Emmsy's weebles, from TTC to new arrivals, it's all going on here.

Oh Barbie poor you being so worried. You've not long to go now have you? Do you think that the rise in hormones towards the end might be making your anxiety worse? All these things that you mentioned, any of us would be worried about I'm sure, so don't ever feel silly saying them.
It is really scary thinking of giving birth, and not knowing what's going to happen, but you must remember that most of the time everything goes well. Trust in that and try to enjoy the rest of the time being pregnant. Sending you a big hug x

MLS I've had back ache too but I remember reading in my pregnancy journal from ds that it's completely normal and a good sign. Apparently it's because a hormone called Relaxin is relaxing all those muscles ready to grow a big baby Embrace the backache
(I do have to say that that rather detailed journal only lasted 5 days until the ms kicked in!)

Mermaid Hope your headache goes soon and that you have a good time at the gym!

Haven't read back but will try to later. We are trying to get ourselves together to go out for the first time since wednesday - it's so difficult to summon up the motivation

Back later x

oh dear have i killed the thread with all my moaning

4ever i found a lady on here who also had a 2 cord thingy {blush} sorry i cant remember the term...anyways she went on to have a totally natural labour and perfect baby...ill try to link where i read about her x

barbie oh barbie you poor thing sitting there in your bin liner - bet you still manage to look glam though.

When I had ds google et al wasn't the beast it is now and so a whole wealth of experience wasn't accessable. Of course no-one hopefully ever talks about the outcomes so in a way I think I was far more cocooned.

Do you think they have circled high risk because of your mc and your anxiety linked to this? Low lying placenta? Is that still low lying?

I can see how you are un-nerved re the dates and I remember all the confusion at the time. I am tempted to say your body will know when its time to have that gorgeous little bean but know that won't allay your fears.

Lastly don't you dare ever hide your wobbles from us. We are all in this together and you have to hang on tightly right now.xx

I am in a bit of a rush cos I have a gym class, me and my headache are both going. I could have taken a waiter home i my pocket sigh must be my age

mls your body is stretching and making a cosy nest. Just go really gently this weekend please.xx

mls back ache....tell me about it, many hours spent lying on the bed in tears, started a few days after bfp and lasted until about week 11, stopped and then started again....get some gel to numb the area, and tell dh he owes you a nice massage to make up for the lack of dinner my back ache was low and one sided, the worst type if you google. Apparently it can be worse on the side your egg realised on....its going to be fine x

Im so sorry but mls you made me giggle...or more you dh did typical man! A bowl of doritos for dinner??? ha ha snort! Dh offered to sort dinner for us last night too...ended up in macdonalds his excuse was that he wanted to go to mothercare to get some smaller clothes and maccy d was next door. Tbh though it was very nice havent had junk for a long time...tonight was are going out to have a roast, havent had one in months and im super excited about it!

bakingqueen hello honey, you have been missed sorry things havent been great for you, i totally relate to the whole spending too much time on the internet thing. It got so bad for us last year that we decided on limiting our time and we both had to be off by a certain time in the evening in order to spend time with each other. Thankfully dh saw how much i needed these girls and once i had a major wobble he was the one who loaded up mn and made me post here. Hope you work it out, and just drop in from time to time to letus know how you are x

vjay i have started fashioning bin liners into a nice chrisening outfit, nothing else fits so i wil have to make do will book my hair cut for next week, so any day after thursday will be good for me....

mermaid how is the hangover head this morning?

Feel a little silly wobbling yesterday, like i said i think its all normal wobbles

Basically....(sorry if this is long and boring)

Because i didnt really have a LMP date but got my bfp on the 6th of june they came up with my due date of 21st feb....however my new doctor is concerned at this might not be the case, meaning i could go too far over ( scaring me shitless due to hearing in ante natal that this can some times be the cause of stillbirths as the placenta dies leaving the baby without anything) or i could be induced too early when really im best to be left for another week or so.

The doctor has looked at my early scan but again the dates are all out for instance on the 12 week dating scan i have 8 pictures one measures at 10 weeks 5 days, the other 13 weeks 2 days...such a huge difference...this is the same with all my scan pictures...

I havent been measured throughout as you all know, but now my fundal height is smaller than to be expected with puts me about 2 weeks behind my dates, so this means ill be induced before my actual 'real due date' if we knew what it was.....Im scared being induced with cause a longer harder labour which im already freaking out about.

