Emmsy's onwards and upwards! xxx

Hi ladies. Quite an emotional day round here today... Have brought chocolate covered brazils to share but Mermaid must promise not to put the nuts back in the bag once she's licked the choc off!!
MLSconceptionguru Definitely going to order a digital thermometer. I thought I'd have to lie there for 5 mins, but 30 secs seems totally do able. Can I start temping on any day or do I need to wait for AF and what am I looking for? LOL at your Spoons story My DH asked why I was laughing but didn't think it would translate well into man world.
Barbie I'm really sorry you've had such a rotten day. Hope your icecream and movie helped. Sleep tight!
Kate AAAARRRGGGHH! Think that's how we both feel about elusive AF. I was always rubbish at hide n seek and you'd think she'd know that by now!
Mermaid It was good that you shared that story about your EDD as the rest of us will feel better about feeling lousy now - if you know what I mean?! I totally get your point about DS. Loads of people have told me to be thabkful for DD and I really am but why should having her make it wrong for me to want another and mourn the loss of the one I couldn't have?
Jools Loved the cat story Am baiting impatiently patiently to hear your test results. Good luck.

barbie - I'm really hoping your sitting enjoying your movie and ice cream as I type and that you feel better after your cry. You are so strong and positive it goes against your very being having mc and ttc stresses thrust upon you.

Where are you with the doctor and checking your cycle out? Have you thought any more about getting acupuncture?

This ttc after mc is just so bloody hard BUT you will get there and your lo will be sporting his/her 'emmsy's angel graduate' vest one day x

r-e-l-a-x

barbie I hope this dos'nt make you feel worse, just trying to say we are normal, whatever the hell that is on my first edd I went completely nuts, just caved in and couldn't cope, a bit of a mini breakdown I suppose. I had bottled it all up, brushed myself off and carried on, like we are meant to do cos i was 'so lucky to have a ds'
Didn't have this lovely safe place and you lot. It did take me a while to find my feet again, I reckon a year and I was kindda ok. I suppose thats why I have lumped all the mcs into one its easier to carry around in my head.

You have had a really crap day, a really crap af/not af/ your mums gone home, nasty job lady but it will be ok. It will honestly see its mysticmermaid now!

im so sorry u feel down barbie big big hugs xxxxxxx

barbie its shit honey and I hate where our bodies have dumped us. I know it dosn't help much cos am 1000s of miles away but we all love ya loads and understand and just cry it out, we have tissues at the ready. Your edd date is only just past and hormones are shit, sending you a hug.

Oh forgot to say... forget the mini eggs, I have just discovered Sainsbury's Taste The Difference Belgian chocolate hot cross buns, MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM! None of your fruity raisiny crap in there, just lots of chunks of pure Belgian chocolate, split in two & toasted with loads of butter, hubba hubba!

same her mls im starting to feel that everyone i seem to no is pregnant or just had a baby

Hello ladies, what a busy bunch you have been again today! 4ever so so happy about your test news, try not to let your MIL drag you down. You must remain an optimist, I just don't get pessimists... or even realists for that matter! I think you can achieve whatever you want to achieve with hard work & positive thinking. You WILL get the baby you've been dreaming about.

Neeko my ttc knowledge comes from desperation & perhaps a bit too much time on my hands to enable me to have done the amount of research I've been doing! Yes I use a digital thermometer, they are the most accurate & beep after 30 seconds when you have a reading.

Jools I hate to join the pushy bandwagon but I'm dying to know if you have done a test yet!

Barbie I think bright red blood is good. when I had my latest acupuncture on Saturday they asked what colour my af was & mine was bright red too.

Did anyone used to watch that sketch show a couple of years ago called Spoons? One of the sketches was a husband & wife & whatever situation they were in (in a restaurant or a bar or whatever) he would always say "Can I get you anything else dear?" & she would always reply at the top of her voice "I WANT A FU**ING BABY!!!!" Well that's just about how desperate & irrational I'm starting to feel!

Well ladies - signing off for the Easter weekend! Thank you so much again to you all for all your support & kind words! Trying to come back to earth a bit (aided by slightly pessimistic MIL who 'is too scared to believe it will work' ) Just enjoy & share our buzz woman! Its a forgotten feeling & im enjoying it! I know she means well tho & would take a tank to bring me too down right now! Invited her, FIL & my mum to dinner on sunday so will get them both drunk & merry! Tomorrow we are decorating the back bedroom finally, never done it, always in the hope would eventually be our nursery. A few weeks ago we decided to just bite the bullet & make it a neutral 'spare room to hopefully one day be adapted' Hopefully dare I say it, that day may actually come for us now!

Anyway - have a great long break you lovely ladies - Happy Easter!!!! Love you all loads xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

thank you mermaid

kate you poor thing in drawing the short straw to work over the weekend
we may not have the sun but think you should gracefully recline yourself surrounded by chocolate eggs and other nice things.
Its horrible waiting for that visit from af, sending you one of jools mangled loved soft chickens and a hug.

chickens?

hi all .

sorry bout your interview barbie

go on jools do the test !!!!

i not quite wat to write 2day maybe im down about working 3 night shifts in a+e over the easter weekend oh joy drunk after drunk lol.

still no bloody af

jools is going to get a queue of angry yummy mummys all looking for darling Archibalds teddy. tis lucky she has been doing those stomache crunchers

at your interview Barbie! Time for me to lead the Charlies Angels kick ass frontier on your behalf! Shall we go get her?! You could of just sent a blummin photo rather than stressing yourself out on paniced manic driving mission! I agree with mermaid time to slump in a lounger with a cocktail & sun yourself...! Its grey & cloudy here! xxxxx

Ooooh I agree with mermaid and barbie - do a test now jools! Even your cat is having symptoms for you!

your cats appear to be nesting for you, is this another sign?
test.

Hehe - you always make me laugh Mermaid

Am just printing out posters to put up in my street that say

"Have your cuddly toys started disappearing ?

My Siamese cat adores all stuffed toys and seems to have embarked on a spate of cat burglaries - 7 assorted teddies / rag dolls / stuffed dogs / chickens have found their way through the catflap during the last few days.

I am keeping them all safe. If you have been the victim of this feline felon, please accept my apologies and pop along to see Joolssiam at No xx to reclaim your property and accept my apologies"

My cats are such characters

thats ok jools we will all be here first thing in the morning, mermaid forming orderly line and selling tickets not meaning to twist your arm or anyhing cos its looking very toned.x

Sorry about your interview Barbie - what a performance

I had resolved not to test till AF was officially late, ie Sunday or Monday

Fertility Friend tells me I can test on Saturday

Last time, I tested and got a BFP at 13DPO (would be tomorrow) ...

Not sure what I will hold out for at the moment !!

It would be kind of convenient to know tomorrow, as I am seeing my diet counsellor in the afternoon and will need to buy more diet stuff from her - but if I am PG, then you are not allowed to follow this diet ....