Emmsy's weebles continue to grow.. Onwards & upwards

Was just planning on lurking, but...

Annie Sorry to hear about your mum. You'll be particularly missing her now but I'm sure she's watching over you and her new grandchild. I'm very excited by your pains though. Hope when the time comes the labour goes quickly and you manage your VBAC. Fingers crossed for more sleep for you tonight.

4ever Oh dear, you really are thinking yourself into a tizz. Be brave this week lovely lady and remember that baby doesn't need a scan I have such a strong feeling that this one is for keeps.Hopefullyin a few weeks you'll feel more certain and braver, especially after the LO starts moving. Big hug - you're doing so well.

Moon I'm hoping that for some reason you had delayed ovulation this month and your BFP is only a few days away. I didn't ovulate until day 21 and got my BFP on day 34 so it is possible. I think all the stress of wanting to be pg often delays ovulation anyway.

Barbie BOAK! BOAK! BOAK! about the toothbrush. I'm hoping a lot of this is all pregnancy fog induced and not the usual you.. Meant to say, really pleased you made up with your mum.

Iggy Is it sinking in yet?

I'm exhausted so just going to have a cup of tea and a very very early night. Parents' night tomorrow - yuk! so might not be on til Tuesday. Someone please text me any exciting news. Night, night! x

Hello lovely girls

just updating - still no af now on cd 35, not that i'm counting. i used my last first reponse early results pg test yesterday (surely that should have worked if i was pg?) so now for the first time in probably about 18 months i have no tests in the house

firmly burying my head in the sand now, que sera sera and all that....

hope everyone is enjoying their Sunday xxx

Big hug to Annie on your mums anniversary hon, sure she is looking down proudly and is with you in spirit on days like today.. I still miss my dad every day too... Hope the pains are braxton hicks, or you never know as only 16 days to go & not your first it could even be happening sooner than you think!

Bluemoon boo to your BFN though strange AF still not showed?! Echo the others, hopefuly a dodge test & still in with a chance, all depends when you ov'd!

Barbie glad you sorted things with your mum, bet your DH isnt a hapy bunny at the footy result! You did make me laugh with the tree & toothbrush incidents, I gagged for you at the thought of that! I absolutely love that you are buying an emmsys angel & a weeble for your tree!!! Thanks for the hand too, sorry if Im squeezing a bit tightly!

Mermaid hope you didnt get blown away on your walk & you had some time to ponder!! Its turned into a lovely day here today (well looks lovely as have not ventured outside since thurs!)

Neeko your hypno CD sounds blissful, am having the odd broken night, waking up with mind racing.. Hope your lasagne was yummy & your enjoying the sweet stuff & trash telly fest!

Cupcake your night in London seeing Muse sounds fab & DH was ! 02 is a great venue too did you get a chance to wander round the walk bit beforehand? You're brave, Im so wrapped in cotton wool I barely dare to go to Next let alone a concert Im so scared of doing anything..
Oh yea & all my scans in this & prev pregs were the vaginal ones at EPU, but with my 3rd preg last July & the masive nuchal fold spotted at week 10/11 they rushed me upstairs for unbooked nuchal (belly) scan in fetal meds on same day, hadnt even got referral from GP as was scared to do so after first 2 mc, so had my belly scan but had already been told highly unlikely baby would make it we went back to the fetal meds 2 wks later & babys heart had stopped. So, have had 2 belly scans before with preg no 3, but not with this pregnancy, & never a pre arranged one that Iv had my bloods done for & actually made it too . Its all interlinked with bad memories & incredible anxiety, as well as what an incredible milestone & achievement it would be to get through it & all be well... One good thing is that in last weekly scans they havent seen an obvious nuchal fold so am hanging onto that.. Still very fearful tho, all the lovely nurses & sonographers know us really well at EPU so its unknown territory in fetal meds & will have to explain all this to them beforehand & the neccesity to tell us immediately that the heartbeat is still there & baby is ok like they know to do in EPU each week.. Its like im living in a paralell universe.. My heart is racing thinking about it & I feel so so so nervous, Im just praying its going to be ok but cant help fearing the worst, which I then feel guilty for cos I know I must have faith in this baby..! Anyway I could talk myself round in circles so I will sign off now but will be lurking... xxx

Barbie-Dont feel bad hun, if Mum was still alive id be on here moaning about her, i loved her dearly but we were so similar in personality and used to clash over a lot of things . Im glad youve made it up with your Mum though.

hello

annie i feel bad now moaning about my mum i hope as you lay the flowers you have a big smile on your face as you remember all the good times....not long now!

moon any signs of af? remember i got my bfp very late...i have everything still crossed for you.

neeko you have me slightly worried about pushing the pram now..i might have to ask blue and my mum when is a safe time to have it in the house....and then practice out in the garden around the catus!

