Emmsy's weebles - enjoying comfort, support and mini eggs, onwards and upwards!

Barbie, Curly and Vjay - me too, she won't sleep just cries an awful lot just lately. Sorry too tired to post, DH working 14 hour days all through the weekend too.

Moon don't go anywhere. If we can help with anything let us know. And please we need daily updates on AF or hopefully lack of it

sorry for lack of personals but I'm so dogtired I'm just going to stare at a spot on the wall while gorgeous curlygirl feeds can't wait to catch up properly with you all and def need long chat with barbie and a few others as it sounds so familiar. Big hugs to everyone especially mermaid and monkey xxx

yummy mummies

hello girls, happy long weekend

oh barbie your dd is absolutely gorgeous, she has a lovely mouth, so cute! glad to see you back, i'm sure you are coping just brilliantly, dont be too hard on yourself, as long as your girl is happy and healthy then you are doing everything right, and i'd be worried if you weren't tired!

iggy i LOVE marzipan! i made a simnel cake over Easter and for the first time made my own marzipan, and omg is it the most scrummiest thing ever, i ate most of it before it even reached the cake

cupcake have a lovely time, and enjoy some well deserved pampering

hi sabs i see the new logos too but as i am not on either i dont know what it means!

wow vjay 8 months, time flies, i am so pleased you and all the other yummu mummies are still here

waves to blue and neeko and welcome back to louey, and lots of love to those i've missed

cd33

have had some bad news on dfs side of the family today, 2 things so far so i am pessimisticly (is that even a word?) expecting a 3rd even now may not be around much over the next few weeks, but i will lurk when i can and of course update with any news

Hi ladies, hope everyone is well and looking forward to the bank holiday weekend. What does everyone have planned?

Just wanted to ask if anyone else can see a facebook and twitter sign on each of the posts? Think it means anyone can tweet or add our posts on their facebook page?

Will be back soon for a catch up but wanted to send a big hug to monkey, and also to mermaid, moon and anyone else who wants a hug from me

Sorry... im soooo tired im finding it a little hard to keep up with posting lately

I feel so bad that i wasnt around yet again for monkey i always seem to be awol when someone really needs the support badbarbie So a belated hug and sorry to monkey.I hope the star gives you some peace and it will be nice to have a place to go and remember. Our lo is still in newcastle, they too had a buriel service for the mummies of the lost lo's...i didnt go, just couldnt face it. It really hit me when we had to move to dubai, felt like i was leaving a piece of me behind...hence the star on my wrist, i know now that i will always remember where ever i am

mermaid how are you holding up? still in your hard hat???

curly and vjay im glad im not the only one worrying that i might have pnd....i have had a few bad days lately, i just cant seem to stop beating myself up about sleep routines and lack of it. Dh was really worried about me the other day and asked if i was coping ok ...this lead to more tears as i thought he was accusing me of not coping. I know now that my bad days seem so much worse after a bad nights sleep so im putting it down to that. Im just going to go with the flow over the next few weeks and see how it goes...lack of support over here doesnt help. Devon goes to bed at 7.30 now...it takes a while to get her to sleep but when she goes its for about 3 and a half hours, the problem being she refuses to go back to sleep, until about 7.30am! last night was the first night she went back to sleep after each feed, although it took a little while of cuddling..slowly slowly catch a monkey and all that! The problem seems to be that i miss the first sign of her being tired and before i know it she is overtired and then we battle for her to give in! Any ideas anyone????

4ever i cant stop smiling for you the end is near!!!!

moon ?

louey Potty training? boy oh boy i have forgotten that sleep isnt going to be my only battle

cupcake im so at your spa break...i could do with some serious pampering myself. Enjoy!

neeko are the picture up of the big meet? mls i hope you are enjoying whats left of your trip...how is bump?

gracie lol at the poo! Devon wee'd on daddy yesterday, all over his work stuff...first time ever, its normally over me!

