TTC any which way DP CM BT OPK Grapefruit drinking ....

Yeah - congrats wannabe that is such good news. I'm so pleased for you!! I agree about the worrying though - it seems with this TTC (and then pregnancy) lark it's just fraught with worry from start to finish. I'm sure then if (when) I actually have a child there'll be more worries than ever.
Just goes to show - you had a BFN on Saturday and a BFP only 3 days later. That happened to me too - just shows you it's worth waiting for.
Hurray, HURRAY!

that's exactly how i feel about this thread! You're all my extended family and your support and advice is invaluable! I'm not going anywhere

I wonder if Funtime will graduate with me?

Take a pic of your BFP before the battery runs out

I'm touched that you think I know what to say - I really really struggle to try and find the right words sometimes - have tried other threads where I really don't feel I ever fit in or say the right thing - here is home

Thank you Jools!!!! It feels like you know me so well, and exactly what to say!!

I will toast with my apple juice! I will sacrifice every pleasure that i have to to keep this little bean. Praying for it to stick now.

Is it silly how exciting it is to see a BFP next to my name on the list?!

Definitely time for a list update

Wanabe - have just poured a glass of shiraz to toast your BFP as you can't !! (where is the sticking tongue out emoticon !)

Mummy2olivia AF due December 23rd DP
Elliegant AF due 24th Dec DP
Sans04 AF due 26th December DP
Suigeneris AF due 1 Jan DP (intention to)
Ilovebeingamummy AF due 1st Jan
(Any news from you?)

Funtimewincies AF due 18/19th Jan
Lovelymonster Af due 26th January
Queenie - AF due 28th / 29th Jan
Cindy AF due 29th January DP
Pinkie08 due 30th Jan clomid and DP
Yellowflowers AF due from 30th Jan DP
Broodzilla AF due 30 Jan
iggypiggy AF due 2nd Feb
Joolsiam AF due 16th Feb
Wasabi - AF TBC

Heebychick BFP
BeckyMcG BFP
BoosieBoo BFP
Sn0wflake BFP
Villagemum BFP
Pezzina BFP
SmileyCat BFP
Spats BFP
WanabeMum BFP

I knew it!!!

have a celebratory glass of sparkling apple juice

You will worry, no matter what anyone says - just go and look at the January a/n thread and read about all the babies popping out - more people have babies than have MC's ..

Well ladies, I just got back from visiting my sister and almost had a meltdown in the car because "SOME PEOPLE JUST CAN'T DRIVE!!!!!!!!!"
So I decided to test, just in case as this was normal but a bit OTT for me (usually get road rage but not THAT bad).

And .......... BFP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't stop shaking or staring at the test. I used my Clearblue digital with conception indicator and it says "pregnant, 1-2 weeks". OMG!!!! I finally have my BFP.

BUT, i know i'm being totally neurotic (nothing new) but now I'm absolutely dreading that my AF will arrive tomorrow or I'll have a MC before the 12weeks. I'm so angry with myself but I think it may just be the amount of info flooding through my head. Help to calm me ladies i beg you!!!!

mmm - haven't tried hot choc with Baileys before - you are giving me ideas Yellowflowers

I went for M&S choc fudge cake instead, as DP bought a big one for me yesterday to cheer me up and I was very restrained and only ate half of it !

I can feel the black hormonal cloud lifting finally, although AF is still being a bitch

Have done something positive tonight and got in touch with a local counsellor for the Cambridge Diet (she types with a mouthful of fudge cake ) - I want to try and blitz my weight loss for 2 - 4 weeks to feel better about myself - improve body image, feel better and reduce the risk of mc due to obesity.

I feel better already for doing something positive

potentially very exciting though funtime.

sorry it's a bad day jools. A bath and a hot chocolate with baileys in it might help?

Jools - I was a complete bitch to dh in the week before AF following the last mc . Sending you hugs and chocolate.

Yes, AF is officially late - unless I ov'd late (difficult to tell as my EWCM can last over a week) or I'm having an odd cycle, which happens occasionally. The longest has been 64 days ! Still don't feel either premenstrual or pg. I'm still getting morning nausea/burping, but I just don't 'feel' as if I might be pg. If AF hasn't appeared by the weekend I'll test again, but by then I would have ov'd at a time when we'd stopped bd'ing .

Ooh Funtime - is AF now officially overdue ? I NEED some good news, so have everything still crossed for you and Wanabe

Maudlin muggings - great term. I've established today that first AF post MC is well known for causing hormonal meltdowns, so feel a bit better about my sobbing fits all last night, this morning and intermittently, hiding in the loos at work today I thought I'd got over all this by Christmas, but it has come back to bit me ..

Will be better once AF has moved on and I can actually do something about my situation - ie BD or knicker check. At the moment, I just feel lost, fat (bloated) and miserable

Was thinking about you a lot this morning wasabi and hoping that you wouldn't disappear and hide from us under the weight of it all. Mc's are odd little things. If you think about them before they happen you wonder how on earth you'd cope. Then, if they do, you wonder how you'd ever deal with another. And then it happens. You find ways of dealing with it or you go under. Looking back seems easier than projecting forward (iyswim ) and I still think 'what will I do if I have another?' even though I know that I have coped in the past. My biggest fear is a late 2nd or 3rd trimester mc as that's too far out of my experience. I read some of the stories on the mc page and think 'how on earth are you still functioning' .