Silly thing of today...i have an old tooth brush to obessively clean my wedding ring with, i leave it in the shower anyway, the cleaner took it on herself to place it back in the holder, and yes i did clean my teeth with it this morning, i was nearly so sick! I have cleaned the taps and everything with it!!!! boak.....

And finally...we have a massive christmas tree which gets decorated with all old fashioned toys, every year we add a toy each to the tree...in honour of you girls im off this week to by an emmsy angel and a weeble if i can find one. Every year i will think of you all i want something for the baby, any suggestions...something to remind of being preggers....dh wants a camel for the first year in dubai! And yes i know its four things but this year is special....

Morning ladies, hope all are well.

Moon-Keeping my fingers crossed that AF doesnt show up, and your BFN today turns into a BFP in a couple more days.

Mermaid-Felt so to read your post, im really hopeful that Sods law works for you, and giving all your baby stuff away means that in some time in the near future you need to get it all back again. Hope your walk went well, big hugs coming your way.

Barbie-Had a really good giggle at your story about reversing into the poor old tree! You will need a big sign on your LO,s pram saying-Warning, new mummy coming through.
I ran into so many people, literally,in the early days when i first started taking DS out!

Neeko-glad you had good night sleep with your natal hypnotherapy cd. Im sleeping terribly at the moment, think im awake more times than asleep...

cupcake-Glad you had a good time seeing Muse, and enjoyed the hotel. Make the most of your couple time with DH before LO comes along, its so precious.

Hope all our other commando/small pants and medium/big and saggy pants mummies are well.

Im nesting in earnest here, i love being on maternity leave, i would far rather be cleaning my house etc than working!.
Im having pretty much constant period type pains here, keep running to the loo expecting to see something but so far zilch. Have read that you can have these for few weeks prior to labour for second and more pregnancies. Have started on the Raspberry Leaf tea, i really like it, but i suppose its because im fond of fruit herbal teas normally anyway.
We're all sorted here now, just need LO to show up, its only 16 days to my due date!!
Have consultant appointment on Thursday to go through in more detail my plans for a VBAC, i pick up my Tens machine on Thursday too, which im loaning from my hospital. After my hospital appointment im going to lay flowers at the Crematorium, as its 7 years since my lovely Mum passed away, and i still really miss her and wish she was here with me

Morning!

Mermaid OMG if you managed to walk in that weather I'll be v. surprised. Hope you reached the first pub and stayed there.

Cupcake Glad you had such a nice time. You should definitely do the hotel thing again soon. Both my mum and MIL would be happy to babysit so we could do that but I'm suh a wus about leaving DD when I've been at work all week. How's the writing going BTW?

Barbie after all the driving stories we've had from you over the months, you should maybe consider some L plates for that lovely new pram! My SIL went into our new Tesco local on her first day out with the tandem buggy, knocked 2 bottles of red wine off the shelf whilst turning a corner and smashed them all over the floor! I'm sure she broke the 30mph speed limit in her rush to get home and hide!

Vjay hope that lovely boy of yours slept well again last night

I put my natal hypnotherapy cd onto my ipod yesterday and listened to it when I went to bed. I have no idea what it said but I had the best night's sleep since before my MC! Didn't do my cooking yesterday so I've had a lasagne in the oven since 8am - told you I was feeling rested!

Happy Sunday to you all. Hope you cosy indoors with trash tv and lots of sweet stuff and stay away from that awful weather.

