Emmsy's in weeble land....Where weeble's wobble but don't fall down!

4ever stillborns are so very very rare these days, I think my friend was just very unlucky. She's getting weekly scans from 30 weeks to help stop it happening again. Please don't panic, I wouldn't have mentioned about her if I thought it would worry anyone. She was the first person to phone me after my miscarriage in February who wasn't embarrassed to talk about my miscarriage and didn't ever avoid the subject. She's never belittled my 10 week miscarriage as less important than her baby.

Bakinqquuen thanks for congrats & good luck with BD - babydust babydust babydust - heaps of it for you & all small panters! xx

Gracie welcome back & thanks for congrats too, had to come back on & post cos spent my whole bath freaking about your friends gf having stillborn at 34 wks.. How very awful for her now my heart is racing with fear about it! will we never be able to enjoy pg? know i wont feel ok til babe is in arms, but hoped by 16 to 20 wk + that maybe a little less paniced but that story confims that this is a long road... Please no more horror stories!!! Hope no-one else is getting too freaked out... There is a reason I avoid MN at weekends, must try & restore some of the calm I had started to feel after a whole day of switching off & chilling out..

Hello just a quick post been tied up with work and stuff

Neeko- feel so bad for you that your bf is so uncaring especially as this weekend must be so hard for you am thinking of you

4ever- congratulations so pleased for you bith xxx

Gracie- so pleased to see your back 21 weeks how time flies

Had injection to stimulate ov this morning so bd action for me for the next few days. Maybe its a good omen for today but one of my friends had a baby boy today hpoing some of that baby dust drops on me this month and all of my fellow small panters xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Evening ladies! Dropping in for a surprise weekend visit! I lurked via pho & had to post to our lovely Neeko - at so called bf, its sad so many of us have drifted from friends since mc cos they just dont get it. I too have had horror stories, its almost like people are trying to say 'what you've been through is bad, but i know a worse story' which is in no means reassuring or helpful & in fact just bloody cruel & mean. Thank god we have each other thats all i can say! I hope tomorrow is not too harsh, your baby knows how loved he or she is & having a quiet moment with dh before the party, letting off that balloon will be a special moment for you & baby angel.. xxxxxx Big hug xxx

Today would be our 2nd LLO first birthday, am lighting our special angels candle with DH in a bit but have spent most of today feet up in garden reading mags & chilling. It is wierd knowing I have another tiny being inside.. I have a belly stud that I feel represents the babies, one big stone with 3 dangly stones, 1 of the dangly stones has been hiding in my belly button all day, I feel thats no2 on its birthday with its new little bro or sis.. Made me feel quite calm about things.. Can only say that to DH and you cos I know it sounds quite mad!

Buddha bless you for that lovely update, it was me talking about the lanterns, how very wierd & touching that all happened the day we shared our news! Im still trying to believe it too! Hope the back & water probs resolve themselves soon honey xx

Jools hope the basque is on & the adrenylins pumping you gym bunny! I agree 40 is the new 30 so embrace it! I got excited about entering a new decade & new beginings when I turned 30 & got with DH 2 months later so you never know sweetie!

Barbie poor worried honey about your scan, only 5 sleeps til thurs & glad you have mum around.. xx

Mermaid always in my thoughts, always comforting others & sharing wise words, hope you are having a lovely weekend xxx

Right, havent had a bath yet, DH is cooking, plan on doing nothing at all til mon when poor brave DH is gonna tube in to hosp on his own to give his pint of blood to save me doing rush hour at 9am, then FIL will drive us both back at 1pm once DH pint has been seperated into white cells ready to be injected 5 times into my arm [scared face]. Im all worried about DH doing it on his own & will send him off with food supplies & want regular call updates to check he is ok! He is a donor so used to doing it twice a year anyway but not in middle of town, anyway sure he'll be fine, more worried about that than me at the mo!

Lots of love to you all, sorry not mentioned you all but will be off all week so will catch up properly then xxxxxxxxxx

Knock knock! Can I come in??? Just spent about 2 hours reading a whole months posts.

Firstly Cupcake and 4ever! Wow! fantastic news!!

MLS my thoughts are with you, I'm so sorry its happened to you again. huge hugs xx

I'm really sorry I disapeared for so long, real life has been so hectic I've barely had a minute for weeks. I'm now 21 weeks and everything seems fine, I had a scan on tuesday but didn't want to find out the sex. In any case baby had legs firmly crossed and was hiding its bits and pieces from view so its obviously meant to be a surprise!

