Emmsy's weebles - enjoying comfort, support and mini eggs, onwards and upwards!

pfb honey you are not wallowing or feeling sorry for yourself. You are adjusting, coping, grieving and surviving. It is early days lovely just go with the flow eat mini eggs and every day you will be a bit stronger. But ouch at the stitches.

Reading about your ds not pseaking reminded me of my little sister who never spoke because I did it all for her Development milestnes are scary arn't they, he sounds as bright as a button.
I am glad he had a good birthday too.

monkey as always in our thoughts.x

monkey just want you to know I'm thinking of you. Hope you are home and tucked up in bed. It's just so unfair hon The next wee while will be the hardest and we will stay in the greenhouse feeding you nice food and large glasses of wine. You have been brave long enough my lovely, just let it all out. We will all grieve your lovely lost angel with you because none of us will ever forget how much we miss our own. I loved moons image of all our angels playing together. Big hugs and hairstrokes xxx

mermaid I'm so angry at your stupid golfer. Check with the hospital. You should be able to ask for a second opinion from another consultant and if you have a look at guidelines such as rcog and NICE you can make an argument for most things. How bloody dare they deny you treatment. Grrrr

moon I'm sorry if we have put you off bd'ing for life!!! I promise we won't watch

thepfj loved your post Jack sounds adorable and I'm sure not talking is nothing to worry about however I would advise talking to the gp now firstly because if he's not concerned then it will put ur mind at rest but also because a friend of mine kept putting it off and then found she had to wait ages for a referral. But he sounds like a gorgeous and very bright little boy xxx

big hugs to everyone xxx

Well, I know no one is really up for talking, I can't stop thinking about poor monkey today either. Life is really so cruel sometimes. I wish I could make it better.

The hospital have insisted I go and get my stitches poked at by a practice nurse at my GP surgery very soon, so I am going in on Tuesday. I really am too busy to go before then. Apparently a month and 4 days is a bit too long for stitches to be in there still. I shall have to have a stern talk with my bellybutton.

My little Jack turned 2 on Wedsnesday. He had a wonderful birthday surrounded by family and friends. Lots of In the Night Garden and Thomas puzzles and toys for him. I have tried really hard not to turn the living room into a giant toybox, but it seems it is!!

Jack is extremely clever with puzzles and problem solving, he walks and climbs and does all the things a toddler should except talk. He says all the right sounds, and he gets a picture book and points to the things he wants when he needs something! I have decided if he isn't talking by 2 and a half I shall call my GP and talk about speech therapy... Apparently the time to be worried is if they aren't talking properly by 3 years old, but most children are talking by 2 and earlier apparently... Any comments anyone?

Anyways, was thinking how I would have been pregnant with his little brother or sister on his birthday and felt a little bit sad.

Oh well, life is what it is. These are the cards we are dealt and we ought to play them to our best ability and get back on the horse and get busy living.

Although I think wallowing in minieggs for a few moments to feel sorry for ourselves is more than permitted, don't you think?

It feels better to talk to you all on here as well. Thanks for listening to me.

Love to you all as we get on with playing our cards. After all, we'll never win if we don't play.

XXX

Good morning everyone,

I have made a pot of tea for you all to enjoy, please help yourselves. I've got some easter eggs and minieggs left over in the kitchen too so dive in...

I might phone the hospital today to find out how long stitches take to dissolve because mine just won't seem to disappear.

Hugs for everyone, especially for you monkey.

xxx

hugs xxxx

So so sorry for you and your family monkey Can't even begin to imagine how incredibly hard these last few days will have been for you Truly awful.

popping in to send monkey my love and hugs, your angel is safe with all of our lost angels to play with xx

wow 4ever packing bags, so exciting i cant tell you how happy i am that this is finally happening for you, you and your lovely dh so deserve it

curly that was almost a mammoth post, very proud of you! you sound very happy. oh no now you've conjured up images of all you girls with pom poms at the end of my bed, please dont let me think that during bd-ing

happy birthday to sabs is there any cake left? its nice to have something to celebrate, i'm sure monkey wont mind and we can save her some cake for when she feels up to it.

mls hope you are keeping your chin up

mermaid lovely to see you doing giant posts, i always feel so bad i never have time to mention everyone. sorry your golfer is being a man unreasonable, but counselling sounds good for starters, maybe it will help to bring fighting mermaid back and then you can go back and smack him in the balls make some demands. thank you for saying i seem upbeat, its a struggle as you well know, but i like to think i am trying my best.

big waves to all the yummy mummies, i never know how you find time to support us all with your little ones in tow, but im so pleased you do. and big waves to medium and small panters alike.

Monkey So sorry - it doesn't sound enough, but words are deserting me. No-one, no-one deserves the year you are having. Take care and enjoy your DS when you can

Just sending lots of love to you monkey am thinking of you and sending you all my love am so sorry this has had to happen xxxxx

Afternoon. I have lots of new seedlings coming on so the greenhouse will be a bit cramped but at least we can get rid of mls vodka bottles
blue what are you going to grow? ds is usually only interested in our street sunflower competion or making money out of slug collecting but it is great to get them involved. I've got rainbow chard - well it looks pretty, spring onions, swiss chard (yuk)beetroot - ambitious and lots of different lettuce.

loueytbq you sound like you are going through the mill. It is hard to 'get on with things' when you have all that hanging over you.

vjay your poor back that has dragged on for a long time, glad it is easing. to ajay moving. It was something I dreaded as everything has to go up a level. He will think he is being sooooo clever

curly bless you, such a sweetie has the colic hold thingy worked? poor wee curly girl.
I have reached a black brick wall of despair with the golfer and have been told by my gp that they won't remove the fibroids full stop. I am feeling too tired, drained and emotional to summon up the energy to fight the hegemonic male bigotted view of putting ladies out to pasture after a certain age.