The other thing worrying me is the fact i have been nosey and read through all my notes and in the last column the doctor has to circle whether im high risk....mine have all been circles as yes you guessed it...high risk the thing is i dont know what for??? the new docotor im seeing hasnt seen the hospital form like it before so she has no idea either (she is trying to find out to reassure me)....any ideas?

Also im doing a 4ever and worrying about leaking fluid, for some reason as soon as i get into bed there seems to be a lot more watery cm (tmi, sorry) so im constantly wondering if my waters are coming out....

and finally {gosh i sound like a right idiot dont i?]...for some reason i keep reading hearing about babies who are delievered still born throughtout the ladies pregnancies there were no problems so why does this happen....im so scared that its going to happen to me that i cant sleep, i stay awake trying to tell myself im being silly but i can help it, in fact im in tears and getting myself worked up as i type this now.....im so so so scared, its gone beyond normal fears and now its paralysing me. I keep getting moments when dh is at work when im sat in floods of tears, i havent been in the nursery in days. The fear of this is making the fear of labour even worse...im not scared of the pain so much its the what if? I dont want the baby to come out for the simple reason i can feel it move and i know is alive, what if i fail it and something happens? I really feel like im not coping right now amd its sounds so stupid, especially when there are nicer, more lovely ladies on here who have real problems

Damn it i cant stop crying, im a mental case arent i?

4ever the happy post you have been reading are true, i get moments when i cant wait and have to rush and tell you all how happy i am, but then i crash and scare myself so silly that i write another happy post to try to hide what im feeling.

The case of yourself neeko and curly have made me worried that something is wrong with my lo, but the doctor i had hasnt looked into it...all my appt with her seemed to be a question and answer session, she didnt measure me, check my tummy or things like that...in short i feel slightly pissed off that she didnt give me the best treatment she could of.

Ok ill stop rambling, my face is tight with tears but i do feel better sharing, feel free to ignore me...as mermaid said the horror mones are rife at this stage....

Thankyou x

Who can talk to me about back ache? Barbie you had it really bad to start with didn't you? It's been building up over the last few days & it feels like I constantly need to bend forwards to stretch my lower back out. I just freaked myself out by googling it, I then saw a website that said 'last visit 24th January 2009' - that was three weeks before my first mc.

On a good note I did a cb digi this morning & it said 'Pregnant 1-2 weeks'!

I've got the hump now. Not only did he not manage to cook dinner & not order a pizza AND not tell me but he sat in the kitchen eating Doritos & I didn't get anything. It was only when I said half an hour ago "Aren't we having dinner?" he said "No I've just had a bowl of Doritos". WTF????

Thanks Moon & Vjay. Cupcake: Jolyon, Jonty.

congratulations mls

and curly its lovely to have you back, i missed you, sorry to hear you have had a worrying time, but wow 1 week to go, you must be so excited

Hello bq it's a bummer you are having to stay away from mn for the time being - it is such a life-line for all of us. I hope you manage to sneak in a few minutes as often as possible.

Monkey glad to see you back too, brave lady. You are sounding a little more like your old self. I think the worst part is the funeral. It's something that fills you with such utter horror in the lead-up & then on the day you feel like you have to hold it together when all you want to do is throw yourself on the floor & scream "WHY?". Then after it's all over you have a feeling of emptiness & it is time to start properly grieving. As for knicker-checking I'd highly recommend asking your gp for progesterone pessaries. I found them such a sanity-saver in my last pregnancy, I think that even if there was a problem then you wouldn't bleed if you were using them (I've heard contradictory stories). But personally if there was a problem I'd much rather find out via a scan rather than blood in my pants. I'm going to do my CB digi tomorrow - just for some extra affirmation that I am pregnant!

Big waves to everyone else, sorry for the short post but my poorly-sickness of yesterday made an unwelcome return today. Aching all over, wrapped up in a duvet on the sofa waiting for dh to make dinner but between you & me I'm sure I just heard him ordering a pizza as the dish he had planned to cook is not turning out as he'd hoped!

• phew! you haven't used them all up on here today .

