Just MC...Long haul, short haul, ranting, weeping, laughing all encouraged. Oldies and newbies very welcome

A boy in my DS's class said to him today, "You're not still upset about your mum's baby dying are you, I thought you'd be over that by now!"

He's only 9 and we only lost the baby less than 2 weeks ago. He hadn't known about the baby long but he was so pleased and so upset when I had to tell him and his brother (aged 6)that the baby hadn't made it.

He was very upset when he got home from school.

Am i wrong to be so bloody mad at that other kid?

Hi to all. Hope you are all doing ok.

I'm still getting those darn shooting pains up the backside. 8 days after EPRC. I am going to see my lovely gp tomorrow but am worried she is gonna say, "Not normal after EPRC - let's book you in for a quick camera up the bum!"

Can I ask you guys, how scared were you about having another mc when you started ttc-ing. I so want to get pregnant again and i am trying hard to read all the facts that say most mc's are due to a problem with that particular embryo and you start again with the sme 1/4 chance of mc.

But, I'm 43 and I am wondering now if the reason I had my mmc was cos my eggs are just too old and that if I try again - I will have the same experience.

I think at the end of the day it comes down to how much you want to be pregnant again. But the doctor at the hospital did say, "Although this probably wont happen again and the chances are you'll be fine next time, you can't go in for another one unless you are prepared for the fact that this could happen again!"

So sorry if I've scared the sh*t out of anyone, I really don't mean to. I guess I just want someone official to say to me that it probably was just a one off.

Does anyone have any good stories of people who had an mc and then had a healthy preg afterwards please?

I have had 2 healthy pregnancies previously(and I know how lucky I am.)

God, i'm worried now that you're all thinking, what a greedy cow - she shouldn't need another baby at her age!! Argghh I hate hormones!

And can I just say, stop sprinkling your ov dust over this direction! I've not peed on any sticks or managed to work my ov microscope (anyone else used one have any tips?) but according to cm, I'm oving at the moment and my back is still done in so SWI not on the agenda.

hello everyone, just checking in quickly to have a little OCD list update ... (dirtgirl, have kept you in exactly as you were, but needed to add one to everyone elses CDs)

Welcome to everyone new and so sorry you're here.

I feel like PMT just starting to kick in so a bit low, so I'll shut up till I can find something happy to post.

Wednesday list:
Moofold ttc#2 UCL~33 cycle1 CD36
northlondonchoclover TTC#1 UCL28 cycle WTF CD29
Liahgen66 TTC#6 UCL26 cycle 1 (post mc) CD27
icedlemonmuffin TTC#2 UCL24-32 cycle10 CD25
RunForTheHills TTC#1 UCL30 cycle 14 CD23
yogamat TTC#2 UCL? cycle WTF CD23
vivcliquot TTC#1 UCL27 cycle 3 CD22
sunburntats TTC#2 UCL28 cycle 2 CD21
Tetleytea TTC#2 UCL28 cycle 3 CD21
Barrenbrook TTC#1 UCL 25-28 cycle 11 CD20
Albadetamble TTC#2 UCL25 cycle WTF CD20
LittleMiss72 TTC#1 UCL28 cycle WTF CD19
Hopefully TTC#2 UCL28 cycle 3 CD18
NoShouting TTC#5 UCL? cycle 1 CD17
Curlylox TTC #3 UCL 28 cycle WTF CD17
Goodluckbear TTC#1 UCL28 cycle 1 CD15
Zayja TTC#1 UCL24-26 cycle 11 CD15
Tigger15 TTC#2 UCL26 cycle 9 CD12
Gi1da TTC #1 UCL28 cycle WTF CD 12
Tigerbear TTC#1 UCL26 cycle 7 CD11
Allthe8s TTC#3 UCL28 cycle1 CD11
SarahMumtoAlex TTC#2 UCL28 Cycle 6 CD9
dirtgirl TTC#2 UCL28 cycle1 CD7
clareanna TTC#2 UCL35 cycle 1 CD6
sakura TTC#1 UCL28 cycle1 CD6
LucyT66 TTC 1 UCL 33-34 cycle 3 CD3
Underneaththestream TTC#1 UCL ? cycle 1 CD3
Unbuffy TTC#2 UCL? cycle 1 CD2

PENDING STATS
westyorkshiregirl TTC#? UCL? cycle? CD?
Polyanna TTC#6 UCL27 WTF CD?
Malteser1981 TTC#? UCL28 cycle WTF CD?
slimyak TTC#2 UCL? cycle? CD?
sparklyrainbow TTC#1 UCL 28 cycle WTF
shinysideup TTC#2 UCL 25 cycle WTF
hippychick TTC #3 UCL? cycle WTF
lauraloo09 TTC#2 UCL? cycle WTF
CCBloom TTC#1 UCL? cycle WTF
Mummy369
meatntattypie
GinaFB

