Just MC and ready to try again? Pack your cake, wine and tightie whities and join us for more ranting, weeping and most of all, laughing. All welcome.

all went well, apart from all the waiting around, but not much bleeding and no pain so that was good - was more worried about never waking up from anaesthetic and never seeing DS again (morbid but I am deeply suspicious of hospitals!) anyway feels like a milestone, am going to start folic acid again tomorrow and reset monitor, even if not trying want to track the cycle anyway and see if I ovulate - although definitely want to wait a cycle. Having got pregnant straight after last mc have read some stuff and sometimes your endometrial linig is insufficiently robust to support a new preg straight after mc so don't want to risk it. I am ok with not having a 2010 baby - but would love to leave the year in some state of pregnancy!

feeling happy and optimistic about the future, the dr was lovely and i have a follow up appointment to schedule tests and talk about things in 6 - 8 weeks. I am going to see him and go to a private clinic - more the merrier I say! take the tests the nhs will do and use insurance to pay for the ones they wont!

glad its over, and in a wierd way was cathartic

Jules welcome, we all feel for you here. its a difficult time, but you will recover and try again

PS if I have one more sympathy text saying 'i just know it will happen for you soon' i will deck someone .. i mean i don't know that so how on earth can anyone else? i know it makes them feel better and maybe they think it will make me feel better but really not!! small rant, now over

love to all

GLBear I too am known to get a bit weepy when I don't expect it. It's natural seeing your friend would upset you, but I hope know that the chocolate would help . Someone at work was all happy after their 20 week scan yesterday and I went away feeling a bit low and wishing it was me. She is going on maternity leave in July which is when I was due so was doing the whole 'if I was still pg I would be x weeks by now'. Anyway, a bit of rustling under the sheets later made me feel better .

Hi to Jules. Welcome and sorry you are with us, but this is a good thread for working through things. We have all been there and know exactly what you're going through.

Well, looks like it's a good evening to be grumpy. Welcome though sorry you're here Jules. Sorry you're stuck on your own feeling bad Viv... I'm on the train home after late one at work... Finally RTD got me today and is getting quite unpleasant, I guess only to be expected if it was a CP. Thankfully working from home tomorrow. Was so chilled and 'what will be will be' about it all till now, hadn't expected to be pg so soon so it had been a little brief excitement but no more, I thought. But I'm really sad and grumpy now. Maybe it's just hormones and it'll pass soon enough.

Do you have a spare beer Viv? Don't want you drinking too much, you may yet discover you hit the jackpot this month, I'm crossing my fingers for everyone at the top of the list. There's some been there a while... I wonder if there's happy news we just haven't been told yet ?

Anyway, enough rambling from me... Just finally, stay positive HappyGirl,
and Cheepz, I hope you're not feeling too dreadful either from the anaesthetic or the hormone rush. Thinking of you this evening. Hope your little one being gorgeous and helping you and your DH through it.

welcome Jules... sorry for your loss. It's truly rubbish, particularly your first (was this your first MC?). The great thing is this is one place you REALLY don't need to apologise about moaning or letting off steam. Hey it's what we're here for. And the teasing, sarcasm etc.

Signed DS up for nursery today - just one day a week. The plan had always been to have a day to do one-one things with #2, you know like swimming, music class etc etc. But there IS no #2, nor one on the way. . So I will have to do housework and chores and food shopping. Arsicles. Pants. Bowlarks.

Hope all well with everyone. Thinking of Cheepz particularly - hope all went well.

GLB and clareanna... I feel your angst. Have one of those catch-ups tomorrow.... MMMMM, can't wait!
x

Hello thank you all so much for the welcomes. I have been reading through some of the back log and some of the other threads it really does help to hear people have similar experiences.

This will be the third month since i miscarried, I was pregnant before i even realised that was what i wanted. It didn't even cross my mind that the baby would leave, i had names picked out. Made me realise how naive i was to the difficulties that exist.

It's been tough and a bit harder of late because my sister in law is getting induced with her first child tomorrow. I feel like sometimes all i do is smile and nod and try not to cry.