Fantastic news MLSjusthavetolookat dhandgetknockedup. So had a feeling for you this month with the acupuncnture and general positivity in spite of your awful 2009 and anniversary of your Dsister passing.. We will all be here every day willing this lo to be super super sticky and looking forward to seeing your Florida photos on FB in July with you waftnig about in your kaftan . Positive affirmation.

Monkey - lovely to hear form you and you sound so brave after saying goodbye to your Mum . she will be proecting this lo and hope her smile and warmth radiates down to you and protects you over the coming months.

Mermaid - enjoy your girls night out. You so deserve a little way hay time x

barbie - I hd unbelievable itchy tummy in last few weeks so don't worry. Glad ol Fred made some pawpals today

cupcake - I know a girl at playgroup who has a Jay, Jude and Joss! They are all utterly gorgeous and will breaking hearts come 2020! Isaac is a great name but I am biased . Still to come across another one up here and DS1 is nearly 4!

sabs can soo relate to not havng enough time to post and do individuals. I'm only on here as DH is cuddling Benjamin whilst stripping DS1 for bath (see men can multitask .

curly - oh honey you have had a worrying time but glad its all sorteditself out and curlygirl is making an appearance soon .

4ever - well done you for buying things for nursery. Know how terrifying that must have been to have it in the house but years fro now you'll look at the (by then soiled and torn) cuddly toy and remember the day you bought it. Glad your consultant was able to calm your fears a little. We won't let go of your hand until you're pushing come June.

Nce to see you Baking and Kate.

Better shoot as DH is looking a bit stressed Off to watch last nights Grey's and have my allocated two glasses of full bodied wine - ai its all sex n' drugs n rock and roll chez blue.

Oh and Benjamin was weighed on Tues and is a wopping 11lbs - 95 percentile - massive. He has my legs (chunky) so what do I expect!

Have a great weekend everyone and come on Andy for Sunday!!!

I have them crossed for you here. January is without doubt a shit month. Hopefully with the sun coming back shortly things will get sunny for you to bq
hi kate.x

Not bad thanks mermaid been having a rough month lots of issues between me and dh one of which was time on internet for us both so to keep the peace been keeping away things getting a bit better between us now so fingers crossed hope to be back fully soon x
Love to you all xx

yeah to MLS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im so happy for you xxxxxxxxxx

bakingqueen I am running to catch you up, how are you? I forgot to ask just now.
Thinking of you, you know that - hope you are ok, no headaches and that work is not too hectic.xx

Congratulations MLS so pleased to here your good news

oh my goodness

now I was a bit confused and had to go back quiet a few pages.....

monkey I think it was the water bottles on the thighs myself Its been a loooong wait for you lovely and how bitter sweet that it has coincided with your mum. Thinking of you heaps and so pleased.xx oh ps do you think its cos you had that opp a wee while ago?

right ok back to todays page mls did wonder what that bfp was doing in my greenhouse this morning.
Very pleased for you, needles must have helped you be nice and relaxed. Just go really easy, no dashing around (ha)

barbie oh honey its hard to be hundreds of miles away. You must nearly have been there a year already. Where has that time gone?
I think the last few weeks are really the hardest. Your hormones batter you around like Mike Tyson.

curly lovvely to see you sedately wandering in. A week? I am relieved to hear that you are all ok. You sound like you have been through the mill.

sabs give that cheeky girl a big kiss. I hope dhs work is ok? And have you managed to tame your mil?

cupcake ouch and ouch.

jools are you still wandering barefoot barefoot - my favourite story when small, small trivia for a friday. I am keeping my everything crossed for you my lovely lady. Seeing as you are being so forgetful I think this is very promising.

moon thinking of you brave and lovely girl. Have you started compiling your wedding lists?xx

4ever hmmm I expect you are just about up and pottering around! Super irridesent sparkly star for getting through another week. I am so thrilled to my toes to hear of you buying a moses basket and bits and bobs

neeko have you really only got 3 weeks left? jeepers you must all have your feet in baby bio or something

lbm hope you are ok, sounding a little stuffed full of cakes

I am off out tonight woo hoo dancing round handbags etc. The boys seem overly excitied that they are having a boys night in, I dread to think....
I have been up to my eyes in paperwork for the dreaded 31st deadline. So going out tonight will be a fab relief.

love to blue mm and budha and all your squirmy little bundles. buddha I so hope you have sorted out Es tummy poor mite.