And I hate flamming golf.

I have some councilling sessions next week that seemed within their capability to organise for me which is probably a good thing.

cupcake lovely to think you are in your new nest, glad you like it and all your pictures are up. Can't believe that you and 4ever are getting so close. tick tock

mls god woman you don't half get the hectic end of the straw. I so hope you are as ok as possible after the last week. Are you still seeing your accup. lady?
The odds do sound small though and glad that you have another lot of bloods to hopefully sort out any uncertainty.

neeko Rest. Are you are rushing about too much and still remembering to count fingers and toes at least once a day. Tescos any time is hard let alone with a shiny new person. But it is nice doing a little parade

gracie I had forgotten that breast milk was good for conjunctivitus. amazing stuff. Has it worked?

moon well done for soldjering through another month and being so seemingly upbeat. I know how hard it is to keep going, well done.x

iggy hopefully the stress of being always tidy at the minute is not wearing you to a wafer. I had a thing about my taps, they had to be really shiny, daft.

sabs so hope you have enjoyed your day. Did saaras bit of eczema go? I can't remember, havn't got the brain cells of a spritely 29 year old

bakingqueen no doubt you are busy practising your pole technique but praying you are ok, not too many headaches. I have everything firlmy crossed as always.x

jools my lovely fine toned lady whose gym times I can never compete with. Miss you but know you are busy on the farm. I know I am a fine one to talk but please drop in and see us.xx

4ever golly gosh can you really be talking hospital bag so utterly exciting. Hope the appointment goes ok this afternoon. Thanks for letting us know about our gorgeous monkey today and for supporting her so much.

lbm I don't know how you get all you do done in a day, am in awe someone else who is tick tocking

monkey there are never words, lovely are there. Hold on to us tightly. You have been so brave. Thinking of you all.xxx

Monkey I'm so so sorry We are all devastated for you. I'm glad that at least that part of it is out of the way although I know it is going to be a long hard process physically and emotionally. We will all be here to give you hugs when you are ready to come and talk.

Oh poor Monkey, I'm so so sorry.

Monkey . You are in in all our thoughts and we are here as long as you need us.

Rest in peace little one x

Monkey Everytime I think of what you have been through I get so upset, to know your little angel wasn't going to survive and having to meet them at such an early stage was more than unfair but to have the ordeal go on for so long was just cruel and so unkind
I only hope our thoughts and love help in some small way to get you and your dh through this x

monkey thinking of you so so much xxxxxxxxxxxx

Monkey I've had a text from Neeko saying how much she is thinking of you too. This is a very sad & sombre day.

Oh monkey I'm so sorry honey and so sad for you and your dh and for your little angel who couldn't have had a better mum. I'm crying with heartache for you my lovely, it's just so heartbreaking. As soon as you feel ready, come over here and we'll hug you so tight. No one on here will ever forget your little angel and we'll be here as long as you need us xxx

I am so sorry monkey sending all my thoughts to you, your dh, dad and huge cuddles for your ds tooxxxxx

Monkey sending you massive hugs. We are all thinking about you & sending you strength. I wish things could have been different for you. Feeling so . xxx

Just heard from Monkey ....... : 'Our tiny little sleeping angel arrived at 6.30 this morning. It's finally hitting home + i can't stop crying... Xxx'

Happy birthday to the lovely Sabs! Yum to cake! ..... Big loving waves to Mermaid & Curly! ......Mls glad u have a plan & sound more positive... No news from Monkey ill update as & when... I have ante natal with golfer today at midday, am convinced head is engaged also worried bout leaky waters again.. We packed the bags at the weekend, exciting but scary! Glad to see u got on the case too my preg buddy Cupcake only 5 & a bit wks to go for u isnt it? Will be back to normal posting soon, so consumed with poor monkeys sad situation hasnt felt right somehow... Big love to all the special ladies who keep supportin...

MLS I like the plan and the presence of a nasal bone sounds very positive. I'm so glad they will do the other test. Hopefully it will send ur mind at rest xxx

haven't heard any news on monkey hopefully she is fast asleep and her ordeal is finally over. I'll restock on haagendaz in case she gets back to the greenhouse today. Lots of hugs to dear monkey till then xxx

Gracie well done for sorting out the conjunctivitis. Did u try neekos suggestion of breastmilk in the end? It would be good to know what worked best for u

Annie so good to see you. How is everything going my lovely?

Happy birthday Sabs what are your plans for today? I never say no to cake!!

cupcake it sounds quite similar to my hospital bag until 38 weeks hope the newcplace is gorgeouscand you are settling in well x

Neeko how are you finding things with the new baby? It took me a month to get to Tescos!!!

4ever thanks for all the updates on monkey. How are you doing honey?

moon we shall have to re-form our cheerleading squad so that we can really put you and df under pressure this month

vj is ur back any better? How is Aj getting on?

jools come back and let us know how you're doing. I'm a bit worried about u hon

I'm conscious too that it's not that long since we were gathered in the greenhouse for mermaid how are you doing lovely? Has the golfer left the golfcourse long enough to sort out some further tests on the cysts?

Waves to blue and louey and anyone else lurking xxx