Emmsy's in weeble land....Where weeble's wobble but don't fall down!

Thinking of you tomorrow MLS I am hoping and praying for a good scan for you and that bean is worrying you over nothing xxx

lots of love to you all and big hugs to moon and 4ever and anyone who needs one

Meant to say lovely news about your colleague Blue. I'm a sucker for good news like that.

Evening Sabs Your body is amazing and when things are supposed to open down there, they will so try not to worry. Also the doctors have ways and means, if necessary. Don't worry they deal with it all everyday
It's natural to be over anxious at this stage, especially with all the things you have no control of. I'm sure that everything, including your DH's job will work out for the best.
I wonder if Lion is having any twinges yet?

Hi to everyone else. I'll text 4ever with the results of my scan tomorrow since she says she'll be around all day. MLS will hopefully be too busy gaping at her bean's HB to post for me

Night night. I'm weebling off to bed...

Hello ladies, hope everyone is feeling a bit better today. If not, I'm still giving out hugs to anyone who would like one

neeko good luck for tomorrow. Also am i right in thinking mls also has her scan tomorrow? Have a hand to hold from me if it is...

jools have a great holiday...Sending some baby dust your way for when you get back. I'm sure your DH will have missed you loads

mrskate nice to hear from you. I was wondering where gracie had got to but good to hear she'll be back soon. Hope everything's ok with her friend as well. We had a bit of a chat about that situation on FB a couple of weeks ago.

4ever how did it go with BF? Hope your feeling better today

vjay hope your still finding time to lurk...We want more photos please! Ive packed my camera into my hospital bag and cleared out the memory along with finding extra batteries. As long as DH doesnt find it and decide to snap away whilst im in labour!

lionstar my EDD buddy, how you feeling????

Hello to blue, mermaid, fifi, buddha, cupcake, iggy, hoping, barbie, mm and sorry to anyone ive missed

So I had my normal midwife appointment yesterday and when midwife was feeling my bump, she couldnt find the head. There was something next to my rib, but she thought it was too hard to be the bum! So she booked me in for a scan which took place 3 hours later to check if the baby was in breech or not as for all my previous appointments baby's head has always been down. She said it was more for piece of mind than anything else. Luckily scan showed that head is definately down and the body part at the top is definately the bum! Talk about buns of steel, definately doesnt get that from me! Also the measurements showed that baby, who at 34 weeks was 6 pounds, is now, at 38 weeks, 8 pounds 13 ounces! I'm only 5 foot 3, am so worried about how this baby is going to get out!! TMI alert but medics have always had problems examining me whenever Ive had smears and last year during my miscarriage, but im hoping it will turn out ok.

Also having trouble sleeping as im getting really stressed about DH's job situation which I know is not good for the baby or DH, so trying to stay positive.

Hello ladies, hope everyone is feeling a bit better today. If not, I'm still giving out hugs to anyone who would like one

neeko good luck for tomorrow. Also am i right in thinking mls also has her scan tomorrow? Have a hand to hold from me if it is...

jools have a great holiday...Sending some baby dust your way for when you get back. I'm sure your DH will have missed you loads

mrskate nice to hear from you. I was wondering where gracie had got to but good to hear she'll be back soon. Hope everything's ok with her friend as well. We had a bit of a chat about that situation on FB a couple of weeks ago.

4ever how did it go with BF? Hope your feeling better today

vjay hope your still finding time to lurk...We want more photos please! Ive packed my camera into my hospital bag and cleared out the memory along with finding extra batteries. As long as DH doesnt find it and decide to snap away whilst im in labour!

lionstar my EDD buddy, how you feeling????

Hello to blue, mermaid, fifi, buddha, cupcake, iggy, hoping, barbie, mm and sorry to anyone ive missed

So I had my normal midwife appointment yesterday and when midwife was feeling my bump, she couldnt find the head. There was something next to my rib, but she thought it was too hard to be the bum! So she booked me in for a scan which took place 3 hours later to check if the baby was in breech or not as for all my previous appointments baby's head has always been down. She said it was more for piece of mind than anything else. Luckily scan showed that head is definately down and the body part at the top is definately the bum! Talk about buns of steel, definately doesnt get that from me! Also the measurements showed that baby, who at 34 weeks was 6 pounds, is now, at 38 weeks, 8 pounds 13 ounces! I'm only 5 foot 3, am so worried about how this baby is going to get out!! TMI alert but medics have always had problems examining me whenever Ive had smears and last year during my miscarriage, but im hoping it will turn out ok.

