I’m looking forward to reading the full study later, but the idea that the success of grammar schools is measured only by exam results really bothers me. I have two daughters in a selective school – what follows is pretty personal, but I needed to get it out of my system. I apologise if you don’t think it’s appropriate for me to post it here.
When I was growing up, I was the brightest child in a comprehensive school. My teachers saw me as a problem because I regularly finished the work they had prepared long before the end of the lesson, so I learned to keep quiet and doodle in my book when I finished the assigned task. School became boring. I had no friends, because it was deeply uncool to be clever. I didn’t want to make anyone feel awkward, so I hid myself away. School became lonely. I became ashamed of who I was. I wanted more than anything to be someone different – someone normal.
Despite all that, I went on to get good A-levels and a degree from Oxford. But twenty years into my career, I’m still in an entry-level job. I think it’s because deep down a part of me still thinks it’s not cool to achieve. On paper, I’ve done well, but I’ve never achieved my full potential, I’ve never been 100% satisfied with my life, I’ve never been proud of myself. That’s the legacy of a comprehensive education if you’re bright.
I owe it to my exceptionally bright daughters to give them a better start in life than I had. I owe it to them to use my experience to make things different for them. I want them to come out of school with all the things I didn’t – self-confidence, ambition, and a belief in themselves and in what they can achieve. I want them to have friends who accept them for who they are. And most of all, I want them to be happy. That’s why they are in a selective school. Exam results don’t come into it.