Emmsy's weebles continue to grow.. Onwards & upwards

Afternoon girlies
mermaid you are so so lovely organising that for jools (and you too barbie!) Jools hope you're having a fabulous weekend and laughing lots

hoping so sad to read your post. Hope that you will pop in again when life seems a little brighter but know we are all thinking of you x

4ever you poor love! It's just one wobble after another isn't it hoping and praying tomorrow's scan will give you another few days of peace. I'm ok thanks my lovely, things are slowly looking brighter.

Thanks for the lovely messages re dh's job everyone yes I am v relieved! Tinged with a tiny bit of sadness though as he just loved his previous job and isn't excited by this one...ho hum.. at least he will still see his old friends as it's the same office, and he can keep looking.

LBM here's my hand for Wednesday too... deep breaths!

We had a gorgeous windy walk on the beach yesterday then went to visit friends with 5 wk old baby... all lovely until she started telling us about how her boobs spurt out milk during sex dh and I didn't quite know what to say!

buddha oh your poor lady can't begin to imagine how badly your pain is you must feel like you have been pregnant forever. I will keep everything crossed for your Thursday scan. You are meant to moan btw cos you are a pregnant lady

barbie Think we may need to send your Dr a shiny star for having you as a patientHopefully you are feeling a bit better today and the result is fine so you don't have to do it again.

I am still under paperwork but have stopped for toast and marmalade and might have to go and blow the cobwebs away down the beach.

4ever hope the aches are a little better - I had forgotten how much barbie had those pains, makes you feel a bit better when you remember other peoples symptons. Have a nie cosy day.

Lovely new home
Sorry I've not been on much but SPD getting progressively worse now on crutches and feeling quite low as the pain is awful, didn't really want to moan on here about it as I am grateful that I'm pg honestly! I have another scan next Thursday when they will make the decision whether I have a c/section or not, as my placenta hadn't moved enough at last scan at 33 weeks.
Neeko What did you decide about the swine flu jab? I've decided not to have it but that's easier for me to decide as I only have weeks left.
LBM I see you have gone through another hurdle in the journey, passing 10+5 hurray
Blue Glad to hear scan went well this week, and LO is behaving him/herself. What a lovely boss she must think a lot of you.
Barbie Bargain pram well done! Hope you have found somewhere to store it I like Vjay's idea to stop the homesickness by making your last Christmas as a couple very special, it will be different anyway being in Dubai, I'll send you some cold weather in the post if you like Hope your GTT comes back OK, trust you to spit it out everywhere
Cupcake So glad you got through your EDD and are able to be so positive about your LO Really pleased about DH's job news, hurray
MLS Lovely to "see" you back, but can't believe the insensitivity of your relatives thank goodness your consultant is more sensible!
4ever How's the cold? Hope your back is a little easier today. Your LO will be as snug as a bug in a rug where s/he is so just concentrate on getting better and seeing them again on Monday, will be thinking of you x
Curly Again we are mirroring our feelings how spooky I'll send you a "we are grateful we're pg but oh my do we have to feel so bad with it" hug if you send me one back x
Moon It's so hard when surrounded by pg women, it's a slap in the face every day, think you are doing fantastically though, hug x
Jools Hope you are having a fabulous time in Cornwall, you won't not think about everything that is coming up but I really hope you get some peace and a wonderful birthday
Mermaid Hope you got all the boring paperwork out the way and enjoyed the rest of your weekend
Iggy Here's a hand to hold to get you through next week x
Hoping Just in case you are still lurking, I wanted to second what the others have said, you are NOT a failure but fully get why you feel that way as we have all been there. I hope having a break from it all does you good in all ways, and really hope to see you come back with some BFP good news All the best for the future x

I couldnt get back on to post yesterday, i felt so weird after the gloucose test

I had the worse time, the drink was so vile i actually ended up coughing as i was trying to swollow it and spat it out all over the doctors room, over me, her, the chair, the floor, my bag etc etc She then shooed me out of her room for her safety and told me to take my time and drink it as long as i wasnt too long ended up in the washrooms, head over the sink being sick with each monthful i swollowed im not sure how effective the test will be since half of it got flushed back down the toilet and the other was being cleaned up in the first room! After drinking as much as i could i kind of felt really drunk and woozy...Had to sit for an hour but ended up falling alseep in the waiting room I will get the results today but i have a v bad feeling im going to have to go to the 2nd stage and have repeat test done Fingers crossed eh?

4ever remember the terrible back ache i had, i cried and cried for weeks. I ended up getting a medical cream which numbs the area and is safe in pregnancy, dh used to rub it in for me helped a little...i have everything crossed for you on monday. Oh and its 35 degrees here, humidity on the rise so it feels hot and sticky still, athough the mornings are lovely and cool and i even wore a cardi over my dress for dinner out the other night, so it is slooooowly getting colder.

jools hello birthday girl having fun?

