Emmsys Weebles: the one where we gather in the greenhouse for more tears, laughter and hand-holding

No signs of a graduate here, Neeko. Every morning when I get up, I get a bit paranoid as both times before waters have gone within an hour of getting up. But been up a while now and nothing doing. Shes also still pretty active and so, think she's pretty comfy!

Hope you get some rest this weekend...

MLS Breadmaker of course - I'm mad but not that mad! Bought a loaf this morning and DS said " Why didn't you just make bread Mummy" I did answer politely!

Hi all Still lurking here. Think we've hit the 6 week growth spurt and finding my determination to bf waning a little. The feeding's going fine, but very difficult to fit everything else in especially as DH is still working a 60 hour week and shows no sign of stopping. Ah well...

Huge hugs to Mermaid and Monkey. You're both doing so well though I know it doesn't feel like that.

Vjay thanks for that link. Really made me smile which was just what I wanted needed.

Buddah lovely to hear from you. Glad all is going well.

Any sign of the new graduates???

Love to all

Hi sabsfabulous - loving the new name, feel like tossing my hair back when I say it . Have a fabulous night out tomorrow x

Just a quickie from me as my red wine is waiting for me downstairs

mermaid - so glad it all went OK and Davey Dimbelby kept you occupied. Lots of tlc from us to you xx

monkey - your visit to your lo's grave sounded very poignant and love the idea of a sea of windmills keeping the air all fresh and clean for them . Being drawn back can only be a good thing as it means you get peace and comfort from being there. Your time in hospital must have been beyond painful and in a way its a good thing you can't remember it all. BTW loved your fb photos of your Dad and DS - just lovely.

Moon had a at you 'not doing feet' Managed to track down some grecian dresses but the blurb did say they suit small chested ladies . They would hide any growing bump though...

Happy Friday everyone, here's to some sleep x

Evening ladies, recognise me? I wanted to get rid of the 1981 from my name but couldnt just keep it as sabs. What do you think?

Will be back soon with an update but wanted to send hugs to mermaid and monkey and also happy anniversary to mrskate

Hope everyone has a good weekend. I'm going out for dinner tomorrow with some friends and leaving S with DH. Havent been out on a saturday night for AGES so looking forward to it

omg vjay that clip was hilarious, i just love men who know they cant dance but throw their all into it and pretend they are gods gift, truly classic

mermaid glad you are home and that the hospital treated you well, you have been one brave lady and i wish i could reach in and take away all your pain. anything you need just ring the bell and one of us will tend to your every need (except i dont do anything with feet, so no foot massage ok!)

same for monkey you have been very brave too and would also like to take your pain away. its lovely to hear you felt some peace with your lo and his star, i think it sounds beautiful and i would love a place to go to sit and remember. regarding the body shutdown bit, i think i did something similar, unbeknown to me until a few months later, as i started remembering stuff and was very upset, i had obviously blocked out some of the traumatic bits and had to deal with it all later on. hope the ADs help you a little, go with whatever makes things easier to start with and dont worry too much about the future, deal with one day at a time for now.

wow mrskate a whole year, time flies. congratulations

waves to everyone else and happy weekend

Happy anniversary mrskate, and enjoy your holiday in Wales, and you're right, what a difference a year does make

mermaid glad you're home and able to rest now, and glad the hospital was good to you, it does make a difference.

monkey like mermaid says, go with your instincts, if you feel the need to go and visit your lo then do so, it can't do any harm, and I think it's lovely that you have somewhere to go to. Also liking the windmill, hope you find one soon

buddha well done on E's weight, he's doing so well. Hope you are enjoying the weaning, it sounds like E is

curly I'm tired and emotional too, but mainly due to the tiredness. I had 2 very bad nights with AJay, then last night he slept through, which was a relief but I still obviously have some catching up to do. I think feeling this way is all normal.

Gotta go Ajay is crying, he had half his milk then went to sleep, he must've realised there's still more milk to have, back in a bit.

hi girls

i know i cant beleive is been a year this time last year i had Gracie and a few other freinds round my house and i was pooping my pants about getting married . me and dh havent got anything planned but are going to wales next weekend . Jacks fisrt holiday!!

boy what a difference a year makes xxxxxx

Oops. iPhone madness. I was just trying to check the weather and posted again

Welcome back mermaid I'm glad they were good to you. Now what can we get you to eat? And drink? That naughty jools has loaded up the drinks cabinet get under the duvet and get warm xxx

monkey I'm really proud of you for getting through the last few days. Don't ask too much of yourself my lovely after what you have been through. Keep telling us how you are feeling. We'll look after you hon xxx

big hugs to everyone. Bit tired and emotional for no good reason today but will be back soon for proper catch up

Welcome back mermaid I'm glad they were good to you. Now what can we get you to eat? And drink? That naughty jools has loaded up the drinks cabinet get under the duvet and get warm xxx

monkey I'm really proud of you for getting through the last few days. Don't ask too much of yourself my lovely after what you have been through. Keep telling us how you are feeling. We'll look after you hon xxx

big hugs to everyone. Bit tired and emotional for no good reason today but will be back soon for proper catch up

I wan tto do a mammoth post but I'm at my Mum's and don't have a notebook handy to put everything down so this will be a mini catch up.