I've mostly been busy with my best friend and his pregnant ex girlfriend, as strange as that might sound! Since his Mum died he's had a massive change in personality and has dumped his girlfriend of 4 years who is now 28 weeks pregnant. She's staying with her mum in a tiny flat thats not big enough for her never mind a baby too, she doesn't drive so has had to leave her job as she can't get there from her Mums. Its so not like my best friend to do this and at some point he'll calm down and be horrified at his behaviour. There's just no talking to him at the minute so the best thing I can do is make sure his baby is looked after. She's had a nightmare pregnancy and the baby isn't growing properly, they plan to induce her at 32 weeks as she doesn't have enough amniotic fluid to protect the baby. She also had a stillborn at 34 weeks a few years ago . Knowing my friend that is why he's hiding, he's just lost his Mum and can't cope with the idea of losing his son too. That doesn't help his girlfriend much though does it! Its just a big mess!

neeko oh lovely lady What a hard place for you to be. Celebrating a birth whilst mourning your lo and the joy and worry of creating a new one. No wonder you have cried and feel so wrung out.

I think we need to round up all former bf and send them off to.... hmmm sure someone can think of something fitting.
Really she should be shouted at, the cardinal sin is to tell any pregnant woman a horror story. You just don't do it

Arranging kids parties are a stress in themselves, so delegate as much as you can and take a bit of time out with dh to remember.
I don't know what I believe, even more so as I see people around me going through awful things but I am quiet sure that our angels knew how much they were loved and wanted.

barbie wow you are 19 weeks I am so proud of you and you need a big gold glittery star for bravery and heroic knicker checkering. Have a nice weekend with your mum and I hope that you got to speak to dh.

jools The 6 week countdown The big 40 is the new 30 so you are going to strut your sassy stuff all over the sw
I am going to keep everything crossed that you have a succesful black basque weekend.

budha lovely story with the lanterns. sorry to hear about the spd and water works. It looks like its feet up with litres of cranberry juice for you over the weekend.

Wow Jools watch the gym doesn't tire you out too much Thanks for the support.

Welcome back Buddha - hope you are feeling less tired today and the SPD calms down now you are home.

Lovely pic Vjay - seeing our first graduate grow up really makes me smile

Neeko - it is the nature of people to try and top your story with another they have heard - I have lost count of the number of times people have told me about second trimester mc's - my stock response now is that I can't imagine how awful that must have been, but it doesn't take any pain or loss away from what happened to me - that is the bit nobody else understands but you guys I'm sure your day will be beautiful - what better way to mark such a sad anniversary than with happiness and laughter (Ok, OK, I know I'm getting a bit deep here !)

Well, no BD action for me last night or this morning, so the pressure is on - need to seduce DP today and tomorrow to be in with a chance. Still pretty zen like about it all though. Some strange thoughts creeping in - I dreamt that the reason I'm not PG is because deep-down I don't really want it and somebody up there is making sure I only get what I really want

Am focussing on weight loss quite obsessively now - I made a promise to myself 3 years ago that I would be a healthy weight (on the BMI scale) by the time I was 40. Here I am, 3 failed pregnancies and a dodgy back later plus numerous two week waits where I'm scared to diet too much and I'm still a stone from that goal with only 6 weeks left I know I won't be able to achieve that goal, but am going to make a supreme effort to at least do that promise to myself justice ... Have started with nearly 3 hours at the gym this morning - 2 classes, upper body weights plus lots of stretching.

Busy afternoon ahead, so will drop in later. Those wearing fairly new pairs of medium pants - you are in my thoughts x x

Thanks Barbie i really needed to hear from someone who understands I will probably not get on until tomorrow night, but you'll alll be in my thoughts. Sometimes it's so hard taking things minute by minute.

Hi all. Need to vent a little so sorry if I bore anyone.
Really thought I was ok about this weekend. Obviously I was sad but thought I could handle it. My former bf came round on Thursday evening with a present for DD. I say former because she has more or less ignored me since the MC. She proceeded to tell me two horror stories about friends of hers who have lost their babies further on than I am now and how they haven't recovered from it. I tried to just go down the "that's awful" route and change the subject. After she left I couldn't get it out of my mind and didn't sleep well.
Think it really unsettled me on what was already going to be a difficult time. I ended up sobbing at work twice yesterday and have been in tears several times since. I just feel so sad that I should have been due to give birth this weekend and that I'll never get to tell my LO how much I loved and wanted him or her.
I know I'm in an enviable position by being pg again, but I'm aware that there are no guarantees and I have such a long way to go. I just hope I have the strength to make DD's birthday special tomorrow and deal with a house full of people without breaking down. All I really want to do is go to bed and hide.
Anyway I know you guys all have problems of your own despite understanding mine. I'm sorry for being so woe is me, but feel a bit better for venting.
Don't know what I'd do without this thread... Love to you all.