GRADUATES
amyboo
totally
hoops997 BFP 11 July 2009
Stressy BFP 22nd August 2009
becky78 BFP 4th September 2009
LittleOneMum BFP 7th September 2009
Waitingisntfun BFP 19th September 2009
Chamois BFP 7th October 2009
Apples BFP 9th November 2009
Meita BFP 10th December 2009
CakeandFineWine BFP 27th December 2009
boodleboot BFP 2nd January 2010
Jollster BFP 10th January 2010
LeeWT BFP 21st January 2010
TFLS BFP 22nd January 2010
Louisesh BFP 22nd January 2010
MrsRigby BFP 27th January 2010
TheKurgan BFP 30th January 2010
effilump BFP 8th February 2010
Sarahlou8 BFP 10th February 2010
samanthab123 BFP 10th February 2010
Cheepz BFP 16th February 2010

Just doing this whilst I get chance. I've got loads to catch up on, this is such a lively thread. Waving at everyone for now, hope everyone is ok.

Underneaththestream TTC#1 UCL ? cycle WTF CD41
Moofold ttc#2 UCL~33 cycle1 CD35
northlondonchoclover TTC#1 UCL28 cycle WTF CD28
Liahgen66 TTC#6 UCL26 cycle 1 (post mc) CD26
icedlemonmuffin TTC#2 UCL24-32 cycle10 CD24
RunForTheHills TTC#1 UCL30 cycle 14 CD22
yogamat TTC#2 UCL? cycle WTF CD22
vivcliquot TTC#1 UCL27 cycle 3 CD21
sunburntats TTC#2 UCL28 cycle 2 CD20
Tetleytea TTC#2 UCL28 cycle 3 CD20
Barrenbrook TTC#1 UCL 25-28 cycle 11 CD19
Albadetamble TTC#2 UCL25 cycle WTF CD19
LittleMiss72 TTC#1 UCL28 cycle WTF CD18
Hopefully TTC#2 UCL28 cycle 3 CD17
NoShouting TTC#5 UCL? cycle 1 CD16
Curlylox TTC #3 UCL 28 cycle WTF CD16
Goodluckbear TTC#1 UCL28 cycle 1 CD14
Zayja TTC#1 UCL24-26 cycle 11 CD14
Tigger15 TTC#2 UCL26 cycle 9 CD11
Gi1da TTC #1 UCL28 cycle WTF CD 11
Tigerbear TTC#1 UCL26 cycle 7 CD10
Allthe8s TTC#3 UCL28 cycle1 CD10
SarahMumtoAlex TTC#2 UCL28 Cycle 6 CD8
dirtgirl TTC#2 UCL28 cycle1 CD7
clareanna TTC#2 UCL35 cycle 1 CD5
LucyT66 TTC 1 UCL 33-34 cycle 3 CD2
Unbuffy TTC#2 UCL? cycle 1 CD1

PENDING STATS
westyorkshiregirl TTC#? UCL? cycle? CD?
Polyanna TTC#6 UCL27 WTF CD?
Malteser1981 TTC#? UCL28 cycle WTF CD?
slimyak TTC#2 UCL? cycle? CD?
sparklyrainbow TTC#1 UCL 28 cycle WTF
shinysideup TTC#2 UCL 25 cycle WTF
hippychick TTC #3 UCL? cycle WTF
lauraloo09 TTC#2 UCL? cycle WTF

GRADUATES
amyboo
totally
hoops997 BFP 11 July 2009
Stressy BFP 22nd August 2009
becky78 BFP 4th September 2009
LittleOneMum BFP 7th September 2009
Waitingisntfun BFP 19th September 2009
Chamois BFP 7th October 2009
Apples BFP 9th November 2009
Meita BFP 10th December 2009
CakeandFineWine BFP 27th December 2009
boodleboot BFP 2nd January 2010
Jollster BFP 10th January 2010
LeeWT BFP 21st January 2010
TFLS BFP 22nd January 2010
Louisesh BFP 22nd January 2010
MrsRigby BFP 27th January 2010
TheKurgan BFP 30th January 2010
effilump BFP 8th February 2010
Sarahlou8 BFP 10th February 2010
samanthab123 BFP 10th February 2010
Cheepz BFP 16th February 2010

Hi, have been lurking for a few days. Am tentatively joining the thread, though not ready to TTC yet. Started to MC 19th Jan. Most bleeding stopped this Monday (sorry if TMI) but still slight loss. Have no idea if any of it was AF.

Desperately want to be back in that place where I had my next 18 months planned, ie have my baby back, go on mat leave end of april, take my little girl to school every day when she starts in Sept, leave my horrid workplace (tho love my job), be there when my eldest starts secondary school next year ..etc ..etc ..etc

Am feeling very fragile. Lots of hard days , supportive but not very understanding DH. Very supportive Mum and x2 BF.