Sorry for the depressing hello i really am usual an upbeat person and look forward to getting to know you all better.

Jules

barrenbrook talk to me lady! What is this magic cream?! I currently have mini replicas of mount etna, Krakatoa and Vesuvius residing on my chin-
They are so large you can probably track them by GPS.
I always get a massive spot with my RTD (this time 3 of the beauties - lucky me). They are obviously hormonal, as were ok when I was on the pill - any advice/ info gratefully received

cheepz thinking of you today- hope you are in and out quickly and you get lots of hugs x

GLBear went out with my nct friends last night, 2 have dc2s, one just started mat leave. Drank through the 'fun' of listening to them complaining about how tough it is with 2 children! I hope one day to be able to complain too!

jules welcome to the thread, and sorry for your loss, this thread has been a lifeline for me and
hope it is some support for you too.

symptom spotters anonymous (you know who you are) nothing like a bit of boob squeezing in public I say! Love viv's explanation of it- ignorance coupled with the feeling of endless possibilities - remind me of that in 28 days time when it's my turn again!

Jules so sorry to see that you have found yourself here.. really hope you are getting all the support you need at home. the ladies on this thread are just awsome, absolutely awsome and just fantastic when you are having bad (and good obviously too) days.

Me, well I'm still a nervous wreck, don't get me wrong I'm thankful but I'm a nervous wreck. Still got 7 days to go before I'm at where I was last time. I'm boob checking constantly like every few minutes and I'm sure someone caught me in work just to make sure they are still sore.

Think I might get some pregnacare too just to give me an extra boost. Obv been taking folic acid but agree pregnacare would help too.

Cheepz hope all goes well today - thinking of you.

Okay well best go get some water and hope to get the afternoon

Hi girls, afternoon check in from me to you! Anything is better than working

Why the heck do I keep boobie checking.. absolutely no point in it as they are not sore! I'm driving myself a little nuts here.

Welcome Jules sorry you have found yourself here hunni however we are a lovely supportive bunch.

Bear loving the chocolate theory..seeing as it's Easter I'll be joining you!

Thanks Bunny!!

I like it when people say "you'll have one soon" (i.e. no "if you have one" - rather "when").

Hope spotting stops soon.

I'm going to get chocolate. I think it's rich in iron, that is probably good if you are washed out from spotting, perhaps your iron levels are low.

Or in other words: iron levels low = you need chocolate.

I will bring some back for you.

xxxxxxxx

clareanna good to hear you're on the pregnacare, there's almost too much choice.

cheepz my thoughts are with you today.

barrenbrook, vivcliquot, littlemiss1972 how exciting and fingers crossed for the symptoms. Not long to go!

goodluckbear stop all negativity now (in a friendly buggy way). I always have pmt symptoms when pregnant followed by no period and BFP. Though understand how difficult it is meeting pregnant friends without your bump. Though you will have one soon.

Me, I'm busy avoiding post-natal friends as many are pregnant or already have number 2's so it's a bit much. Oh well, at least you have DS1 is a common bleat. Yes I'm eternally grateful for that, but it doesn't make it any easier to handle the fact I lost my 2nd son. I know I'm being a wuss, and need to pull it together. Just not ready yet.

Hoping, hoping spotting stops before Friday as I feel washed out from this weekends blood loss, and that doesn't help mood etc.