One piece of advice I'll pass on is to beware of the sudden 'maudlin muggings' as we call them in our house. Those days when you've thought you're dealing with it all swimmingly and suddenly you're sobbing uncontrollably into a gin. Last night's part 2 of Hunter did it for me . But, as time passes, the gaps between them get longer . Take care and huge hugs.

AF still AWOL and I've just finished my tax return. Things are looking up !

thanks wasabi and thinking of you still wannabe - this is a quiet board today...
x

Thank you ladies, nice to have a group of people sending positive vibes!

Will keep you posted xx

Yellowflowers - straw clutching is what we do! YOu never know - there is always hope, especially at 4 days po.

funtime - fingers crossed about your appt and indeed the fact that as AF still hasn't arrived you never know what's round the corner! Perhaps test again in a couple of days? You sound like such a strong person. One of the things that haunts me now is how I would cope with more mc's. If I suffered another 1 or 2 I'm not sure what I would do.

Jools - so sorry you are feeling hormonal and Bastard hormones have a lot to answer for. Hopefully things will look less bleak in a few days.

Wanabe - I have my fingrs crossed for you

Hi everyone - how are you all feeling today?

I am slightly excited even though only 4dpo but temp was higher than usual 4dpo temp today. Probably meaningless and probably because I woke an hour earlier then went back to sleep before doing temp but still - any straw I can clutch at.

funtime / wannabe - here's hoping!!

smileycat - hope all good with you? Thanks for your thoughts re DPO. I don't temp though. I've been doing a bit of searching around and it seems to be that you tend to ov 12 - 48 hours after your surge with it most likely happening 36 hours after surge. So for me, 36 hours is tomorrow night. I guess then, Wednesday should be 1DPO for me? Sorry to bang on about this, I'm just trying to understand all this stuff!!

No AF yet today - I don't feel premenstrual, but I don't feel pg either .

C1NDY (with apologies to those of you who already know my story) - TTC for a second child started October 2007, pregnant immediately but mmc found at 12 week scan. We had 2 cycles break and then started again. Mc in June this year, and another in October . I'm determined that it will eventully happen .

I've managed to get the cancelled appointment at the mc clinic rescheduled for next month. Fingers crossed that it happens this time!

Jools - sorry that the witch got you this month . A visit to the GP is probably a good idea.

Keeping everything crossed for you Wanabe !

Wasabi they need to wake up & see the bigger picture & take your feelings in hand rather than treating one condition ie pregnant in one place only, big hug to you, you must be feeling very frustrated with them

Queenie FF takes the day after you OV as DPO1 ie the 1st day of your temp rise

C1ndy you could always just concentrate on a couple of days before you think you are going to OV (if you know there abouts) then 3 days or so after so that FF confirms OV & then if you need to take a break go back to temping 3 or 4 days before AF is due. It won't give you a great graph but at least you will know you have OV'd & be able to see at the end if you get a temp fall before AF.

Or do it as properly as you can for a month so that you get a picture of what the graph should be, you can then predict when you need to do your temps for the following months.
Although for that I think you need to have a fairly regular cycle so that you get it right, mine was fine after OV as it followed the same patern every month, but not before as I OV'd on cd 13 the 1st month, cd 12 the one after then next cd 14 the one after that & then Dec was on CD 9

Sorry about AF Jools
Good Luck Wannabe sounds promising

It has tailed off now - still there but light. Was very heavy overnight though. No cramps now - just a dull ache

TMI alert - this morning I passed a smallish clot that was definitely not normal AF - more like MC tissue - so am wondering if this is in fact a CP / very very early MC ??

I'm feeling very "seasick" for want of a better description and my boobs are getting tender

wtf is up with me

Hehe thanks Jools, i shall update everyone as soon as i know (just hoping i get that far!) Sorry the witch has arrived though. Do you think it's heavier and more painful because it's so soon after your MC? Hope the pain doesn't last too long. Take care xxx

Hiya - yes, the evil witch is well and truly here and being particularly evil It is all quite painful (unusual for me) and very heavy.

Ironically, my boobs started getting really sore yesterday afternoon and I started really really hoping she wasn't on the way.

Even more irony - boobs are getting more sensitive today and the feelings of nausea are getting stronger

Fingers fimly crossed for you Wanabe - will be logging in at 8.30 sharp for an update on Thursday

Hi ladies!

Been busy on here!!
wasabi i'm so sorry that your trauma isn't quite over. How insensitive making you go to the maternity unit! Makes me so angry.

Jools has the witch arrived or is it just that you can "feel" it?

Funtime has she arrived yet or are we still slightly optimistic? You know what they say ... a negative is less acurate than a positive!

Well as for me, low occasional aches, tender boobs, white creamy discharge still, slight indigestion. Otherwise nothing significant to report. No AF signs which is obviously the most significant sign so here's hoping!!
I'm 12DPO today so waiting until Thursday. If no AF Thursday morning then I'll be reaching for my digital pregnancy tests! Keep everything crossed for me ladies