Oh dear i have to help dh, she is screaming with tiredness poor thing

Oh and for all of you not on fb i have added another picture on my profile...back soon x

Hi girls, it actually is morning when I'm posting for once

qa Desperate Housewives is flipping brilliant..had a bit of a downer in seasons 2 & 3 but 4, 5 & 6 (so far) are so amazing. DH won't even let me watch it without him he loves it too
I ADORE Pacey too, yummy yummy yum! But blue would you choose him over Aiden? tough call!

4ever yippeeeee to having a date so exciting!! I'm totally hoping our los will be born on the same day! So poignant what you said about epu/antenatal clinics though

monkey so sorry you had that horrible experience of pregnant ladies everywhere but hope the appointment was positive.

iggy 7 weeks, yay! The booties are sooo so easy. I'll email you the pattern to add to your collection I'm trying a hat now too (because neeko I'm so still not advanced enough for the cardi I don't even know how to increase stitches, rubbish.)

louey glad your break away was lovely and good luck with the potty training!

moon are we still ?

Yippee for bank holiday! Dh and I off to a hotel/spa for the night tonight I'm soooo excited some friends told us yesterday that they reckon their ds came 3 weeks early cos she had a jacuzzi the day before so maybe I should try that!!

hello all!

neeko is 7 weeks today till my mat leave starts (yes I have been counting ) - breastfeeding workshop sounds v. good - is one of the things I so want to do, but worry that I might fail at...

4ever wow - can't believe we now so close to your baby being born - so so exciting after such a long weebly journey for you. I think I may cry when I hear your birth announcement...

Louey glad you had nice birthday! And v. good news about the unprotected BD action - I think is a good sign for ttc...

QA I am obsessed with baking cakes - what was it?! I am wanting to try to make a battenberg... but I do have a serious marzipan habit...

monkey still thinking of you - but hope you enjoying your break.

mermaid also thinking about my lovely - I hope you are hiding safely in the sand.

gracie gorgeous pic of isabelle!

sleepybarbie hope you got more that 2 hrs last night?

cupcake love the idea of all the booties are they easy? I keep meaning to start neeko's pattern - but am still plodding along with a baby hat - which am v. slow at!

moon how are you? Any news?!

curly hope curlygirl is still improving!

vjay meant to say well done on your mark!

I am all happy today cos it's Friday and it's a bank holiday weekend! And also cos I had a hypnobirthing class yesterday - which was amazing!

Hi guys,

Quickie whilst B sleeps...

Neeko - yawn! me too. B up at midnight, 3am and 5.45am but knew he would be as his feeds were short yesterday. He gets distracted when his big brother is about and his 4pm feed took place in my volvo after taking DS1 to park! Hope you enjoy the BF support group. I've been going to mine for a few weeks and its really, well, supportive . So many of us have/had colicky/windy/fretful babies it was so reassuring that it wasn't just mine! I was able to report on Tues that B has been a star over past couple of weeks and fretful feeds are down to 2 per week rather than 2-3 per day.

Louey - big Liverpool fans in our house too! DH was gutted. I hid up here talking to my SIL on FB as DH brother big fan too. Good luck with the toilet training. DS1 trained himself at 25 months BUT he still in night time nappy at nearly four . He still has milk at bedtime so need to cut that out first and just not got energy for accidents and night waking from him when I'm up with his wee brother! Glad you had a good break away and managed to surupticiously bd with your DH .

QA - there are a few Pacey lovers on here . Barbie and me have already had a hair pulling episode over him . He was just divine .

4ever - eeeek! So exciting, getting your induction date man oh man!!!! A great time of year to be born (I was born on 29th May!) but don't think you'll last until then - well I hope not! So relate to EPU and not knowing anyone's story when your all sitting there waiting to go in. We've been on both sides of the fence and I was so mindful of other ladies when I went for my - oh 18 scans this time around. Its just so that happy and heartbreak are all there waiting in that corridor..

monkey - so you had to wade through pg women. Hope you're having a lovely break with your DDad and DS.

Gracie - Isabelle is just a peach .