Hi Sakura sorry I missed your post - you have had a horrible old time. I hope you can find the support here, it's been quite a busy thread and there are lots of us here to talk to who have been/are in the same boat xx

meatntattypie thats good that your results are all clear but at the same time shit that it doesn't give you a reason. I've had 2 (21 weeks/7 weeks) reasons unrelated, although I had a blood clot behind my placenta which caused the late one both times they said bad luck

must keep trying with the tighty whiteys, but with af as it is that could be interesting... whatever the bodyform girl does.

Where did i put those rollerskates?

Sorry, I just meant to say hi to Sakura too, - and apologies if I missed anyone else new, I should keep a pen and pad to hand when reading this thread to make sure I say hi properly next time.

I hope I haven't missed out anyone else new!! As a catch all, BIG WAVE to everyone!!

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Goodluckbear you have just made my day x

LOVE IT! Tightywhiteytastic! Oh you absolute star! Thanks Goodluck, and VivC, for putting a smile on my face today. Really needed it!

Bless you!

hahahaha - Viv, that's hilarious!!

That's going to keep me going for the rest of the day.

That and the fact I got the phrase "tighty whities" into a conversation at work - yes, I knew I'd get it in eventually. It was like this:

Boss: "GLB, do we have the budget for this IT work we need?"
GLB: "Let's hope so, if the computers don't get fixed then my daily update on MN is going to be at risk"
Boss: "Er what?"
GLB: "Nothing. The budget is tight, as tight as my tighty whities, but I think we can squeeze it in".
Boss: "Sorry?"
GLB: "I mean it's fine to get the IT work done".

Genius!!

xxxx

P.S. Sprinkling ov dust over everyone who wants it xxxxxxxx

Ha Moofold, your passport expiry reminds me of after me and my now DH got together and decided to have a first Bridget Jones-esque mini break away in Rome.

We rocked up at Liverpool airport at 4am to check in for our 6am flight and were stood in the queue to check-in - DH was laughing at my passport pic, so I asked to see his and it was only when I looked that I noticed his passport had expired. In our panic, we decided to brazen it out at the check-in desk (I know, I know!) and obviously the person behind the counter spotted it, so we weren't allowed to travel.

What an idiot. Good job I didn't marry hi... oh.

Thanks Allthe8s - that little bit of reassurance that I am not losing the plot on top of everything else is good!

Gina - you lucky thing, I had that idea then realised my passport has expired and DD doesn't have one. Now my calendar at work is chocca so no chance. Have a very good time and try to relax and recouperate.

Goodluckbear - glad someone around here is ovulating, spread a little in my direction please!

Hopefully - hope you and your little get well soon. I hear you on the TTC. Even without being ill S, without or wiithout I, is the last thing on my mind! I haven't been good at hedging my bets hence the obsession with OPKs and temp charting. You still have a glimmer of hope though so fingers crossed.

So sorry for all the sadness of the past day or so, hope some of you are feeling a little more positive now.

I know full well I'll be totally blue if this month is a BFN, even though there's practically no chance of having conceived (although I did OV I think, which is a step up from last month after MC). Doesn't matter how slim the chance is, that little bit of hope doesn't go away.

TBH have not had too much time to think about TTC this month with DS and me both being so poorly. He is currently having marathon 3 hour nap and I am beginning to worry i've knocked him out with too much teething medicine!

OMG Goodluckbear you poor thing! You are definatley due an upturn and in good luck stakes!

Moo I think your feelings are normal, after losing DD2 I was up and down but at the same time I don't think it really hit me for a good 2 months......am coping better this time round but I still have some days (like today) where I just feel really low......like you I am surrounded by new babies, little bumps medium bumps and one big bump about to pop (my dearest BF who has had so much trouble ttc so I am genuinely over the moon for her and CAN"T wait to meet her little person), I am happy for all and do not begrudge anyone but some days it's just tiring keeping your face on and hiding the sadness because you can't help wishing it was you and WHY did it happen to you!

CCBloom that is great news about your DP trying to stop smoking thumbs up! I went to my BFs (mentioned above) baby shower less than a week after my erpc. Everyone knew and nobody avoided the subject although I didn't really want to talk because it was BFs day and celebration and I knew (know) my time will come round again one day but I just basically got pissed and was as merry and excited as I could be. I completely broke down the next day though, I think I just bottled it all up putting on a brave face. I think if you find it easy to talk about it and people ask tell them, I think we worry to much about other peoples embarrassment because people do not know what to say, but then you kinda have to brace yourself for the comments, because people don't know what to say!

