30s TTC - Our BESH GussetWatch Ever, With Guest Star Joe Mangel!

You have lots of sympathy Muse. What a total pisser.

Scorps your bloke sounds like an utter fox. Maybe you should rent him out?

It is shite. Fucking bastard droid.

Headsup retrain. Just do it.

Have sent you an email, Moshpit. Which is probably useless, but, well you know....

The BESHies all agree HB, you gotta do it!

Oh Muse that is a shitter. Have this bottle of tequila and some of Loz's donuts, seeing as she's disappeared on us.

(Sorry, that may have sounded a bit more aggressive than intended...)

I second Cass - just do it, HB. By the sound of it, you know enough about this career to make an informed decision, and you've also got a vote of confidence from your colleagues! What more do you want - a thunderbolt from heaven and National Lottery-style finger pointing at you?

Disclosure: I changed career about 8 years ago. It required lots of retraining (and consequent poverty), and the profession I've moved into is both pitifully-remunerated and plagued by short-term contracts. I gave up a permanent, well-paid job to do this, and there are times when I think I must have been mad. BUT (and this is a very big but, not unlike my own generous derriere) ... I absolutely love my job and I think it's a really worthwhile thing to do (if that doesn't sound too wanky). Also, I know I would have spent the rest of my life wondering 'what if' if I hadn't just gone for it. So do it!

What would your change of profession entail?

Why the fuck does droid have to appear in time for my shaggathon weekend away? We are booked into lovely hotel in London-on-Sea, we were meant to be Getting Away From It All. And I have fucking droid and will be miserable and bleeding everywhere all weeekend. Fuxache.

Also, I want a baybee. I am bored of waiting now.

Cass I was thinking of you and your amazingness today. I HEART you and I don't care who knows it. I heart a lot of you lot acksherly

Ps sorry, have to get it all out somewhere and DETERMINED not to foist this on pals, because it may come to nothing. I can only do this if I get a scholarship, and the scholarship will represent them having faith in me, and my being good enough. If I don't get the scholarship, job done: I am not good enough. and I will be satisfied knowing that at least I tried the door.

But yes, not telling folk in RL out of self-preservation I think.

ps also - I rang up my college to be told that the last open day / interviews for that year's intake was the following day. So I slung bebetron in his car seat the very next day and went for interview. 3 weeks later I was on the course.

Just because it's happening quick doesn't make it any less right

(off out for evening. Imagine, a social life! Crazee, me. So no POAS for me tonight. Might swing by Sainsbos tomorrow tho and will no doubt meet my mother at the checkout. Um, they're for a friend?!)

Head - do it. Just do it. Life is too short to always wish you'd done something and never done it. The decision making's the hardest, then you're in

As for baybees - it's totally possible to retrain with them in the picture. I was expressing sodding breast milk in the disabled toilets at college in my breaks for the first few months! And we're piss poor as I didn't go back to my old job. But I've never been so happy (apart from all this baybeemaking fnarky, of course)

DO IT. Absolutely promise you won't regret it.

am in pieces. Spent afternoon with 2 senior . General consensus a) am more than equipped to enter profession, b) the only the thing in my way is that I have to fucking man up and stop looking and behaving like a winsome milkmaid in a cornfield and c) perhaps it would nice if I couldn't spend my entire life coasting through at 30% of my intellectual capacity

Oh and d) pointless waiting a year, hand in scholarship application tomorrow

Oh and e) pointless waiting about to have baybees, get on with it, deal with problems as they arise, babies aren't easy anyway so you might as well get on with what you were going to do anyway.

Sorry, how self-involved. Am drinking and smoking and shaking and don't know whether to laugh or cry.

When I have calmed down I will be back in the room being, oh, a MODICUM less self-obsessed (I AM fully engaged in the pant-snot convo I promise).

Don't be absurd Cassie. Of course I'm not diffed. However you're much later along in your cycle than I am so I await your results with anticipation. Along with Lozza's. I can almost guarantee I won't getting to pissing on stick stage. Because, well, because I just won't that's all!

Gaspar glad the googling gave good news for once! (I am in 'stealth mode' in the deli as I am still in de nile/too cautious to tempt fate)

Tesco are open late Cass

lolol. I had a friend round this afternoon.... if she'd left earlier I'd have so cracked and gone to Tesco to buy pisstix...

Oh my gawd, I'm going to wet myself with excitement... THREE contenders!

Ooh, I'm excited now. I have lots more pantsnot than usual and it's got a very slight yellowy tinge I noticed today. Stretchy, not watery.

And as I'm sharing, I was REALLY nauseous last night. And today I can't stop eating, I'm tired and I have weird pains that aren't pre peroid pains but I'm not sure what they are...

Oh it's probably all psychosomatic. For me, obviously. Sure Looloo and Pisces are both of the diffed way.

2 days to POAS day. Bring on the menkul....

yes, glad you are clear aries Now I can grop without worry...

Glad to hear that Aries. I am crossing everything that the creamyness continues - I am pretty sure I had copious amounts of the stuff by er.. from 6DPO onwards and it just increased loads towards the end.

Well that's a relief - I haven't got it!