Also gracie hoping your friend is ok and your mum and your mobile and internet oh yes and george of course

Have a lovely weekend girls, no rushing about, cosy snuggles on sunday and big fry ups with the papers. and for vjay mini eggs

mls really, really fab news.
monkey ditto

Oh and monkey good to see you back lovely, made me quite emotional to read about your dad's reaction too; really hope it will help you all to get through this horrible time. Massive hugs x

MLS YEEEEEEAAAAAHHHHHHH so pleased for you. I too felt your sister's anniversary had to bring the babydust charm so glad it snuck in just before your edd too. Have you left lots of messages on the consultant's answer machine yet?

Curly sooooo so lovely to see you back and to curlygirl greeting us next week! You must be so excited (and apprehensive too I expect!) so sorry about the scare, sounds horrible but well done for pulling through. Doc on Monday said he thought it did sound like spd but I'm in denial cos desperate for it not to get worse! Yep I am keeping my knees together, doing 'back your bum into the car' move rather than one leg in first but yeh it is so painful turning over at night and walking though been a bit better last couple of days. Just so sick of not being able to walk to town and dh doing everything for me. Went to buy some mat clothes today and it took me AGES to change my trousers then they didn't even fit, hmph. Got so tired too that I gave up then...HOW do people do this when they have older children too

Neeko you're the total opposite to us then with the names, we found it easy peasy to come up with girl names...sure we'll have a boy for that reason!

Hi moon sorry about tew but glad cycle is back to normal and no more mind-games.

Lol, love all the talk of what names we pretended to be called etc it's so true that our dcs will prob hate their names whatever we pick!

nope didnt pee myself but came very close!

monkey lovely to hear back from you, glad you told your dad and it bought a small to his face, bought a smile to mine too...Also re doctors next week, dont be disappointed if you dont see much (if you have a scan) they didnt see anything on my scan and had to go back during the 8th week)

mls are you still dancing

lbm my wobbles have no place on the thread today, its Mls day they are only pre labour jitters and what if's..i think its the stuff most ladies worry about in the last few weeks. I just think im feeling a little lost and lonely being so far from home and not being able to share them....tomorrow is another day so if im still not quite upright by then i will share and ask advice...

sabs full fat pepsi is soooooo much better than diet!

Just back from the dog show, fred made lots of new friends

Oh mls congratulations!! I am sooo happy for you YAY! I dont know why, but when I was reading through the posts I had a feeling that you would be next to get a BFP

Nice to hear from you monkey I dont think I congratulated you on your BFP. Good to hear the funeral went well and reading about your family's reaction when you told them about the BFP brought tears to my eyes.

curly hearing about the scare had us all worried so cant imagine what it must have felt like for you. Can't believe you only have a week to go

I've heard from gracie again who was intending to sort her internet out yesterday but sadly her grandma had a stroke and one of her cousin's waters broke and she is 32 weeks pregnant. Also her DH's mobile broke! But on the plus side, her DH is working only 2 miles away from home for a year as of this weekend

Sorry the post isnt longer and apologies for lack of more personal posts, I have so much to comment on from reading the thread from the past couple of weeks, to bra measuring, to piles, to itchy belly and also an update on DH's work situation but must pay Missy Saara attention

P.S Is anyone else watching Tony Blair and the Iraq Inquiry?? Or am I the only one lol

MLS woohooo!!!!!!!!! SO pleased for you Yay!

LBM I only know how to spell it as I eat so many of them

, , MLS - wonderful news, I'll also do the slightly wobbly sticky bean dance ( it'll warm me up as the heating is bust again!).

Barbie good news - what are you wobbling about now? Please share as we love to "help"!!

monkey lovely to hear from you. Glad the funeral went as well as these things can. So pleasee that your bfp made your dad smile - I'm sure your ds manage that occasionally too? you and mls can obsess away together!! And a bit as you can at least spell millefeuille, whilst I can just eat them!!

4ever pleased you are feeling a bit less stressed. Your consultant sounds like a good one - straight talking can be good in the right place!

Got to go, littlebells life is too busy - Paris was ( could do with an ungrateful emotion!) a bit of a drag, except for the dessert tray - train back got really delayed and so, not much sleep and am v tired. Esp, when babybelle decides to wriggle as soon as I get to bed! But I am really not complaining!!