Yesterday - The Beatles, one of my mum’s favourites and we played it at her funeral. I also read the lyrics to ‘you raise me up’ as it summed up how we felt about her, that she’d taught us to be strong and that as much as the grief felt overwhelming, we were going to be ok because she’d taught us how and shown us the way.
Coldplay - The Scientist - “nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be this hard”
Oasis - oasis were my youth, so any one of their songs can get me on a nostalgia ‘oh for my lost youth’ trip, but Stop Crying Your Heart Out always has me sobbing.
Paulo Nutini Last Request - ‘sure I can’t accept we’re going nowhere, for one last time let’s go there, lay down beside me’ - sums up the last weeks with a particular ex who shattered my heart exactly how I knew he was going to from the beginning, but couldn’t seem to stop myself going there!
Stevie Nicks - Landslide - We’ll, I’ve been afraid of changing, cause I’ve built my life around you, but time makes you bolder, even children get older, and I’m getting older too.
No Doubt - Don’t Speak - the bit when she sings ‘I really feel I’m losing my best friend’ - makes me think of my long term ex I was with from 15 to 29. He was a shit at the end and I don’t regret it ending, but it’s weird that we grew up together, became adults together, he was there through GCSEs, a levels, uni, carried my dad’s coffin at the funeral, we moved away from home together, got engaged, we’re each other’s whole world, best friend and favourite person for so many years and now it’s just ‘oh yeah, some guy/girl I used to go out with’. I don’t regret that we split up or wish it didn’t happen, I don’t miss him even, I just feel sad that this huge part of my history kind of got wiped out because of how it ended and the pain he caused obliterated all that good stuff for a long time. I guess I just feel sad for the young me, back when she was still naive and optimistic, she didn’t know what she had coming!