My dad has stage 4 oesophagus cancer and is terminal, he lives alone. At the moment he is still mobile, but getting but very down and fatigued. I've been off sick, due to his diagnosis 6 weeks ago, 2 hospital admissions and the fact he was poorly after this hospital stay and extremely malnourished. I've stayed down initially and visited daily, bringing special meals and giving company or attending appointments. He has become emotionally and physically dependent on me. We have temporary carers coming in, as part of his discharge plan but they are planning on stopping these. To be honest they don't do alot they pop in for 10 mins and he has had different carer every day. We have a local district nurse and are under the hospital palliative care team. So far the nurses have visited once to do an initial visit, we have then been handed a bunch of phone numbers to ring.
My dad would like to go to a hospice but we have basically been told no chance, as there are only 12 beds and we will need to go on to a waiting list nearer the time. My dad's other option would be to stay at home. Now , to my shock we have been told we would only receive 2 care visits per day. They could offer some night care, but this wouldn't be guaranteed. So basically, there would be periods that he would be on his own! Would they even do this? If I refused to stay there, would they leave him alone? I feel under amasive amount of pressure to give up my job and care for him. It would only be me.
The alternative option is a nursing home, however he doesn't have savings or property. I've looked at the nursing homes, and none of them advertise that they take CHC funding, it's another exhausting mine field. I'm mentally, tired chasing for things fighting for things. No one is offering me any practical help, everything is on me and the pressure and guilt is on me. I've had to ask for a TEP form and chase this up, Just in case medications, attendance allowance which has now stopped his pension credits, I have range 3 times to sort this, then ringing the nurse every time dad thinks he is dying. Fighting to speak to the GP, who has been useless. I'm tired already and want my life back. I now have a work meeting to discuss a phased return and I just think I'm being pulled in every direction, I just want to scream 😭