Hi girls
I'm loving all the long posts to catch up on!
Muse were completely amazing.. have followed them right from the start & was the first time I got to see them live so I was loving it! Dancing like mad, I kind of forgot I was pregnant until I was ridiculously exhausted halfway through! Thankfully we did have seated tickets! (Barbie I definitely wouldn't be able to do a standing gig now; I get so tired! But The Killers... Brandon Flowers..mmmmm! )
Was v lovely staying away in hotel with dh too- we're definitely gonna try to do it again before baby arival!

Neeko heart-melting story about your dd! And you too Blue - sounds so cute! My SIL's sister is expecting any day and apparently her 8-year-old is just being the most helpful little boy ever..so cute!

4ever is Tuesday your first ever belly scan, or first this pg? A milestone either way but understandably nerve-wracking. Squeezing your hand already!

Iggy I know, I did think that about your other edd too! Love the timing of it. And still so happy for you! I think I'm driving dh mad by talking about how pleased I am for you

Moon BOO to the BFN! But as others have said, it isn't over yet. Was it a FR test?

Kate I'm so excited you're gonna find out the flavour! Eeep!

Barbie glad bbq went well and love the tree story - can just picture you claiming innocence

BQ so sorry you have been having such a tough time..don't apologise at all for staying away a bit, we understand. Thinking of you lots x

Blue I feel your pain with the name pronunciation! You've seen my surname...NOBODY can pronounce it! (It rhymes with Say...) we get all sorts or variations. V annoying. I regularly remind dh that my maiden name was one everyone knew!

Hope you're all cosied up away from this nasty weather!

moon sorry about the BFN hope you can test again in a few days and come back smiling.

moon fingers crossed it was too early to test, don't worry about the runny egg, loads of people eat them and drink etc without realising they're pg

sorry for making you all wait, it was bfn still no af and no signs of her either, i am very confused been out to commiserate (sp?) with a fried breakfast and a runny egg! although thinking about it now maybe that was a silly thing to do in case i still could be pg....

So much catching up to do! Where to start?????

iggy i just knew it, i have been right every single time so far... i predicted another bfp early nov, in fact two...and ta ta lbm and 4ever got a bfp...and just the other day i had a feeling we were due more good news, and then you came on with your fab news...I have just swept loads of sand out of the villa, i will extract the dog hairs and left over bits of burger and save for you if you are going down the route of lbm

mermaid at the horrendous weather that you seem to be having, i always read the plymouth news on line so i feel a little closer to home and was shocked at the tamar bridge nearly being closed, i just cant picture how bad and cold it is home there...4ever touched on everything i was going to say about having test re the 24 day cycle...but i guess you had explored all of that all ready. I welled up at your post, so much dh thought something had happened to me! You are blessed with such a fab sounding ds that im sure one day you will have another..sod's law has worked for most of us, so here's hoping its the same for you. You're not are going to evict us from your green house though are you? I dont wanna go outside in this crap weather good luck with your pub crawl walk....

lbm still grinning like a loon @ the fab scan news...So how many weeks did they date us as? Has the news sunk in yet?

blue glad lo is playing nicely and staying put for another week at least...how very organised having a birthing play list, i have never even gave the labour a thought..i just imagen lots of blood and screaming blue murder at dh not lovely calming play lists! I will follow your lead and get a list going....Will lo have to have further test when born? I too have had loads of scans, my fridge is full of pictures...another scan on thursday and im sure even more...im glad i have a huge american style fridge to accomadate them all!

4ever Hello my lovely...how are you today? Can you feeling my hands gripping yours for tuesday? Mystic barbie says all in well with your little been, so take it easy. at your work for you..Im at your weekend with dh, mine has gone off to doha to watch the england game, leaving me to clear up after yesterdays bbq

bluemoon any news???? barbie keeps refreshing the page to check for updates.....

neeko awwww bless your dd, such a cute moment. Did you find out the sex in the end? i cant find your post about your last scan

baking i hope you are having a nice weekend, hopefully not worrying too much about your appt next week. I have everything crossed that you get some answers very soon..

mrskate sounds like you have what i have, my heart still races every day now and again which makes me feel weak and dizzy. There is nothing to be done about it so its another thing we just have to endure, have you got low blood pressure too? it seems to go hand in hand. Plenty of fluid and resting for you young lady. xcited to see what you are having...i was so tempted but managed to resist, although dh is convinced he will be able to tell on the 4d scan....