Also having trouble sleeping as im getting really stressed about DH's job situation which I know is not good for the baby or DH, so trying to stay positive.

Cupcake I second Mermaid's view re: asprin and placebo affect. i've bene reasurred by several health professional's that it has no side effects... Hope you get your early scan sorted ( at your Doc - do they not understand how vital these scans are for our sanity??).

Neeko lovely analogy and will be thinking about you tomorrow as you head off into bigpantland. Really about your BF friend and timing of scna photo etc. Scan photos should not be put anywhere other than in wallets or on here so no-one can stumble across them by accident .

Barbie hope your lying down with cool flannel on head x

MM belated Happy Anniversary for yesterday. Hope you and DH had a lovely meal together .

Sabs - please share what is worrying you. This thread is for us all small-big panters and everyone's anxieties/shit days are just as imporant as everyone's elses...

Colleague at work had a little boy yesterday, 2 weeks early. So happy for her. She and her DP had a monumentally bad 2008 (perforated bowel on holiday needing emergency surgery, undiagnosed chrones disease, ovarian cyst (her), rare skin condition they thought was bone cancer (him). She visited me after my 2nd mc early Jan and said 2009 was going to be our year and to look ahead. It does turn around...

jools I nearly put hope you are not stuck in the airport, never mind cocktail hour can start early you are on holiday
by the way you always put things well and things will work their way to being untangled. Travel safely and merrily!

Sitting in airport.flight delayed 2.5 hours !

Lovely lovely Santa analogy Neeko and will be thinking about you too tomorrow.

Hope 4Ever and Mermaid are feeling less grey today. You have such lovely words for everyone else. I don't put emotions into words very well but you are in my thoughts

Strange mood here very hormonalemotional and tearful but happy and smiling at same time.

On hols without dp so no s e x but will be cd8 when I get back so hopefully he will have missed me lots !!!

Am quite relieved not to be pg this cycle as would have been celebrating my 40th at 11+5 which was time of worst mc and would be in a knicker checking meltdown

cupcake I reckon it is an excellent placebo if nothing else and it is such a tiny amount of asprin that it is not going to hurt. I was recommended the disolvable one by the chemist when I asked.
to the blinking dr re scans but big thumbs up to your bf mum. hope you are feeling ok and trying to be as relaxed as poss.

neeko another scan day tomorrow, oh honey, will be thinking of you.

barbie your head again you poor thing, hope dh managed to get you one of those nice cool pack things and that it clears.xx

Morning Neeko, what a lovely post, I agree with every word. Feel sad for your bf's friend too, that must be so hard. Been thinking of you with your scan tomorrow, and you MLS of course. Not long now.

Buddha no I don't have an early scan booked. Been to my doc this morning to ask about baby aspirin- (she discouraged me from taking it but said it was up to me so I don't know what to do! Would only blame myself if I lost this LO ) anyway, she said no to a reassurance scan because 'you can't change the outcome anyway' but my Mum's bf is a midwife in this area and said when I mc'd that she would get me in for a scan next time so will call her later Was given the big pack of pregnancy stuff at GP's this morning and told a midwife would ring me soon scary.

Jools sorry evil af got you...enjoy your hols and yes, DRINK! I am gutted I didn't finish the lovely pear cider in the fridge before finding out about this lo! will have to give it to my bf...

Hi all.
Been keeping quiet about me as I have my proper dating scan tomorrow and am feeling a little weeblesque. They told me to go by scan dates making me 13 weeks, but by my own white-coated-charted-and-checked dates I'm 12 weeks and that's when I found out about my lost LO last time I have no reason to doubt about tomorrow, yet the doubt is there...

Had a very frank discussion with my bf last night. Her EDD is next week (when mine would have been) and she's struggling a little because she has recently learned that another friend of hers had a MC back in March on the day that my bf's DH chose to send a photo of their 12 week scan to all and sundry. After months of avoidance they have discovered what happpened and bf is struggling to come to terms with the fact that this woman has said she won't be able to visit when the LO is born.
Anyway, it really made me think about everything that was said on here yesterday and I've come to the conclusion that we'll never get our old selves back. I told my bf the (poor) analogy that having a MC is like finding out about Santa - eventually you learn to enjoy Xmas again, but the magical spark has gone and you'll never get it back completely. Maybe that's why we try to keep Xmas magical for the innocent? Think it helped her understand but she (understandably) feels guilty for her friend and helpless to do anything for her.