Whilst on holiday I saw some flying chinese lanterns and thought of 4ever (I hope it was you that was telling about them, but preg-nasia does funny things to my brain) and I was telling DH all about you and your journey so far, and how you were such a brave and strong person. Spookily this was on Tuesday and I come home to find out you had the most amazing news the same day I just can't believe it I got signed off from week 6.5 to week 11 as my MS was so bad and I think being so anxious was making it worse, it did me the world of good, so I say go for it and get booked in with GP! Good luck for Monday, everything is crossed x
Barbie Fully understand not wanting to open the stuff until after the scan, I still worry now, don't think it will ever go away but eventually you get a little braver and a little more adventurous. Also worrying about DH being away/baby etc it is all natural, so don't be so hard on yourself x
Hoping How are you coping, have you considered some counselling?
Mermaid Gutted af got you
MLS I really hope things brighten up a little for you, enough to get you back on our thread at least
Blue I'm glad I'm not the only superstitious one
MM Glad you had a good appointment, sounds like you have a very lively one there
Blue Don't be away too long
Jools Glad you had a lovely break
Iggy Don't feel you can't talk to us though will you? Hope your lifts soon, but appreciate how god damn awful it is, hugs x

Apologies if I've missed anyone but got back off hols today, what with SPD and a water infection I'm not feeling too hot to trot so having an early one

Big waves to Neeko MrsKate Gracie Sabs VJay MM annie Lion Cupcake lbm

sorry, Vjay thanks for putting the other picture up! Pleased he's a good boy and letting you update us regularly!

HI ladies
Neeko Hope Sunday goes in a blur of jelly, ice cream and those fab little cakes you make!
igy sorry to hear you are sad again - come back soon and take care
4ever plans sound great. Roll on Oct 12th
Cupcake I agree with the others - it;s just LO nesting
BabyLion and babysabs get down here soon - it's sunny and warm and we all want to meet you!
Had a lovely day shopping with my mum - don't think I've dont that for about 15 years!
And I'm feeling mega smug as I bought the DC's their new christmas Pj's to be delivered by the reindeers on Christmas eve!

Hello I have just popped anpther piccy of Alex onto my profile, it is his 3 week pose

sabs and lion waiting vey impatiently here, as I'm sure you both are too

4ever hope you are taking good care of yourself, and not letting work stress you out, it ain't worth it.

Hope you ok 4everweeble make sure you look after yourself.

Waves to you all.

Feel utterly miserable again... was doing so well... sigh...

so will leave you all in peace for a bit. Much love to all xxxx

Good luck with the battleplan Jools

Im off for afternoon now, treatment all ok for mon & will have painful swollen arm & may not post again til tues, so dont worry peeps - love y'all from the weeble xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Just arranged first scan for 12th Oct & apt with RMC clinic on the 1st!

Work a changing at a rapid pace - manager is no more from today so may well get myself signed off if its not working out for me as intend to be stess free as poss!

Helllooooooooo

Trying to stay chilled and not drop in here too often

So, just wafting by in a post holiday tranquil haze to bestow zen like happy, sticky vibes (and a couple of eviction notices )

CD11 here (I know, I know - I can't help it

Off into battle proper this weekend

rushing in/out cupcake enjoy your weekend, its your body doing all the extremely complicted stuff it has to do. Please try not to worry (ha ha if only)

4ever time to pull the biggest duvet day of your life I reckon. r-e-l-a-x as much as you can. Smile a heck of a lot, manically if needs be and we will get in the barbie mobile to sort out that bloody receptionist again if we have to.

sabs and lion jump!