jools hope you have had a nice weekend...i was thinking about you in the hairdressers this morning while reading about jennifer annison trying for a baby at the age of 40, nobody bats an eyelid at her age so i hope you arent worried about it still....hope things with your dp has smoothed over and you are both looking forward to a much more happy future.

sabs vjay and lionstar hope you are all enjoying being the yummy mummies that you are! Any special plans for babies first christmas??? Big hugs to my cyber niece and nephews...

buddha thanks for the chat earlier....

anniecam anything happening???

cupcake hope you had a fab time at the concert, the killers are playing here next weekend and we are still debating whether i can do the trip to abu dabi after a full day at work and then stand for a few hours in a crowed place... might have to give it a miss this time...boo!

i heard from gg the other day, her mat leave have started and she is away this weekend but promises she will be back posting v soon, she sends her love and said she missed all of you

mm i havent managed to catch you on fb for a while, hope everything is ok your end..i will stat stalking you soon i we dont hear from you

mls hope you are having a fab time....

Ok more from barbie world....left work on thurs and had to sit in the car for about 5 minutes before pulling away as i totally and utterly forgot how to drive an automatic not sure where my brain was but it was no more in gear than my car!

As you know dh has gone for the weekend so i decided to take his car to the shops to get a few cleaning products (the floor is a sticky mess!) anyways i reversed and didnt see the same tree that has been outside our house since moving in didnt feel the bump, just the fact the car wasnt going anyway so put my foot down harder and ended up toppling the tree to a 45 degree angle so everyone driving down the road had to swerve into the middle to aviod hitting it the car is fine.....the tree sadly is not! i came back to find it had been taken down to 'avoid hazard' i of course denied all knowledge!

Dh left at 6.30 this morning, wearing yesterdays clothes and smelling like a tramp! He was so drunk and sick...ha ha serves the little blighter right! I do pity who ever sits on the plane next to the 3 lads who also attended the bbq last night, they all looked and smelled just as bad!

Oh and dh new name for me is umpa lumpa...as shouted across the lake yesterday morning as i failed to keep up with him and the dog....i was bouncing and trying out my new fit flops at the time....

And finally, mum and i are friends again! just spent a teary 40 mins talking on skype where i totally broke down and told her how i felt about xmas etc, she cried and said she was acting the same way cos she was so sad too...such a pair of numpties!

Phew, im off to take a much needed break....nap time on the sofa i think...

Excuse the grammer, im rushing before the battery dies on me xxx

love always
b xxx

Iggy Proper congratulations now, rather than my whispered ones the other day Well done!
Jools I thought your anniversary day sounded like it was just meant to be, so peaceful and serene and I am glad you indulged yourself, you deserve it after the year you have had
Mermaid I really hope that some of us can give you the warm fuzzy feelings that you give us with your little comments and your welcoming greenhouse. I was so to read your post, but like the others I just hope that this is the start of something new and better for you by giving away all your stuff, please let sods law win again! Loved your friends comment about DS x
Cupcake Did you enjoy Muse?
Baking Good luck for next week, maybe if you can get some answers you will feel less muddled and Let us know how you get on x
Blue Wonderful news about your latest scan, so pleased that baby blue is behaving for you.
Sabs Good luck for the first jabs on Monday
MrsKate I wonder if it's pink or blue? Not long for us to find out now
4ever Hope your relaxing weekend takes your mind off Tuesday, you are bound to feel anxoious due to associated memories, but I am sure all will be fine Can't wait to see your when you update!
Moon Did you test?
Neeko Sounds like you have a lovely day planned very as I'm just sat here glaring at my crutches! I daren't go out the wet leaves are an absolute minefield with them!
Barbie Hope you didn't have too much to clear up yesterday?