I'd like to get the poor woman (who I don't know) and bring her to our greenhouse. we may have bad days but at least we have them together and are learning that as we can't go back, we'll just have to learn' love and somehow try to move on - together.

I really wish we could write that MC book. it makes me so to think of women out there in desperation and isolation.

Anyway enough philosophy from me Hope you're all well, or at least clinging on as best you can.

hi all just a quaick post just to say . jools sorry about AF but have a great holiday .

just got in touch with gracie she hasnt dropped off the face of the earth . she has damaged her phone and its died and has no internet so she will be on here soon maybe sunday or monday .xx

Popping an embarassed head round the door - Thanks so much to all of you for yesterday! Im glad I wasnt alone, not glad you all felt a bit crappy & too of course! Good release methinks, am gonna brave it & see bf with dd today & try a gentle chat..

Jools damn that AF but what a great way to deal with it by jetting off to sunny shores! Enjoy the sangria, sun and whats that other thing begins with s again?

LovelysweetNeeko you are just such a nice lady & thanks so much for the heaps of support yest, now as I said, you have beanie & kids to teach so please dont be worrying about us wobbly weebles too much! xxx

Mermaidthebrave Im glad you let some of those bottled up feelings out, even if it resulted in your ddh having very soggy shoulders, he sounds like a lovely solid man.. Thank you also for relating, all the lovely emmsys weebles made me feel not so alone. Its v refreshing when you have these feelings, that you dont want to share, but then everyone here can relate & say me too... Its a cure in itself.. Hope you feel better for it today sweetie? xxx

MLS sorry if the oh woe me ness of yest didnt help your need for positivity, as mermaid says, its one minute at a time.. Im taking half day but just shout if you need too, I'll be here all day tomorrow sending super sticky positive thoughts to you.. xxx

Barbie sweetheart, I noticed you didnt post back & really hope you know that I do understand what a great day of achievement it was for you 1 year on with your situation all turned around, I was a bit self absorbed so apologise! Looking forward to hearing your latest mad mishaps! xxx

jools spect you are on your way by now and I am glad that at least you can soak up some late summer sun with those carefree cocktails, hope you are ok.xx

fifi I am so sorry that during my woe is me rant yesterday I completely forgot to say hello. I felt It is a horrid feeling of not being in control of the hormone rollercoaster. It kind of hits you in the face like a wet kipper whenever you least expect it. Just go easy, do the bare minimum, ha yes I know kids, weddings to plan, life etc but you know what I mean. Thinking of you.x

sabs come and tell us we all want to go ouch I might start a sweep stake with a 101ber

mls hope you are taking it easy and progressing a minute at a time. What time is your scan tomorrow?xx

4ever morning sunny lady, hope you are as ok as possible today.
You are right bottling stuff is pretty futile, I exploded like my great grannys ginger beer in true drama queen style and ddh did lots of wringing out shoulders.

I am quite sure that you can spot an emmsys male cos they will generally have soggy shoulders

Oh Jools sorry the evil witch got you but glad you'll have some peace of mind on holiday. Realx, have fun and have a cocktail or ten! Big hug if you need it.

have a meeting now, but I'll be on later.

Just logging on whilst waiting for the taxi to whisk me off to some sun

have a great week. I will be lurking for news.

CD1 here - just glad the uncertainty is over ...

Oh girls. Not been able to log on today .

We can all relate to all the life post-mc scenarios - the 'life goes on' mentality we have to be seen to be adopting, selfish friends, unhelpful comments, ungrateful pg women . BUT we're all here not feeling that, not putting a limit onto how long we grieve or remember and maybe we should remind our RL family and friend's that its not always OK that we maybe do want to talk about it and so what if it makes them uncomfirtable, deal with it. One of the reasons my sister and I had such a barny in Berlin was to do with my last year and her lack of understanding at what mc actually means to you once the acute rush to hospital is over. They can sympathise with the initial news and operation etc. but the silent aftermath is deafening .

MLS - I hope and pray you get good news on Thursday, you've said you feel this lo is a fighter, I hope to God she/he is x

Love and neeko group hug to all xx

Just a quick post to say I'm lurking and would also like to extend a big hug to everyone who'se feeling down today.....MN need to create ways to show love, kisses and hugs like they do with the smileys

Have had a bit of a day today but will post about it when everyone is feeling a bit better as I always feel so paranoid about upsetting anyone on here

mermaid you have summed up how I feel, ?grey?, that?s a very good word. Just generally bleurgh, and not in any particular place, with no way of getting anywhere very soon, or finding my old self. Sometimes I think that my weeble is faulty and it can fall down.

