Ongoing and continuing conceptions and follicling ahead of Feisty, Fabulous Forty somethings

Hippy thinking of you.

Lia so sorry it seems the choice is being taken away from you.

Gum so sorry about your sis.

It is a sad time and it is hard but I must say that a nice chirpy phone call with a lovely, dear friend has cheered me! She is single, no kids, would love to be married and have a family and makes me realise how lucky I am!! Despite her call I am still feeling a little bit cr*p I think. I feel my choices are limited by money, if we had more money we could try more treatment! But DH does not want any more treatment. I have always dreamt of adopting but now it is a possibility I am not sure I am strong enough for it all!

Pollyanna we are really only at the start of thinking about adoption. My DH does not want any more treatment and say he wants to look into adoption, but I am not sure if I will end up being the driving force! I did not want to wait anymore for fertility treatment, (but in Spain there is very little wait involved! It was the wait that was putting me off!). This is adding to my feelings of conflict!

In a way I might be just trying to come to terms with DD being an only child. Feeling quite unsure whether adoption will be our route. Just not sure if I am strong enough for it all. As I say, I keep dreaming of flying off to Spain for more treatment! Crazy, we can't afford it and DH does not want it. So hard to finally put this TTC thing to rest!

Diege what happened with your sis, did she adopt or not, can I ask?? You said ?. There were 2 on the panel that turned down my sister's application due to gender pref, so as you say, maybe better to keep it quiet!? Does that mean that she got turned down ? that seems so unfair!

Hear!Hear! Yes, let's all get bfp's and sticky little babies.

Hippy, I am so sorry that you are going through this again. You sound really good, and I think you should definitely try again. I really do believe that it is just a matter of time and the right egg, and you seem very strong.

Jolly, thanks for starting the new thread.

Not much happening for me.Absolutely no symptoms whats so ever. I wish I had a fertility monitor to at least give me some warning, but have decided I can't afford it right now(it's more important to buy groceries!!) and am hoping to maintain a relaxed attitude towards this.

I'm feeling quite sad for my sister as she went ahead with the termination yesterday. She phoned me while she was in the waiting room, and she sounded so sad. If circumstances were different she would have had the baby. Even though she made the decision, it is still a loss, and I imagine she'll be feeling sad for a bit.The rest of her life is still all over the place, but I think she might be coming to some sort of resolution with that too, which doesn't include either of the men(which is a good thing in my opinion).

Oh, DS just spilt milk and cereal all over the floor!Bye!