Off 'out' tonight - well going round to friend's house who lives 5 mins away. B still not taking a bottle so I'm only going for couple of hours (friend is hosting children's clothes party - like Tupperware but more expensive!). Have expressed there just not but only got 2oz probably because he fed like a mad man during the night.

Better dash and do some dusting whilst B sleeps.

Will have quicke lurk at bathtime

Love to all x

Another sleep-deprived lurker here. Apologies in advance for missing people out.

Monkey a huge belated hug from me. Hope your break away is helping a little.

Mermaid How you bearing up? feel any different?Is it Wed for the scan?

4ever Yay the end is in sight. Really pleased for you.

Vjay hope you got some sleep last night and that Ajay has a shiney new tooth.

Gracie lovely pic. Isabelle has lovely hair -MLS will be jealous.

Louey Glad you had a nice trip and yay to the BD. Good luck with the potty training.

Moon Anything to report?

Curly How are you? I've been having a couple of flat days too and they're horrible. Bloody horrormones. Big hug.

Barbie Has devon recovered from her jags yet?

Cupcake loving your nesting posts. Not long to go. Are you going to vajazzle when you wax?

Iggy bet you're counting down the weeks til mat leave now. Hope it flies in.

QA another Pacey lover here. Can I have some cake?

H was one month old yesterday Going to a breastfeeding workshop today as the breastfeeding mum did it with DD1but she was older and feeding was better established. Been up most of the night so not enthusiastic.

My chocolate free month starts tomorrow!

yawn.....just catching up. will be back

I'm back and trying to catch up - bear with me

monkey I'm glad you had so much support the other night and I'm sorry I wasn't around to give you a hug too. So here is one from me now and I hope things are feeling a bit brighter today (despite having to face PG women at the gynae appointment). Hope you get to go to the star garden soon and you have a nice few days away.

mermaid I did tell you I was drunk . Sorry for mixing up the boob flashing incident (and to barbie too). How are you doing?

4ever that's GREAT news. I can tell you are over the moon. Hope you have a very uneventful week next week and a nice restful weekend.

Vjay your DH sounds so thoughtful. What a lovely thing to do. Mine is absolutely useless at doing things like that. Still waiting for a birthday present and I can't even blame it on having chldren now because he was like it before Hope you had a better night sleep last night. Teething is a rotten phase.

QA I'm glad you're back . I'm glad your cycles are getting back to normal, at least you know that you can try when you decide its the right time for you to TTC again.

curly the bad days are normal. I think you just have to be aware of PND when you have more bad days than good. I remember having days when I felt so low when DTs were tiny but it was almost always related to lack of sleep. I still have days where I metaphorically want to kill them.

iggy woohoo for internet shopping. Are you bankrupt yet

cupcake I'm of anyone who can knit, let along booties which look complicated to me. Sounds like you are enjoying your maternity leave

Gracie that's a wonderful thing to do. DS2 was in SCBU for a few weeks after he was born and the really small babies could use the donated breast milk there but obviously there was a limited supply. Must have a peek at the pic of Isabelle when I get a chance.

blue I'm glad the christening went well. I've just a letter from the hospital chaplain about a similar service - held once a year. Its in a couple of weeks. It is a lovely thing to do, but I don't know if I will go. I'm not sure it will help me TBH.

Jools glad you are having a lovely holiday and I really love the sound of chocolate martinis

neeko and mls glad you had lovely meet up. Neeko - impressive weight gain from your milk monster

barbie sleep deprivation is a killer. I hope you are geting some more now.

LBM happy maternity leave . Chickpeas are also good for increasing iron levels (discovered when they put me on iron tablets after my ERPC).

Moon

Waves to pfj, hope you're ok.

DH has just informed me that the Liverpool game is going to extra time so I've got a bit longer to update with my news.

We've had a nice few days away - despite going to bed too late and being woken up too early by DTs who were about a foot away from our bed. My birthday was lovely and ILs babysat so that we could go out for dinner in Truro. Went to the beach yesterday and DTs had great fun running in and out of the sea which was freezing. It reminded me why we normally try and go somewhere hot.....