I have finally given in and told work that Monday will be my last day, nobody appreciates me struggling in so as of Tuesday officially on maternity leave Although I'm not sure how I will deal with the boredome

Waves to Vjay MM & Gracie

omg at the weather you are missing a real treat barbie falling wet leaves so no nice crunchy kicking leaves, soggy trouser bottoms, howling winds, the tumble dryer permamently on... how was the bbq by the way

neeko that sounds like a lovely weekend planned and at your dds little pats and kisses.

bakingqueen I am so very sorry that the clomid hasn't done its stuff for you. I hope that your consultant comes up with a fantastic PLAN for you because you deserve some magic baby dust. Please don't stay away though lovely lady cos we will worry about youxx

blue? blueee? I am too scared to tell you to do anything, but have you? I have everything crossed, extra crossed and dementedly crossed.

lbm It is so lovely to hear you all bubbly and upbeat

kate I am sorry to hear that your heart is all a flutter. Please just go gently and demand lots of breakfast in bed this weekend.
Will be thinking of you on Wednesay and a flavour report too we will soon have enough for a football team.

blue thankyou I now have an earworm of we built this city Excellent news that babyblue is staying in the warm, very sensible. Have you finished the cupboards yet?

jools Hope you are not feeling too shattered from this week, thinking of you lots.x

4ever Ohh I always wondered what HR people did! Thank you a lot weepy weebly girly for your ideas I will mull things over as I pound get blown round the streets tonight.Think I may have to go in my sailing outfit luminous and orange I will be the unmissable woman slumped at every pub on the route {grin]@26 miles!!!
Have a lovely weekend with dhx

sabs hope you and dh are not traumatised with the jabs. I like neekos approach to that! Hope opperation wardrobe went without a hitch.

vjay Glad ajay is settling into a routine, hope college is going ok huge admiration for juggling all that at once. Big kiss for that smiley babyx

mm I was thinking i had not 'seen' you for a while and gosh you are getting near to popping too hope all is well and you are busy nestingxx

right its no good I had better go and face the day. Have lovely weekends everyone oh yes iggy still smiling for you and hope you are ok

He went down at 9, had a nibble at midnight, then a ten minute feed at 4 then through to the morning, fabulous .

Morning Vjay How did the LO sleep last night?

Good morning just popped in to try and catch up and see if there's any news from moon.

Morning neeko

Wow! What a busy thread yesterday - love it! I'm going to apologise now because I know I'll miss someone on this post - sorry!

Another big YAAAAY for Iggy Bet you're patting your tummy and smiling between wobbles. Don't worry we'll attach you to our safety rope and pull you through. Lovely to see your name on the medium pants list.

Moon We're waiting on news. I know it's terrifying but it'll feel better once you've POAS. Now deep breath and squeeze tight on our hands.

LBM Thanks for the sand though by the size of me now I think I'll need more than one bucket! at DC2's birth, although I quite fancy one that quick. With DD I started having contractions at midnight on the Monday and didn't have her until 10.12am on the Wed! She was sooo worth it. I have just bought a natal hypnotherapy cd to help this time round. Does anyone know any stories of it working?

As an aside, I'm sitting here blubbing as DD just came up and asked to see the baby in my tummy. When I said she couldn't she said she'd just kiss the baby then and gave my tummy lots of kisses. Memorable and heart melting moment

Mermaid Those are brave decisions you are making, but I really hope you'll be begging and borrowing baby stuff back in about 9 months. Your DS sounds lovely and it was so nice to hear what your friend said. Hang in there.

MrsKate I'm a bit worried about your heart rate. Take it easy, please. Good luck for the scan this week.

4everthechampionweeblywobbler Oh honey, you are having such a time of it. Try not to think about work and to relax lots. Hope that's the back on the mend now and the blooming stage arrives for you earlier than most.

Blue Wow 14 scans? Do you get a pic everytime? If so that's quite an album. Since we got 5 pics on Thurs I already have 8 pics of this LO and in my Monica-like status they're already in an album, but I still have a sneaky peek at how clean people's hands are!

Cupcake Hope you had a fab time last night and you're feeling quite chilled right now.

annie and Buddha are you circling the starting blocks yet? Won't be long now til no more SPD for Buddha and lots of sleepy baby cuddles with those gorgeous smelling heads!

Sabs so nice to hear from you. Good luck with Saara's jab. I made DH come to all of DD's so that he held her and I was the nice parent who cuddled her better

Jools Glad you coped well with your EDD. It's a relief when it's over isn't it. Hope you've got some nice plans for this weekend and that in a few weeks you'll be following the post EDD trend.

Barbie Hope the BBQ went well and that you've not been left with too much clearing up to do. If you have then just do a little, claim pregnancy fatigue and leave the rest til your DH gets back while you put your feet up!