Whoops out of time again, off to work, speak soon xxx

Evening lovely ladies.. xx

Hoping sad to see you going, we've all been at that stage, I hope you find some strength to get you through, as everyone said, you are so so young still, you have all the time in the world, near on another 20yrs to get your dream & it will happpen! Good luck & good blessings to you...

Mermaid you're such a sweetie organising that for Jools Hows the cold is it gone yet? Mine has pretty much - just in agony with my back now Hope the dreaded returns werent too 'taxing'

Happy Birthday weekend to Jools is Steins tonight? If so hope you are having a fantabulous time!!! Its all about new beginnings lovely lady!!! xx

LBM well done for getting through the booking in & heres my hand in advance for the scan on weds!!!

Cupcake brill news about DH job!!! Must be a big weight off your shoulders.. How you doing my lovely medium panter? Dont work too hard or be too hectic will you?! xx

Same for you Neeko not seen much of you lately! Looking forward to a mammoth post soon! xx

Barbie hope the glucose test ok & everything else? How hot is it out there at the moment? Was talking to DH about your xmas in the sun! We are a bit cos of our lovely 1st leg of our honeymoon there, still feels like yesterday in some ways (not in others! ) Ahh how wierd, its our 2yr 4m anniversary today & DH just started playing the wedding song my mum dedicated to us from her & my dad, even though he was no longer with us, which made it all the more poignant, its 'Forever Young' by dylan.. Ahhh a great message with tear in eye... xx

Curlywurlybigpants feel so sorry for you being so rough & sick, and the back thing OMG how I can relate.. I really hope you are getting by & come & vent whenever you feel cos I know its like how can we moan, but jeez, its hard sometimes however grateful we are, we'll never stop being grateful but if we are suffering then we're all here to share the whole journey.. Big hug xx

MLS still at that fighting spirit lady! Really glad you have that determination in you, there will be wobbly days & when you get preg again (hopefully v soon) no doubt you'll be a nervous wreck like me but we're all here to support you, just like the great support Ive had xx

Vjay hope you are having a sparkling & bright bonfire party tonight & enjoying showing young Ajay off! Bet his eyes are popping at all the fireworks!

Blue So glad you now finished work! Poor you having to take your hosp bag with you! No more of that! You should go to Vjays to burn those work mat pants! Glad lo is sticking in there for another week at least as well! xx

Moon nice to see you popping into support poor Hoping.. Are you hanging in there lovely? I hope so... xxx

Iggs not getting in the faintest bit excited for the non ttc crew, honest!

Oooh quick wave to the lovely Mrskate too & the stranger that is Gracie!! [Hmm] Talking of elusive ladies - big Hi to Annie who never forgets my scans bless her, but we miss your posts, we need an update soon cos you've only, what 3 wks to go?! Its between you & Blue for the next graduate! Also wave & hug to Baking xx

Sooooo, thats all of ya methinks?!?

Dunno how I managed to do such chirpy post to you all & sit here so long as Im in bloody AGONY with my back, complete spasm, have ongoing prob of sprain from pelvic muscle to lumber spine in lower back, goes all round hips, leg & cant sit up or down (inc loo etc) have been in tears & as per usual completely freaking out that its bad for baby, its hard to believe baby is ok when im in so much pain, its affecting bowels & whole tummy area as Im just locked up so am so scared whether baby is ok, bloody nightmare, Im absolutely crapping myself about mondays scan - 12.20pm btw - obligatory prayers & crossed fingers muchly appreciated - it really is one thing after another to keep me a complete anxious wobbly weebling nervous wreck xxxxx

Mermaid how lovely of you - I'm sure Jools will enjoy it!
cupcake great news about dh, a job is good!
barbie hope the test is good news
4ever have a great weekend - isn't it scan ttime on Monday again?
Blue good news that baby blue was behaving and that you've finished work - hurrah!

Goot to go - life in the little bell house is mad as ever!

morning girls I have just booked something cold and sparkly for jools I spoke to a girl barbie so that might have helped!
hope the glucose test went ok.

hoping xxxxxxxxxxxxx

blue that is so good to hear that bump is behaving this week, nothing like keeping you on tenderhooks is there. Bumps way of getting you all organised I reckonYou must be very relieved, bless you going to work with your hospital bag in the boot. Have a restful cosy weeeknd.

cupcake hooray for dh. You must be feeling nice and secure again a horrible feeling at the best of time never mind with a little one on the way.

right I had better go cos I have one lot of vat to do for dh and my own return stuff hate it hate it hate it. I know that i will spend the rest of the day looking for a bit of paperwork which will turn up in the laundry bin/toy box.

4ever hope all your aches and pains are getting better, have a good weekend.x

jools have a fab birthday amidst the hail and wind and remember its the new 30

Happy weekends my lovely ladies

hoping Please dont think you have failed at anything, yes you have had a shitty year and yes you have had more emotional knocks than most, however i really do feel it can only get better for you. Take your time and come back if and whenever you feel like it. Take care in whatever route you go down and remember the Emmsys angels are looking out for you on the way xxxx

jools happy weekend of birthday celebrating....i did try to arrange the cake but i think they got confused once i mentioned that i was in Dubai i think they thought i was going to post one from over here or something and yes it was a man who answered the phone....hope you get spoilt rotten....