Speak later xxx

Wednesday list

Northlondonchoclover TTC#1 UCL28 cycle WTF CD62
RunForTheHills TTC#1 UCL30 cycle 14 CD5
yogamat TTC#2 UCL? cycle WTF CD58
sunburntats TTC#2 UCL28 cycle 2 CD56
NoShouting TTC#5 UCL? cycle 1 CD52
Tigerbear TTC#1 UCL26 cycle 7 CD46
dirtgirl TTC#2 UCL28 cycle1 CD42
sakura TTC#1 UCL28 cycle1 CD40
Underneaththestream TTC#1 UCL? cycle 1 CD38
shinysideup TTC#2 UCL25 cycle1 CD35
icedlemonmuffin TTC#2 UCL24-32 cycle11 CD34
HappyGirl1 TTC#1 UCL26-28 cycle1 CD34
cinnamonswirl TTC#? UCL23-30 cycle? CD34
CCBloom TTC#1 UCL28 cycle1 CD31
Pollyanna TTC#6 UCL27 cycle1 CD29
Barrenbrook TTC#1 UCL 25-28 cycle 12 CD27
slimyak TTC#2 UCL 26 cycle 3 CD26
Zayja TTC#1 UCL24-26 cycle 12 CD25
vivcliquot TTC#1 UCL27 cycle 4 CD25
Hopefully TTC#2 UCL28 cycle 4 CD24
Limelight TTC#2 UCL35 cycle 1 CD24
Goodluckbear TTC#1 UCL28 cycle 2 CD24
LittleMiss72 TTC#1 UCL28 cycle 2 CD22
Tigger15 TTC#2 UCL26 cycle 10 CD21
Curlylox TTC#3 UCL28 cycle 1 CD21
Liahgen TTC#6 UCL26 cycle 1 CD20
Malteser1981 TTC#? UCL28 cycle 1 CD18
westyorkshiregirl TTC# 1 UCL37 cycle 2 CD14
Gi1da TTC#1 UCL28 cycle 1 CD12
Urd TTC#3 UCL28 cycle 1 CD12
Allthe8s TTC#3 UCL28 cycle 2 CD10
hippychick66 TTC#3 UCL28 cycle 1 CD10
Mummy3610 TTC#4 UCL 26-30 cycle 1 CD9
Moofold TTC#2 UCL~33 cycle2 CD7
clareanna TTC#2 UCL35 cycle 2 CD7
BunnyBaby TTC#3 UCL31 cycle 2 CD6
sparklyrainbow TTC#1 UCL28 cycle 1 CD5
LucyT66 TTC#1 UCL33-34 cycle 4 CD5
JulesAbs TTC#1 UCL30 cycle 2 CD2
albadetamble TTC#2 UCL25 cycle2 CD1

PENDING STATS
lauraloo09 TTC#2 UCL? cycle WTF CD?
ElmMum TTC#2 UCL 28/29 cycle WTF CD?
meatntattypie
GinaFB
Spottysox

WTTC
Muser TTC#1 EP 18/02/10 on month 2 of 3 month wait
Jollster TTC#2 MMC2 26/02/10
MrsGazebo TTC#1 MMC6 Molar 8/1/10. On 3-6 month wait
Cheepz TTC#2 MMC 26/3/10

GRADUATES
amyboo
totally
hoops997 BFP 11 July 2009
Stressy BFP 22nd August 2009
becky78 BFP 4th September 2009
LittleOneMum BFP 7th September 2009
Waitingisntfun BFP 19th September 2009
Chamois BFP 7th October 2009
Apples BFP 9th November 2009
Meita BFP 10th December 2009
CakeandFineWine BFP 27th December 2009
boodleboot BFP 2nd January 2010
LeeWT BFP 21st January 2010
TFLS BFP 22nd January 2010
Louisesh BFP 22nd January 2010
MrsRigby BFP 27th January 2010
TheKurgan BFP 30th January 2010
effilump BFP 8th February 2010
Sarahlou8 BFP 10th February 2010
samanthab123 BFP 10th February 2010
redandyellowandpinkandgreen BFP 6th March 2010
floweringcurrant BFP 8th March 2010
Unbuffy BFP 28th March 2010

Oh my gosh, last time i logged onto this site it was all happy news, and i am so sorry to see (wont name check) so much sadness for everyone. I hope that everything starts improving for all soon.
I am really cross with myself, I bought some Ovulation sticks at the weekend.. it was £20 for 5 or £30 for 20 - so I went for the £30 pack as it seemed sensible - but you have to use them within a month or they go "off" - who ever heard such rubbish!! Who would test straight after to see if they are ovulating?! Ive been had.
And I also think I have missed our window this month for SWI as I was a grumpy cow last night and DH is away tonight... and its left him upset too as he knew it was a good time and now he is disappointed too. I feel like such a cow. And no 2010 baby for me either now.

