Namechanged for this.
Whilst I don't want to go into detail I had a pretty awful childhood at the hands of my mother, physical and emotional abuse and ended up a runaway and period in care.
Fast forward 30 years, her family are all dead (sisters etc). I have a few cousins up north but its just me. My brother lives overseas and leads his own life.
D(!)M has had heart attack, possible strokes and all sorts over last few years. Now bit unsteady on feet and seriously forgetful. Anyway, I do not like my mother. I love her because she is my mother but I do not like her at all. I resent having to have birthdays/christmas etc etc etc hosting her as as children ours were awful. She is on her own. I am single parent of two and in full time work. She is so fucking demanding. I do all her paperwork stuff but she's continusally wanting more and wanting attention saying i need to be kind to her. My youngest aged 5 really does not like her. She;s been a harsh controlling telling him off old bat to him so I'm not surprised he doesn't like her. Aged 2 he kicked her so she kicked him back. WTAF. She feels sorry for herself as her friends granchildren love them but hers don't like her. This week she shouted at my DS to shut up and threatened to rub dog poo on him, as he was spraying water gun at her. I got him inside and told her not to speak to him liek that. I was fucking raging inside but held it in. She left. I have furious angry dreams about her and nightmares I am living with her. She then sends me an email saying she forgives me...... WTF.... for what!!! She keeps phoning which I don't answer then voicemails saying 'help me..... blah blah blah my internet.......' I literally cannot stand her right now.
Don't know what to do