Emmsy's weebles - enjoying comfort, support and mini eggs, onwards and upwards!

sabs happy birthday to youHave a lovely day.x

monkeyall my thoughts.xx

Just checking to see if there has been any news of Monkey.

Hi. A quick post from my phone. I know its not a time for celebration in our greenhouse but does anyone want to share some birthday cake with me? monkey my heart is breaking for you. I can't believe what you're having to go through sending out lots of hugs to you, and to mls too. Be back soon

Monkey god I'm so so sorry you are still going through this. I'm willing it to be over soon xxxxx

4ever thank you for the update

MLS have everything crossed that the bloods bring the risk down and you can enjoy the rest of your pregnancy.

Will be back on tomorrow to do proper personals.

Monkey So sorry to hear it is still going on. I'd hoped to hear you'd be home by now.

MLS good to hear you've formulated a plan to get the reassurance you need.

Isabelle's eye is much better thank you.

Poor monkey I can't believe it is still going on. It's lovely to see it so packed in our greenhouse. There is so much love in the room xxx

oh monkey - this is just too cruel . 4ever - thanks for keeping us updated however wrenching those txts must be to receive .

MLS - hope the quadruple bloods give you the reassurance you so deserve

louey so sorry to hear you're in limbo land - its just horrible.

Lovely to hear from your cupcake

Neeko - you put me to shame with your Tesco runs with a week old

Gracie - hope little Isabelle's eyes are better and yes calpol is the amber nector

moon - we will re-group and refocus on your wedding so you can sneak in a bfp when we're up to our ears in tuille

Love to all xx

oh monkey you poor thing, i had hoped the physcial side at least would be over by now and you could be tucked up on the sofa watching crap telly with your dh looking after you, im so sorry you are still going through it, sending you a massive hug, you're so brave xxx

mls hope you are holding up ok, i agree with curly in that if it would make a difference then do what you feel is right, but also agree i wouldnt risk mc for anything or anyone. big hug for you too, wish i could help with something a bit more productive.

hi cupcake and annie nice to see you both

please dont rely on me for good news i might fold under the pressure! having said that i always do work best under pressure so who knows i shall certainly try my best

Oh God Monkey you poor poor thing. I wish there was a way of making this easier for you. We are all praying for you & holding your hands & stroking your hair.

Just updating that poor poor monkey is still having contractions & going through a living nightmare of still waiting... I told her how much love & support has been radiating from here in a way rarely seen before for & she is very grateful & sends her love back...

Hi

Monkey You have been constantly in my thoughts. Hope you're bearing up ok. gracie and Blue's words had me sobbing too, but I hope you find some comfort in them.

MLS Know we've texted loads about it but glad you have a plan now for the Monica in you and really glad to hear you feeling more grounded. My hands here for you whenever.

Louey sorry things are so rubbish for you. Hope you can have some physical closure soon.

Cupcake Glad my texts are helping I have lovely pics (which I'm not posting due to big naked bum! ) of me holding H in the birthing pool wearing my tankini top and I hadn't even passed the placents yet. I used a tens machine with both girls in theearly stages and it really helped. Make sure you start using it with the first few contractions.

Blue thanks for the advice today.

Gracie I survived but was exhausted

Sorry, being called for or at least my boobs are!!! Love to all.

Knock knock...
...I have just been having a mammoth catch up and I must say the way you ladies pull together in a crisis is really just overwhelming. The love and support for monkey over the last few days has just been incredible and I love the image of all of us just pulling together, eating chocolate and holding a little vigil for monkey and her precious angel. You are all very special.

Monkey I thought of you all day yesterday and sent prayers up for you. So sorry to hear you were still waiting last night. I hope it's over for you now. gracie what you said about baby being too precious for this earth was just beautiful. I can't get over the injustice of everything that's happened to you monkey but I do know that the darkest hour of the night is just before the dawn. Massive hugs and hairstrokes to you honey.

4ever my lovely, thanks for keeping me updated the last few days. I might need you to continue the service for a while as not in the office again til Monday and internet not being connected at home til a week Fri, boo. Reading about your experience has been so heart-wrenching too but I'm just so glad one of us can support monkey all the more for having been through it.

MLS Feel so sad reading you say one day you will enjoy this pregnancy... it's just horrible and unfair that even past the 'magic' 12 weeks you still have all this worry. I'm inclined to agree with your dh though that the odds aren't awful. Hopefully things will be clearer after the next blood test. Here's my other hand.

Neeko- hello yummy mummy with the gorgeous new dd hope you are doing ok. Thanks for your reassuring texts, I am looking forward to feeling like superwoman after I give birth to this baby (which I'm more certain by the day is a whopping great big lad)

Curly sorry your girl is colicky must be so horrible not being able to comfort them at all. Hope the tiger thing works for you (that sounds so cute!)

Gracie hope Isabelle's eyes are clearing up poor thing

Blue sorry the whole formula thing hasn't worked out yet but glad B is a bit more settled.

Well we had a lovely Easter weekend away at the in-laws (even though mil annoyed me by totally raining on my parade about having baby in the bedside cot ) and the house is now almost in order...dh is going to put pictures on the walls tonight and then it will feel more like home I have got as far as packing baby's things, a tens machine and my tankini for the hospital could be interesting if I have to be rushed in tonight

Massive hugs to you all; am missing being in touch every day!

