Rowing I love a bath too, so enjoy! Hippy have you stayed away from the hpt's? Mine are still totally bfn and temp is dropping, so I'll either get Af on Friday or won't, in which case it will mean I didn't ovulate.I have heard the body can try to ovulate many times before it does when BF. So it remains to be seen.I'll just have to keep up SWI ALL the time! Blimey, that'll be hard(er...difficult).
Thanks everyone for your kind words.I suppose sharing my woes might help me feel a bit less isolated. I'll try and make it brief. Basically, I am one of four kids, and over the years, since having my own children, my parents have proven that I'm not valued in the same way as my other siblings. My other siblings have all had a lot of financial help ( my father has worked very hard over the years and it has paid off financially),and a had a HUGE amount of help with their kids, babysitting etc. I've had very little help in both ways. I think they actually believe their own crap ideas in that they think I'm capable and therefore don't need help (even if I ask). So on the weekend, my parents came to visit ( they live two hours away) with my sister and family because it was their son's 4th birthday. That is why she couldn't come two weeks ago to give me a hand when I needed it ("Oh we'll come in two weeks for J's b/day, so no point coming to you now".
When they came to visit me on Sunday they told me they were going to buy the land my sister has for sale, to help them out. Meanwhile, I have had land for sale for three years.We put it on the market so that I wouldn't have to go back to work while DS is little. My dad knows we are having trouble selling, and he knows things are very financially tight for us. So when he told me about helping her out (again - he once bought a house for her, has done about four different renos to her different houses for her) I just felt gutted.
I know that sounds so selfish and spoilt, but it has just hurt so much that they are willing to help my siblings, but not me. I have felt increasingly abandoned by them over the years and this has kind of done it for me.I just don't want to contact them anymore because I feel hurt.
The saga continues though because I called my sister to discuss it, told her I was upset with mum and dad, and she rang them and told them. So my dad called yesterday to tell me off! He told me I had no right to be upset by him, and that he wasn't favouring, and her land was a sound business investment and mine wasn't (which is actually quite the opposite), and that I should stop feeling upset.My response was that he can't tell me what to feel and I wasn't telling him what to do, that I'd just expressed my feelings to my sister (can't wait to speak with her!
I came away from that phonecall feeling more isolated and abandoned than ever, and I want nothing to do with them now. My mother didn't call to be understanding and show she cared that I was upset. And that's just it, she doesn't ever show she cares and that hurts.
I've had a good cry over it, and now I'm just going to get on with it! Unfortunately things are so tight financially I might have to start looking into childcare for DS, despite having had another year's mat leave approved.I might have to do some relief teaching.
I'm sorry this is so long!It is good to get it off my chest.
Thank you for being such great friends, if I could I'd be sharing a bottle of lovely west australian wine with you!
You know I think part of my upset is that my sister is pregnant and I really wish it were me.I'm not sure whether I want to talk to her, but I suppose I will at some point.