That said I will jump him tomorrow night when he gets through the door just in case!!

Hi JulesAbs - welcome. I will let someone better at list-maintenance add you as I am afraid to mess it up!!

I met my mate last night (the one who is same number of weeks pregnant as I would've been) - she has a really nice bump and looked really well. So I started crying. Nice. Also doesn't help that I've got PMT type very mild cramps. I was thinking - well, it's a week before my period so maybe that's a good sign! And then I checked my diary. Last month, in order to stop myself symptom spotting every month, I wrote down how I felt everyday so I would know how I feel in a normal cycle. And at the same point in my last cycle I had written "mild PMT type cramps". So it's just another normal cycle. I am so fed up of this, I really wanted a 2010 baby, I have no explanation for why.

God I'm a right moaning mini today!!

Can i join the group?

JulesAbs TTC#1 UCL30 cycle 2 CD2

Morning all, hope your all doing ok despite the miserable weather! CV polished off and sent woohoo!

Cheepz hope today goes ok for you, good to hear you being positive about it all hunni. Thinking of you today.

Late night last night.. bowling woke up this morning with a terrible thirst so know I've had way too much to drink! I'm sure someone will fill in the blanks later..

Working from home.. sod going out in that weather feeling the way I do this morning no symptoms at all for me, would normally have sore boobies by now but even that hasn't happened this month. I have a feeling things are not in synch the painful ov pains earlier this month could be a sign of something else.

Test results last Friday came back all clear so no infection however smear test pending

Happy Wednesday all. x

morning all, apologies for my absence.
cheepz honey, hope today goes ok for you. Thinking of you, you sound like you are very upbeat about it all. I too raise my hat to you. Incidentally, when i typed your name on my phone it came out as cheery!

urd so sorry to hear about your Dad lovely, hope you are ok. I lost mine at the not so ripe age of 65, one week he had a bad back, 6 weeks later we were at his funeral. That was 3 1/2 years ago now. I totally agree with hippy that the desperate, empty feeling passes. The old cliche of time being a great healer is so very true. Thinking of you x

Hello to everyone else, sorry for hogging all the OB!

cd25 for me and no sign of anything apart from a few very mild cramps. Accupuncture lady got me on the progesterone cream this month which I think has something to do with lack of RTD symptoms, suits me though! No break out, no bloating, no sore tits so I don't have to hold them while I am out running. Splendid!

Right, i fear I may have gone on for a little too long and have pissed many a commuter off on the train with my phone button clicking! Have a good day ladies x

Slimyak - it's my b'day on friday- understand how you're feeling x

just oredered kotex on amazon!!! along with cbfm sticks and 50 cheapies - it was cheaper to buy 50 than 25! and under a fiver!!!!

clareanna know what you mean about hiding the cbfm - its a real passion killer 'hey honey we got a peak' doesn't cut it for my dh either

Cheepzy I raise my hat (and indeed all the hats in the house) to you. Will be thinking of you tomorrow. Much love xx

Hope everyone else doing ok wherever you are physically and emotionally.

Goodluckbear I'm with you on the wine and choccie mousse! I treated myself to a nice wine at the weekend and it was lovely.

Cheepz I am glad you are experiencing the restorative powers of shopping, My 2 Ebay purchases arrived today - one is a lovely red jacket I got for £2.80! I had to get it when I bought a red spotty handbag - I love to justify other new items when I buy something else - you do need to be coordinated is what I tell myself! Oh and thanks for reminding us all of what we do have rather than what we all want and can't have right now.

Happygirl I loved your ref to 'having a good run at it' which made me sound like we were climbing a mountain not making a baby! Although right now I would def say the latter is the hardest! Am feeling much better tonight and poised for action once I've made by sarnies!