4ever I feel so sad for you that you?re having such a crap time of everything. I agree with what you say about us being punished, I have felt lately that this must be the only explanation, I mean there is only so much crap you can take before you start to lose the plot a bit. My heads all over the place? and for what its worth no one remembered my edd in rl either.

iggy sad for you too, but does this make us almost cycle buddies though along with bq and hoping too?

hoping you are being very brave at having some time off with no pants, I hope it gives you the break you need and you will be in a better place come the new year. Make sure you stay with us though.

barbie your story gives us all hope, but you must stay away from dangers like ironing with your trousers on!

jools I really hope this is your month, keeping my fingers crossed for you

mls really hope that things will turn out well for you, have been thinking of you lots

neeko how are you doing? Joining in the group hug.

BakingQueen Sorry TEW got you, lets hope the 2nd round of clomid does the trick this time
Iggy Sorry TEW got you too
Barbie I like the look of those tummy tubs, definatley take up less space, when is your 20 wk scan? I am so loving the different story every day from the Barbie camp Isn't it lovely feeling the LO move? It is wonderful to see how life has changed for you in just a year, you are a very special, lucky lady
VJay Sounds like your giving Alex gold top Glad your all doing so well
Jools Pants on the BFN, but I haven't given up hope on you yet, have a fantastic holiday and hope you come back with some really good news
Hoping Like I said to Mermaid only you can make the right decision and you sound as if you have peace from it, so I salute you non-ttc lovely lady and am very pleased to see that you are not going anywhere. Let's hope a BFP sneaks up on you too
Blue So of you planting bulbs, I can't even do my housework which I know sounds like bliss but when DH does it and does it badly (bless him) it's so frustrating
Moon I am so sorry TEW got you as well, I hope you are feeling a little better today, please don't worry about moaning we all do it, it's very theraputic
MLS Will be thinking of you on Thursday and crossing everything for a positive outcome. Our bodies like to confuse us in more ways than one, I am still hoping the dates and measurements are out for you x
4ever Still very proud of the way you are dealing with your anniversaries, you are such a strong and beautiful person. It sounds as if some of your friends need a gentle reminder of how supportive you have been to them, shame we can't give it to them so they can look after you in RL, our hair strokes aren't the same when they are only virtual
cupcake Have I missed anywhere if you are having an early scan? Knicker checking takes over your life by the way
MrsKate Good luck for Friday
Blue I am so with the knicker checking in the car plus some other very odd places I won't mention
Fifi You take as much time as you need to get over you loss, don't worry what other people think, you have to look after yourself physically and mentally
MM Bet the bump is looking good now? Happy anniversary
Mermaid Big hug winging it's way to the coast for you, why is it that it only seems to be us that remembers EDD's etc, everyone else just forgets I suppose, it's easy for them they don't have to think about it after the initial shock wears off.

Sorry for the huge post but I needed a good catch up
Really hope I haven't missed anyone x

they didn't have any FR at Paddington station ! I have 1 Boots test, two Tescos test and another Clearblue Digi at home. Did a First Response at 12DPO ...

Oh well, will see what tomorrow brings

sorry, am getting super obsessed and tired, so can't respond to all the sadness - am thinking of you all though x x x x

Mermaid I almost shed a tear reading your post. You're right that it will always be with us. My friend whose wife has lost 4 LOs said to me that he thinks once you are touched by death, it's alwys with you. made me sad. Well done you keeping your chin up through cousin giving birth etc. That is lovely about the butterfly thing.

Jools my babymad tests showed BFN on day 30 (day AF due) and 32... get a first response!

Iggy lots of handholding for you xxx

opps flamin button
jools have a fabby holiday and hope your body of mystery sorts itself out.x

ig without all of you I would think I was mad.

neeko you are sounding mellow, am hoping you are ok.x

bakingqu I am so so till keeping everything crossed for this coming month.

4ever acch give me a desert Island! we will all lurch through this week somehow
right off to a meeting. Love to all, thanks.x

vjay have you managed to get your baggys on before midday yet?
Give Alex a big aunty mermaid kiss.xx and hope you are feeling ok and have surfaced from post birth soreness etc.