On the TTC front, still waiting for TEW and it is a few weeks away yet but (TMI) have DTD with DH without protection. I suspect he thinks I can't get PG yet because its too soon soon after ERPC (and he's probably right) but I think its a good sign and hopefully he may be changing his mind about TTC again.

Otherwise, we are starting to potty train DS1 tomorrow which I'm so not looking forward to. DS2 was trained last summer and he was hard enough - It was the week from hell. DS1 still has poos which are like a newborn (ok, perhaps not like gracie's isabelle but you get the drift....) Have got magnetic star chart, chocolate buttons, new big boy pants which he has chosen and lots of wine for us. Think my diet will be starting next week. Oh and I was supposed to be watching the debate whilst DH was watching the football but have been on here. Still have no idea who I'm going to vote for

Hey girlies, quiet on here today! I never got back to sleep til 7am so running on adrenylin! Quickie from me to fill you in on hospital today, was there 4 hrs! See diabetic midwife, she's happy with levels, so no more finger pricking for me, YAY! Poor sore fingers, what a relief, I dont have GD but will still keep an eye on my sugar intake, which cant hurt with me losing excess babyweight in a few weeks! Saw nearly every midwife & nurse we've ever seen today & our lovely sonographer, we waited an hour to see consultant but hardly stopped chatting to everyone which was really nice, when we did see consultant he was extra bright & breezy too and agreed that we should be induced at 38 weeks!!! EEK! DH and I were like excited school kids at xmas as we waited for the midwife to come in with our date! Consultant happy with all other aspects but agrees cos of large baby, SPD, 2 vessel cord, and glucose worry, that although all perfectly fine, for us he is happy to induce!!! He is such a lovely man and I felt so emotional, I kept grabbing his hand & thanking him, we see him again in 2 weeks & I felt so emotional today that all this fantastic care from such a fantastic team of people is soon coming to an end!!!

Sooooooooo, we were given the date of Saturday 22nd May! That could be our little girls birthday if all goes well and moves quickly!!! I know it can take a while so am prepared for that but just feel so excited! Sweepstake off for me then! Cupcake - takes you over by 2 days but c'mon girl! LBM too!

We saw midwife after for birthplan and DH and I like giggly kids! Such an emotional rollercoaster however, Monkey tx this morning to say at her gynae she was surrounded by preg ladies, I told her about MNs MC code of practice they are trying to pass so that doesnt happen, & how all my pre op checks were done at EPU which is within ante natal, and how I now sit and look at the ladies in those chairs with a heavy heart knowing they may be doing the same as I once did, and how much it must hurt them to see me & others waddling around... Once we were all done today we were waiting to make follow up apt with consultant at ante natal reception desk which is right outside one of the EPU scan rooms, we saw our sonographer again as she come out, I started saying with a grin, 'we're still here!' then saw her followed by a poor teary young woman who had to walk past the queue of me & other heavily preg women, it just broke my heart and tears stung my eyes immediately.. Our sonographer walked back to us a few minutes later and I just flung my arms round her & said how sad it made me to see that, and what an amazing job she does, and the tears were just flowing, I couldnt stop them, all the emotions of how far we've come, but how raw those memories still are, wow it really hit me, I just feel so so so grateul to have got this far, but so so so sad for those still struggling... Soooooooo emotional! I just had to share that on here with you all....

Right Im now off to collapse on sofa! Poor DH and I are SHATTERED! Back for catch ups ASAP! NO hospital apts at all next week! Am ideally planning on not leaving the house!!!

gracie your Dd is gorgeous!

cupcake I used to watch desperate Housewives, but haven't seen any of the last couple of series, is it worth getting back in to? I used to love Dawson's creek too! Had a bit of a thing for the guy who played Pacey!

4Ever hope it went well with the consultant and you finally managed to get some sleep last night.