Viv I can't think of anything better, Gina have a great time wont you and relax xx

Sorry I am gassing here but.....when BF (above) was going through her tough time I bought her a card with some words on the front, 18 months later on DD2s due date my friend gave me the same card.....I still have it up on my shelf as a reminder....its says.....

'the way I see it if you want the rainbow, somtimes you gotta put up with the rain' (Dolly Parton)

We will get our rainbows ladies - here's to a more smiley afternoon x

P.S. For anyone who was following my tale of woe (probably on the last thread) - I am not kidding, following mc and massive bleeding all over the place, our pipes leaked into the flat below and ruined their ceiling, washing machine broke, freezer broke and defrosted, got mice, heating broke, showers broke. Within 5 weeks - and all separate incidents!! Have had open cheque book paying for all stuff to be mended, thank god it's payday on Friday.

So today - shower man comes to fix stuff - and a mains leak means there was no water to the whole area. So couldn't check showers. This is SO TYPICAL of the last few weeks.

I have not showered, I look like a skank in work. (No one has noticed, but concerned I look skanky normally).

So, in a karma type situation, I am surely due some good luck. Just put £5 on the lottery. Plus peed on an ov stick and amazingly tells me I'm ov'ing - here comes the luck, yes, oh yes!! My word DH is not going to believe his luck tonight either!!

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Man, I just spent my lunch hour catching up on the last day or so worth of posts - an emotional rollercoaster!!

Gina and Bigmutha - just wanted to say big hugs, I'll be thinking of you guys over the next few weeks. I'm really glad you're here though, these guys have been so supportive and it really helps.

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Hi ladies

Sounds as though it's been a sad 24 hours or so. Although I'm blaming you lot for the fact that I'm now jonesing for cake!

Gina I think that's a great idea. DH and I got married one week after my termination, and I can honestly say that our honeymoon was exactly what we needed in terms of having time away, on our own, to try and get our head around what had happened.

Some of my family were worried that the intensity and 'joy' of the wedding and honeymoon would mean we couldn't grieve properly, but we were able to postpone our daughter's burial until we got home, which definitely helped too.

Right - am off to get some cake.... Love to all

xxx

Hi everyone, just read the posts from yesterday evening and had a little cry.

I had a bad night, very little sleep again mixed with tears means that I am again exhausted this morning and little things are too difficult to contemplate.

DP and I are going on holiday tomorrow to get some sunshine and just spend some quiet time together away from "real life".

Mmmm elevenses with my cup of decaf tea thanks Allthe8s, maybe this day is looking up!

I'm going to have to endure a baby shower on Saturday where I am most likely going to be the only childless woman there and will have to dodge all the usual questions of whether I'm planning to have baby and when I'll get pregnant when really I want to scream it should be me right now!! On the plus side my DP has invested in nicorette patches in his endeavour to stop smoking before we commit outrselves to ttc so I am beyond happy that he is moving in the right direction!

Morning everyone -- and hello to the new girls. Some very sad stories and posts since I last checked and just having (another) wee weep reading them. My thoughts are with you too.

Unbuffy, you totally summed it up in that little sentence. Like lots of you I have had a shit few days, even crying at work yesterday. Friend from work has suggested maybe i should approach the doc but I am wary of being plied with medication. DH has also expressed concern that 10 weeks on I am still very emotional and don't seem to be improving. I am surrounded by pregnant folk, have 3 friends all due within weeks of what should have been my due date and going to visit a friend's new baby at weekend. I can't stop grieving for that wonderful little person I will never get the chance to meet. So how should I feel and how should I be behaving? No idea if this is normal under the circumstances or if there is cause for concern.

All that said, i know i have had better spells since the MC, but do keep going back to feeling very low indeed. I don't think having a second WTF cycle is helping -- DH has also expressed concern about fanatical POAS!! Who can blame me when there is no ovulation or temp increase at CD36

Allthe8s - just hoping these dark days do get less frequent as time goes on.

So now I've got all that out I am determined to try and be more positive and have a better few days. Hang on in there everyone!

Thanks unbuffy glad you feel better today. Feel better myself after a cry to my mum. DD1 has just made chocolate rice crispie cakes with white buttons on top so I am passing them round as it's almost time for elevensies! We will get there in the end ladies. x

Morning everybody.

Feeling a leetle better today, lots of wine and a good cry last night helped, also admitting what i feel both here and (eventually) to dh. also dd being ridiculously cute this morning (making up for being a little s* yesterday afternoon?) and even let me get a little lie in!!!

Allthe8s i really hope you feel better soon. silly words i know but i do mean it, it can't last forever.

Thank you cheepz for the reminder, i know it's true and it does mostly help but... y'know. just now and again.

Best wishes to everybody, and thank you all so much for your ongoing support - without this thread i'm sure i'd be a much vaster mess
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