I have to go to the doctors now for a gloucose test but ill be back to finish posting v soon xxxx

Hoping YOu are so not a failure - it will happen, you will have a baby, you just need sometime off, it has been a horible year for you. Take care of yourselves.

Got a scan appointment through for next wednesday ( 11th) - arggghhh, I may have to take my head out of the sand.........

hoping you are most definitely not a failure, please remember that. you and dh have been through a tough time and that does not mean you have failed anything. like vjay says, come back anytime you feel you need to, there's always a place for you here. i wish you and dh health and happiness in wherever your paths take you. we will miss you, take care lovely lady xxx

Hoping I totally understand where you are coming from. I do hope you come back though when we all (including you) have birth stories & bonnie baby pictures to compare.

I'm so sorry hoping. You and dh have made such a brave and hard decision and I wish you both lots luck and happiness for the future. Don't hesitate to come back if ever you feel the need to, if just for a chat.
Take care xxxxx

takes deep breath

I thought it was only fair to let you all know that I'm not going to come back.

DH and I have decided to stop trying. I just can't cope with life in the baby limbo any more. I feel like the most horrendous failure to be doing this after only a year of ttcing and 3 mcs, but I just can't do it any more.

I'm wishing you all the best of luck in life and little ones. You have been very kind and very supportive through one of the worst periods of my life.

waves goodbye

Oh well done mrcupcake that is good news

Just had my shopping delivered now I have to go back out to tesco cos I forgot a load of stuff and I'm having a fireowrk party tomorrow for us and the neighbours, so need the stuff now, gggrrrrr.

Hope eveyone is ok, think I'll have a before I go out, see we can use the jammy dodger like that too I suppose

Haha MLS that's really funny, I don't actually have a Welsh accent at all...infact I always get called posh but having lived here more than 6 years I have definitely picked up 'love' 'lush' and a whole host of other Welshisms!

Good news from me this morning is that dh got the job he interviewed for yesterday clever boy he is. It's in his office just a different department. He's not thrilled by the job but at least it's security & he can carry on looking if he wants (and I can stop worrying how we will feed and clothe the baby!!)
Today is his last day in current job so pretty ace timing

Hi
Just quickly popping my head in to reassure MLS that I'm ok. Work and home life a bit manic, but I'm allowing myself to lurk and normal posting service will resume over the weekend - which is more than can be said for Royal Mail!!!

hi i love the new home !!!

mls we have all missed you loads big big hugs

i hope everyone is ok ive gotta catch up xxx

Yay Jools happy birthday for Monday! Welcome to the 40+ ttc club! Seriously, don't stress about being 40 years young, I have heard lately so many stories about women having healthy babies who are far far older than us.

Cupcake every time I read one of your posts I have a welsh accent in my head, especially when you use words like lush!

Neeko where are you? Are you ok?

I'm back
Hi jools have a lush holiday, you deserve it and happy birthday!

LBM glad the appointment went well and you raised head above sand long enough for it boo to mw going on about your age but well done for telling her to shut it!

Blue yippee to work finishing..hope you got through the 2 days in a row fine.. you're on the home straight now

4ever you ok? Hope you're not wobbling quietly somewhere.

Well I guess I didn't have all that much more to say so think I will go watch Flight of the Conchords now

Massive hugs to all x

Just popping in for a quick helllooooo

Sorry to post and run, but I'm mad busy - have been doing more training at work, getting in late after parking on the M25 for hours and hours - grr and my internet connection only seems to want to stay up for 3 mins at a time !

Barbie - how sweet of you

Thankyou to everyone for your birthday wishes. Yes, Bday is Monday. We are off to Steinland in the morning, back Monday evening

Special hello to all the small panters. I think our cycles must have synchronised, as I reckon I'm on CD24 today too !! No chance for me this month though and, like Iggy, I'm forgetting about it for the rest of the year.

Delighted to see you back with us MLS

See you next week x x

Ahhhh mermaid you are so clever, the thing makes much more sense now. I saw the thing about Gordon Brown on Have I Got News For You..hilarious that he couldn't decide his favourite biscuit. Plonker.

Yes MLS sod's law definitely applies to you now I agreed to a girls' retreat weekend in May and am now due 3 days after it..still really want to go though

iggy evil AF has such rubbish timing. Hope she doesn't arrive on due date that would be pants

Dh is calling for dinner, but I'll be back!

ah yes we all on same day well there you go

iggy lovely lady I think you are aout right cos I had to look where i was today cos of my accup. and I am day23 - not that we give a damn of course ha!
mls yep sods law at work fingers crossed.
4ever hope you are okish and your cold is not too bad.
Hope everyones evening goes with a bang pop and a sparkle