Vjay your Dh sounds really thoughtful, it makes the difficult times so much easier when you have someone like that around. Hope tonight is a better night for you.

mermaid how are you doing? Do you mind me asking when your next appointment is? You can answer with a if you prefer!

moon hope you are doing ok, here's another for you too. Keeping everything crossed for you and Mermaid

monkey so glad that you went to bed feeling even just a little bit better last night. Enjoy the sea air, pampering and time with your Dad.

pfj if you're lurking, come back and let me know how you are getting on, if you do i will give you some crumbs from my cake

Did some baking today and trying hard not to eat all the cake tonight! My will power is not up to the job though Mmmmm cake

monkey oh honey I am sending you out as many healing thoughts as possible. I am sorry that I have missed you but so hope you are having some of that pampering.
The star garden sounds a fitting place to go and remember your little boy.x

I have to go because reality intruded and after a call from my nice bank manager I am now in a mad frenzy of work eek!

Oh and mermaid...barely stop thinking about you too lovely, how are you doing? Please come and join the hugs and ice-cream in the greenhouse.

Morning Afternoon girls (although I have actually done something productive this morning, ironed all dh's shirts...while watching Dawson's Creek )

4ever hope everything went ok this morning. Bless you posting at that time. When your girl gets here you'll be getting so much sleep you'l feel like a new woman at this rate

Vjay how lovely of your dh I'm planning a pedicure (and wax, eek) in the next couple of weeks for a bit of pampering.

Hi iggy

monkey so sorry to have missed your posts - I think that star garden sounds lovely - and totally agree with all the other girls with their wise words. I hope you manage to have a nice time on your break xx

quick wave to everyone else xxxxx

Monkey was just thinkin about you & your dad, when i lost my dad i felt i had to sheild & protect my mum from everything, the roles became a bit reversed & it was hard for me, i expect its somewhat the same for you? However after going through the mc's it has reversed the parent child roles back to what they were & has rebonded us in such a special & needed way, she has been an amazing support.. Im just thinking that it would break my mums heart to feel she hadnt been able to support me & im sure your dad would feel the same, and that its almost cathartic & healing for him to feel able to help you & be there for you.. Just a thought sweetie.. Know your head must be spinning right now... X x x x x

Aw i feel awful i wasnt back on to add my arms to the giant hug surrounding our lovely monkey so beautiful the support that is shared on our wonderful thread... Monkey a belated hug from me, i did light a candle & say a prayer for you & your angel too... Its so special you have a place of rememberence for him.. Maybe you can open up to your dad on your break away? i understand it must be hard as he is also still grieving your beloved mum.. Hope the sea air helps bring some peace & healing to you both.. Massive hug to you... X x x x x Much love to all you other lovelies reading your posts is enough to make me cry! Blue you say such beautiful things, you have a knack of getting it spot on, your so lovely.. Vjay its so lovely you are both meeting up, belated proud pat on back for your score mrs fantastic! ...Cupcake bless you and the beautiful bootees you are so lovely & thoughtful & mine have pride of place in babys room I am so hopeful we have our babes on the same day, tis so exciting! (& scary too! ) We see the consultant tomorrow so may get to pick our little girls birthday! I really hope so anyway! ...Curly my lovely, thanks for that needed hug the other day! You are such a sweetheart, hope your now getting some sleep?! ....Moon I agree that our lost angels are always with us, bit today sending 2nd birthday card to friends dd who had close edd to our 1st angel... Big hug to you (plus lots of babydust, so want this to be your month!) ...Gracie fantastic poo story! DH is asleep next to me, cant wait to share! I think what your doing with your breastmilk is absolutely wonderful, how beautifuly rewarding! QA lovely to read your posts sweetie, im glad you are clambering back aboard the ttc bus, expert advice aplenty on here my love! ....Extra hug & thoughts to Mermaid in my prayers hon... Came to bed at 9pm (IL's round & exhausted me!) i pinged awake couple hrs ago must persevere with sleep as have 2 see consultant at 11am!

Lol blue I'm sure you meant big hug but bug hug sounds so cute!
Lovely what you said about us first timers, thanks

Forgot to say Neeko well done at H's weight!

Right, watching Desperate Housewives now (bit sad actually, lots about Lynette & Tom losing their baby )

oh gracie what a cutie she is its a lovely photo