BQ Nice to hear from you. Hope all goes well with the consultant and you're part of the next batch.

Well my DH is working today (again ) so I plan to cook for our freezer and for our friends with the prem baby and maybe take DD to Dobbies to see the Xmas lights and have cake - yum! we have my nephews christening tomorrow so I'll prob spend the afternoon trying to avoid people who want to touch the bump! Hope you all hjave a good weekend whatever you're doing.

iggy Fab news - the next three has started!! Hurrah - now Moon, much as I recommend the warm and lovely sand....
btw, this one was conceived 4 days after my EDD too.

Moon I can recommend the sand - lovely and warm, makes time really fly!

TheLovelyMermaid Seriously, I have got rid of absolutly everything - there is not a bib, baby toy or any equipment to be found in our house. It is clearly an omen along with your lovely calm chilled demenour. You can always beg or borrow it all back again when you get your bfp -I am already planning my email to shock all my friends!!

Jools SO pleased you've had such a good week - your birthday sounded fantastic and whilst your EDD was obviously very sad, you sound like you've come out the otherside in a much better place

cupcake listen to you and your trendy busy life! Hope muse was good!

Bakingqueen Hope everything goes well with the consultant, lurker!

Neeko Lovely news on your scan - heres a spare bucket of sand incase you want to borrow it untill you hear everything is OK with that kidney

4ever Pleased the back is settling down but for your HR dept. Kep ignoring them - you've got much more important things to focus on, my dear!

Budha Not long now , but move dammed placenta, move!!

Annie And you too - only a few weeks to go

Mrskate Sorry you're having a rough time. Give our love to naughty Gracie! Maybe now she's on mat leave, she'll have time to post again!

Barbie Hope you've had fun! How lovely a barbie in the sun, rather than hidding from the wind and the rain

blue - hello lovely lady! Good to hear baby blue is staying put but would be nice for him to come out ahead of Christmas, so that you can all have a lovely time together.
I think you need Christmas Cheese too!

Lovely to hear from you too sabs that is one good little girl you have there to allow you to post! Enjoy her

Anyway, bigpanters, did I ever tell you that my dc2 arrived 3 weeks early? in 3 hours flat?

And on that note, I shall say good night!!
And on that

iggy i'm so excited for you doesnt matter how dark or not the line is, a line is still a line and you are very much pregnant - congratulations!

cd 33 here and any signs of af have vanished in the last few days i know i said i would test tomorrow but i am just so scared. please please if this is it, please let it be 3rd time lucky [hopeful emoticon]

Huge congratulations to you iggy, I'm so pleased for you .

Not had time to catch up properly, sorry, but mermaid I think you are so brave and amazing and hope that once you've given your stuff away you do find out your pg . please don't leave us though, I love your posts and greenhouse

Commando/small pants
MLS CD26
Mermaid
hoping
jools
bakingqueen
Bluemoon
gingermumi

Medium pants
iggypiggy BFP 12th Nov
littlebellsmum BFP 11th Oct
4ever BFP 22nd Sept
cupcake BFP 11th Sept

Big pants
Anniebigpants due 01/12/09
Buddhabelly due 16/12/09
Bluesatinsash due 18/12/09
mm1509 due 05/01/10
GracieGirl due 06/02/10
Curly due 07/02/10
BarbieBigPants due 20/02/10
Neeko due 23/03/10
MrsKate due 05/04/2010

Saggy Pants
VJay 01/09/2009 BOY! ALEXANDER JAMES 8lb 6oz
Lionstar 27/09/2009 BOY! ARLO BRYN 9lb 5oz
Sabs 30/09/09 GIRL! SAARA 9lb

Ohh wow I managed to check back & do actually think I remembered most of your news - gold star for me!

Just wanted to come back on & say GO mermaid a'la pom poms & permatan for doing the charity walk, is it a moonwalk for 26 miles?!?!? Either way - good on ya girl!! Ive done a few charity 5k's & not been able to in last couple of years cos permanently being preg, recovering or hoping I was pg.. Fly the banner - im v proud of you!!!

Also big wave to Annie so do we open a book on whos first with the next arrival? Its between you Buddha and Blue now!!! We need a list update!

Hello all!

Im still beaming for Iggy!!