Hey weebling cupcake Im thinking that twinges are beanies nestling, I been going from freaking to trying to assure myself. I think hb is seen at 6wk if you do go for scan, I called EPU this morning to leave message for my fab sonographer, shall ask her what she reckons. Iv never seen a midwife with any of mine even tho got to 9wk with 3 & 13wk with the other Im gonna get in with NHS consultant too but sort treatment & portland first.. My cycles about 31 days so not exactly sure on my dates, Im classing myself as 4w today but last AF was on Tues 25th Aug, so could I be 4+3?! I dont know? Scrambled brain! Good luck telling parents, my philosophy exactly, have told parents, sis, nan & aunt, SIL & 4 workmates, then freakily a mutual friend called on weds night & asked outright 'are you pregnant' I nearly swallowed my teeth! Spooky pschic moment. For another mad one, spoke to MIL last night & she told us BIL & gf is 4/5 wk preg too(!!!). Feel but had mixed emotions as last we heard they were splitting up & very rocky, so was a bit that we been through all this & it just happened for them, and also scared that means it will go wrong again for us as 4 mates now had same edds & they all went to have theres & I lost mine so weebled out about about that one.... (followed by guilt for not being overjoyed) Its a funny old game aint it....? xxxxxx

Morning lovelies! Another rushed post from me Im afraid!

Neeko I shall be holding your hand on sunday, big hugs for being brave xx

Jools glad you had that chat with your mum, & glad DH welcomed you home in a fitting way!

Barbie it will be nice to be pampered over xmas, will be strange for you over there, will you have a tree!?

Lionbaby & Sabsbaby COME ON DOWN!!!!! - as prob wont be back on til tues please tx me if they arrive before then someone!!!!

Hello Mrsmermaid I have 2 xmas prezzies hidden away so far! Def a liitle Monica in all of us..!

Blue when you think MC affects 1 in 4 its not surprising really, wonder how many of us know a lady in our situation & dont realise..

Cupcake you're a brave girly, Im weebling all over the place here

Spent alot of yest on verge of tears & getting all agitated & angry at anything & everyone (inc myself) that I was stressing Possibly hormones? Then freaked out thinking I was doing damage & then freaking out about it not working again. I am pretty scared, I just wanna take it s l o w l y & cover me in the bubble wrap mermaid sent & my self styled cotton wool wrap dress & hide in bed. Im feeling torn like with work I need to help this girl if Im not gonna be around & secure my position in the new structure (in case it dont work again) but then as DH says dont worry about any of it & just look after me & get some time off? Well the treatment is hopefully mon (if all results get over ok ect) & will have all next week to chill.. Will make more decsions then when calmer I think...

Thanks Neeko
I'm still getting that pain in my right side but dh and I decided it's pointless to phone epu yet as they wouldn't be able to see enough and I'd only have to wait in limbo again Gonna wait to speak to mw next Sat.
Hope party plans go well! Here's my hand for your edd.

I'm away now for the weekend so hope you all have a lovely time and I'm looking forward to news of more nieces/nephews when I return! (we're gonna be telling rest of mine and dh's family this weekend, feels so wrong to but as we'd tell them if I miscarried again I guess it makes sense...)

Morning.
Quick post as work is manic and I'm trying to organise DD's 3rd birthday party for Sunday. Sunday would also have been my EDD but at the moment I'm feeling ok about it and DH and I plan to release a helium balloon and have a moment or two before the party chaos begins.

4ever hope you get it all sorted . Remember nothing else matters ATM so deal with you.

Sabs Good luck to your DH - and with the little job you'll be doing yourself over the next week or so.

Cupcake Here's my hand for tommorrow. It'll all be fine.

Big hugs to Moon MLS and Iggy and waves to all the rest of you. I'll try to pop on over the weekend, but thinking of you all.

Mermaid Can always rely on you. Well done with the shopping There's clearly some Monica in us all

Blue Try to think positively about that lady. Every discussion about MC makes it all a little less taboo, which can only be a good thing.

Barbie Hope your mum is pampering you.

Evening ladies..

4ever nice to hear im not the only Monica in here Sorry to hear you had such a rubbish day today If you do have the option of not working for the next three months, you should take it. You need to put yourself first..

cupcake be sure to let us know the link for the article that you're writing

iggy Hope you're feeling a bit better today...You have our hands to hold whenever you need it...

mermaid I am happy to report that DH has been invited for a second interview, which is great. The interview will be some time next week, so lo needs to bear that in mind when it decides to come out

lionstar what a wonderful present for DH should lo be born on saturday! Hope you've been feeling OK otherwise

blue hopefully this xmas will be the best ever yet for you!

jools good to hear you had a good break. Good luck for the weekend

mls if your lurking, just to say that I'm thinking of you...

barbie I second you should be taken care of by everyone over xmas instead of you having to run around. I wonder what xmas is like in Dubai

sabs waves to lbm and neeko and anyone else who may be lurking. Right, I'm off to watch Back to the future II with DH . Have only seen the first one, can you believe! Might as well enjoy this quality time with DH while I can

See you all tomorrow!