TTC after a Miscarriage - A Fresh New Start

I think that atm my time is divided pretty well between my 3 and I don't think for a minute that if the baby that died had been born that we wouldn't have loved it, its just that after that happened I think it makes it more of a reality IYSWIM?
Thanks for listening to my ranting xxx

MaddyD I think your right about orgasms aleast thats what I always told DH

Xena sn is a worry but its a bridge to cross when and if you come to it. Its a worry of mine also. I really dont think i could cope if that happened. But the need for a baby is too strong to put me off trying. As for another m/c and d&c everyone on this thread has the same worry too, thats why its good support. It doesnt matter how pleased and excited you are if and when you are pregnant, that worry of mc again will take over and everyone here undertands exactly what you are going through.Maybe you should have a big heart to heart with your other half and decide exactly what you want to do.

Chocolatepeanut, dont worry im a legs in the air girl myself too. Also dont tell anyone but gottta orgasm too, it helps apparently. So my poor dp isnt allowed to stop till ive finished. Not that he minds

Period over so now it all starts again. Concived both times before on day 13 but that was on a 28 day cycle. Did same last month and P arrived day 31. So going for days 13,15,17 and 19 this month (DH saw marks on calender and said 'whats that' and I said your lucky nights!) Hardly romantic I know and amI the only one that insists he holds my legs in the air for 15minutes afterwards..?

So wanted to be pregnant by fast approaching due date 24.7 finding it quite unbearable really. Also took Mat leave when Philippa died as intention was to get pregnant again asap and as i suffer with hyperemesis thought bestto beoff work anyway. Probably be time to go back before i manage it then will have to take timeoff sick!

Diddle i'm hoping the same thing for you
Wow with the numbers is it hard to remember all the times etc? Do you have the over 8's ontop of your allowance of under 8's?
I feel quite fortunate that mine are pretty much full time and I've just taken on a baby for 2 days that fills the slots of 2 other children (who do 4 days each)

I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I'M SOOOO TEMEPTED BY TTC BUT FIRSTLY IM SCARED OF ANOTHER M/C AND ANOTHER ERPC (WHICH TERRIFIED ME) AND SECONDLY I'M TIRED AS IT IS CAN I COPE WITH ANOTHER, WHAT IF IT HAS SN?????

Oh Diddle i hope it workd for you this month. The wait is awfull isnt it. How good are you on waiting to test? Or are you a bit of an addict like me

Hi to all.
Thanks for all the welcome messages. Mc was 3 weeks ago today so trying to keep busy and have positive thoughts. So I'm off to ice DD1s birthday cake (6 tomorrow) and hopefully off to her sports day this afternoon, if the weather's fine.
So here's to those positive thoughts and hope that the babydust is the quick working variety!

Maddy- not finished yet! 12 days!! But slowly tapering away.
Humphreys- my pink line took ages to go. Thankyou for sending my madam away too!

Morning ladies

HellKat-yep, when I see her I'll have words and she'll be made to take yours with her when she goes .

Diddle-hope today is a much improved one {{x}}

My bloody MIL is at it again. She has her every Tuesday for the day (not my choice) and keeps putting her in one of my DH's scabby white cardigans (35 years old!). It has been irritating me for months so I even bought a white one and put it in the bag for her to use but this morning there was the scabby one in the bag. I told DH to take it back and if I see it again it is going in the bin! He said that his mother said DD needed something to play in so mine wouldn't get dirty but I sent two other jumpers/jackets. She bought some other nappy cream once and when I found it in the changing bag DH said Oh, she doesn't like the one you use (Sudocrem) so that went straight in the bin. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrh!!!!!!!!

Ok rant over so feel a bit better. Did another HCG stick test and still a pale pink line-bah! Have kept it so when I do one next week I can compare the shades. That is if the result stays on the stick that long.

Today DD & I are going to have our hair cut then go into town with my mum. There is a Bike Night in the village where I work tonight and we go every year but don't fancy it if it is raining as it gets very crowded and you can't move along very quick when you get in the one way crowd so we will see.

God, bit of an essay-soz. Lots of hugs to all. Back later
x

Hey Diddle I bet you will you get 2 under 1's for continuity of care (you'll need it because that baby and yours will be under 1 together)
What ages are your mindees?

OOOOh How Lovely we have newbies. Welcome to Petunia and Spub.

Morning all couldnt pop in yesterday as hard day at office and raging headache when got home plus mood swing from hell. Af still not here but ill take bets on today as also had to take chcolate to bed with me

How is everyone, Hellkat has your af finished yet??

You're very welcome.

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Morning girls.
Petunia- Welcome! Hope, like everyone else, we won't be here too long .
Diddle- Aww hun. Sorry yesterday was crappy. I still have days when the whole thing does'nt stop playing on my mind. Normally as I'm trying to go sleep.You will get pg soon. {{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}
can't wait for a nicer image to pop into my head. I want to be laying there, at the scan, and be told "Ohhh look, baby's trampolining again on your bladder" instead of "I'm so sorry.....".
Here's to very fertile times ahead for all.
Humphreys- Do me a favour hun? When madam shows her face and she announces she's travelling the world, tell her to take mine too .
That poem was lovely! Sat in here in tears.

Diddle thats was so lovely,thankyou for posting it.

Look-I can't even type through the tears. It is so lovely yet so sad.

Oh Diddle-that has made my cry