couldn’t, the room what shake and I wasn’t sure what was real anymore (I was starting to have micro sleeps where the brain starts to basically shut off). My husband knew, but was working so needed his sleep too. I told my parents. I told the health visitors and the GP but everyone was so busy affirming me they didn’t listen to a word I said.
in my most recent pregnancy knowing how low I felt post partum after my first and keen to get support I got referred again, was told no, reach out to us again if you’re at crisis point, and there are plenty of online resources. So basically either google it or you’re ready to take a life.
whilst I never became dangerous, I fundamentally believed I was a risk, and tbh rightly so, because I was so sleep deprived I was hallucinating.