My brothers best friend since childhood and I had fairly strong feelings for eachother years ago. We did have the odd sneaky kiss ect.. but we knew it could never work because it wouldn’t be fair on my brother. He moved away shortly after and I haven’t seen him in over 15 years..
Tomorrow we’re going to my brothers for a BBQ and he’s going to be there. I’m happily married with children however I feel really anxious about going and seeing him. The last time we saw eachother we were fairly young and it was left on some unresolved feelings. I’m worried that seeing him is going to bring up old feelings. He crosses my mind sometimes and I often wonder how it would have been different if we’d both just told the truth and been honest with my brother. He doesn’t know to this day about any of it. They’re really close and always have been and I know my brother would be really hurt as we’ve always had a good relationship and he would include me in everything as kids, but made it quite clear his friends were off limits.
I just need someone to wish me luck 🤣