Mermaid I am so glad the hospital treated you well, it's such a horrible experience at the best of times so you appreciate just the small things tht make it a litte easier. I've been thinking of you lots and wish I had some fabulous words of wisdom like you have for everyone else but I'm pants at it
Monkey I agree with Mermaid your body and mind needed to shut down for a little while so you could cope and it's still going through the most awful and traumatic time, don't worry about the time you want to spend in the garden with your lo, it is probably all part of the healing process, take it easy on yourself. Love the sound of the garden and can picture all the lovely windmills too, hope you find one you like soon too
Moon I bet as soon as all the stresses have resolved themselves you may find that you want to start planning the wedding again. If not, it doesn't necessarily mean is a bad thing, so many women turn into bridezilla and it's not pretty!

I hope to get a proper catch up soon with a mention for everyone, but i keep saying that and then it never happens Life is good with us, E is getting bigger now weighs 15lb 5, he's found his feet in the last few days and keeps pulling off his socks, little bugger! We've started weaning too but he doesn't seem to know when to stop, wants to eat so much and all the time!
I'm back to work next month so no looking forward to that but still 7 months off can't be sniffed at
Big waves to annie Barbie Blue MLS LBM Sabs 4ever Neeko GG MrsKate cupcake Vjay and everyone else I've not mentioned.

monkey you poor love it sounds as though you have been so brave and I can see how your body decided to protect you and close down for a bit. I am glad that although such a terribly hard thing to do that your ds star is placed in such a comforting place. Go with however you feel I am sure you instinctively know what is best for you. The windmill idea sounds lovely.

I haven't got any experince of ads yet but may be they take a bit of getting used to? Plus lovely lady you must be feeling utterly drained and exhausted and no wonder.
Thinking of you you know .x

well thankfully I have had all this milarky on the tele to keep me occupied and I watched all nite - saddo anorack whos tummy hurt too much to sleep. Hospital was truly lovely and it is good to be home.
Thanks for all the messages it has really helped to know that I am not wading through all this alone.

VJay That's brilliant What a way to start a wedding!

Mermaid Thinking of you constantly and hoping that yesterday went as well as it could and that you are now getting lots of rest. Can't believe it's happened again to you I'm just so sorry for you that it's turned out like this. Sending you lots of love xxx

Cupcake I had freesia's too, they're my dads favourite flowers and I could smell them forever they're so delicious Have you managed to get dressed yet? I tried watching the coverage (am still in PJ's too) but ds wouldn't stop going on about bl**dy Peppa Pig so he's now happy and I'm on here

Haven't felt up to posting much since Tuesday, it was a difficult day. The doctor I saw said that I had a breakdown while I was in hospital (I have lost those days completely, not got a clue what happened) but apparently am dealing with it well. She's given me mild AD's to use at night to help me sleep, but am feeling so heavy and drowsy all the time that am wondering whether to stop taking them. Then I went to get the star and managed somehow to hold it together. Got to the cemetery, delivered the star, and went to go and see where our little one is buried. It was very surreal, but he's in a peaceful place which is some comfort. I'm going to look for one of those brightly coloured windmill things to put on his grave - a few others had them and it looked lovely. Have been very down since then, and tbh all I want to do is go back to where he is. Feel like I'm being pulled in the direction of the cemetery, didn't think I would feel like this...

Anyway, I really hope you're all okay, I haven't managed to read back past the last few posts, so I hope nothing major has happened and I've missed it

4ever how are you feeling? I hope you're okay - not long now...

Love to you all xxx

ps just been on the phone for an hour and a half while this message has been waiting, apologies for probably x posting!

moon here's a contribution to your wedding plans, you have to do this here

mls love your wedding dress and you new hover

qa loving the flowers

OMG I did my first link and it worked, will try one with writing next

Thanks blue I found this website, will try and link it....uk.news.yahoo.com/elections/

Morning,

Vjay - go on BBC you can type in your area. Been reading all about it whilst expressing . Labour got in again down my way.

QA - love, love, love the flowers!!

eeek! Ben has just woken, better dash, back later x

Well that's who I voted for , no it's Lib Dem up here.

Hugh Grant maybe?

Morning gracie I'm trying to find out who's won the seat in my area, not going to find it on here I know!