Well I have slight progress at least, I'm booked in for another blood test next Tuesday - its the quadruple test. It will be added onto my existing odds so they will either go up or down. I'll have the results by the time I see my consultant next Friday. One day I'll be able to relax & enjoy this pregnancy...

Louey sorry you are now having to play this awful waiting game. I remember the waiting, waiting to mc, waiting for the bleeding to stop, waiting for a neg hpt, waiting to ovulate.... it's all designed to mess with your head.

hello ladies, sorry ive been AWOL for a while, thanks to those that have updated me by text as to any news.
Im still reading through trying to catch up so will do a massive post sometime today-promise.
Just want to say i am so sorry to hear poor Monkeys news, poor love, after all she has been through, life really is so cruel sometimes .
Im thinking of you Monkey, im not as good with words as some of the ladies on here, but the feeling is still there, i wish you the strength to get through this. XXX

Now Moon sorry to put the pressure on but it seems we're relying on you for some good news!! Now get gone and get some BDing done!!

Louey Sorry to hear things aren't going well for you either. When I had my MMC, my baby had already been dead for 2 weeks when I had my scan, I waited a further week after that but still no bleeding so I ended up having an ERPC. Its horrible being in limbo-land isn't it.

Monkey I do hope the physical bit is over now. huge hugs. We're all here waiting for you to return for a bit of pampering. xxxxx

MLS sounds like a good plan.

Neeko good luck with your first solo trip to Tescos with the girls!

Happy birthday to PFJ's little boy!

Curly don't worry you didn't offend me! My thoughts are now going in a different direction. I think the hormone they were testing (or at least part of it) is hcg that starts to drop at 10-12 weeks. If this is the case then could the reason for this hormone to be slightly higher than they expected be because they have dated me at 13 weeks but going by my dates I was actually 12 weeks at the time of the tests - therefore they would have found a weeks worth of extra hormone than they were expecting? I'm trying to get hold of the lady with the results that I spoke to yesterday to see what she says. Also I've read that 3 out of 4 babies with downs has no nasal bone & mine definitely does have one.

Monkey I hope the wort part of this nightmare is over for you now. Sending massive hugs. x

Woke up thinking of monkey and can't bear to think of what she may have been through but I'm just hoping it is over and we can wrap her up in that cotton wool and try and help her through the next stage. Lots of love to you monkey xxx

reading over my words to mls last night I winced as I sounded a bit like my mum who is lovely but always gives me advice along the lines of "it's up to you but this is what I think you should do...". I didn't mean to come across as judgemental hon. I think what I was trying to say was that if the results if an amnio would impact on whether you continue with the pregnancy then it may be a good idea. But if it wouldn't then I personally wouldn't risk mc just for the sake of knowing. It's really hard honey. After what you have been through already I wish you didn't have to have this stress also. I would def recommend a private scan. Are you in Sussex? There is a very good private hospital in Kent called the Alexander spire where a consultant does the scans so can advise you afterwards xxx

moon go make us some good news honey. I've a feeling this has got to be moon month

monkey just want u to know I'm thinking of you xxx

mls I'm sorry to hear you have more to worry about. I think it's your decision but personally I felt that as I would have kept the baby even with downs that I would not risk mc just to know for sure. Do whatever feels right for you xxx

Lots of love to louey. I had the same but it all came out before I had to have the second erpc so hopefully it will be the same for you

poor monkey

and louey so sorry you are having to go through more crap, fwiw any decision is not right or wrong, you just have to go with what feels right and we are here any time you need us.

yes we definitely need some nice news, best i can do is say af finished yest so some serious bding on the cards me thinks

Just heard from poor monkey she is havin 'bearable' contractions but still waiting... ....Louey so sorry to hear that, i needed a 2nd erpc for our 3rd baby, its awful cos it leaves u in limbo while u wait to see if it passes naturally, we waited 4wks & it delayed our investigations & made me feel unable to 'move on' a complete headf* heart goes out to u.. X

Monkey I hope you are getting through today, have been thinking of you

Gracie that's a lovely quote.

MLS I'm so sorry things are not straightforward. I agree with the others, I would push for another scan to check for soft markers before going for an amnio/cvs. I'm not sure where you live, but the Fetal Medicine Centre in London are supposed to be the best if you decide to go private. I think that's what we would have done if we were in a similar situation to you.

I've spent most of the day at the EPU having phoned this morning about the bleeding and they wanted me to come in. Dildocam showed a clot and they have gave me the option of waiting to see if the clot goes on its own or go for an ERPC. Apparently there is an 80% risk of it going by itself. My heart wanted to get it over with but my logical side has said its more sensible to wait and avoid another op. So another 2 weeks in limbo-land. Have a scan booked for 2 weeks and if it hasn't gone by then will have to have another ERPC. I really don't know if I've made the right decision

We need some good news on this thread I think. Someone must have something good happening

Blue I cried too. I hope Moon is right and all our lost LO's are playing together up in heaven.

Monkey - "An angel looked in the book of life to find your baby's date of birth, then gently closed that book of life and whispered "too precious for this earth".