Im also for Mermaid & really want it to be you next my lovely xx Hope you had time to peruse that tx?!? The weathers awful here too but its kinda cosy isn?t it?! Hope you are snuggled indoors with DH & DS xx

Another lady Im hopeful for is you Bluemoon!!! Still no sign? Testing tomorrow then? Make sure you update us ASAP!!!

Jools sounds like a beautifully peaceful way to spend your anniversary, I could really visualize it, the cathedral & minister sounds lovely, it must have been very healing.. We all seem to have found that the build up to these horrible dates is always worse, Ive found that with family lost ones anniversarys too, its 12years since my brother died on 27th nov, cant believe its been so long, but I often find that the day itself of all our anniversarys, is one of peace, tranquility & quiet acceptance, with our babies we don?t have the funeral & sympathies of others, edds & anniversarys are often our only way of saying goodbye & finding some sort of acceptance. You have been very brave & I look forward to 2010 being a very good year for you my lovely lady ? big hug xx Keep up with the wonderfully indulgent chocs & wine!

Bakinqueen sounds like you're having it tough too hon, hang in there & hope all goes well with the specialist next week.. xx

Barbie having BBQs!! and you miss England you say?!? Its raining cats & dogs & blowing a gale here right now!!! Hope you are feeling brighter & things ok with mum now? Look forward to a big update from you & a funny tale or two!! xx

Neeko so pleased for you too honey, hopefully the kidney thing will resolve itself as still lots of developing to do & bubba has a strong mumma! Must feel good to share with dd even if the excitement only lasted 5mins! Sure the curiosity will grow with your tummy!

Buddha I dreamt something about you last night & cant quite remember what but saw your name!!! Damn that placenta! Mind you knowing a potential date for meeting LO must be very exciting! Its really annoying, I wanted to lovely big personal posts to you all & MN is only letting me see the last page?!? I cant read back like I wanted too & comment on all your news, so this is all from memory!

Mrskate wow 20 wk scan already! Worrying about your heart rate, hope you managed some time off to take it easy..? at Gracie going on mat leave already?! Cant believe it! Im a bit she hasn?t been around to share her journey after being an orig Emmsy & e-mail secretary!

Blue another scan down & Babyblue sticking in there yay! Don?t be at 14th scan of preg, Tuesdays nuchal will be my 6th already at 12wks & consultant said to keep going weekly at EPU til 18 wks so that will be alot of scans! Baby is a good weight though, so although it must be worrying we are all following the one day/week at a time mantra. Love your maternity tunes selection btw!

Sabs big kiss to cyber niece! Oooh scary jabs that would be a job for DH I think as petrified of needles & must be heartbreaking to do it for your baby! Hope DH doesn?t struggle too much with the wardrobe, the right room will help this time no doubt!

Big kisses to our other cyber nephews too Vjay & Lion!!! Cupcake you rock chick! Enjoy Muse & my good old hometown! Shame the weather is crap! Take it easy whilst shaking your thang!! xx

LBM hope all good with you, you just seem so calm & collected, how do you ever manage that?

Well, highly frustrated I cant refer to all your posts when doing a mammoth update to you all, no doubt Ive missed bits Still on a bit of a battle with the jobsworths pen pushing procedure followers at work, who chased my certificates in a rather curt letter & when spoke to them sound like they are reading from a script with no empathy, my new manager eventually thawed out after a 10 min chat but HR are blummin robots! Hey ho, Im covered anyway so they haven?t got anything on me, just sympathy & humanity would have been nice! Meant to be avoiding stress, don?t think they quite grasped that aspect!
Back has thankfully stopped spasming but still sore & have to be v careful how I move, so am doing everything soooooo slowly! Doc gave it a bit of a rub & prod which may have helped Wobbled a bit last night that so much good around that the odds must therefore be stacked against me Prob being paranoid, think the pre scan wobbles for Tuesdays nuchal & first belly scan are kicking in, bit scary to go back to fetal meds as last time there it wasn?t good Anyway DH off work from 1pm today til Monday so will be having a blissful lazy weekend together doing nowt but watching films & crap telly & stuffing faces! Will do my best to keep switched off & weebly moments to a minimum, hard as that may be!!! am off to have a soak in a lukewarm bath now but will be lurking!!!! xxxxx