The Hopeful Hearts Circle 1 - December 2025🎄💖

Hi everyone,
Just sat thinking of you all and hoping you're all doing ok ❤

I didn’t take any further tests. I wasn’t feeling confident as the lines weren’t really progressing but the last one was much fainter than previously. I started to bleed today so it’s another chemical as I thought.

Roll on June when we have our referral to the early loss clinic. It’s got to the point where I’m not sure I can keep trying for much longer

@Fullofconfusion Im so sorry, what an absolute emotional rollercoaster. Did you take another test today or has anything changed? Sending you a massive hug ❤️

@Fullofconfusion oh bless you, I've got no words, just sending you so much love x

My line this morning is incredibly faint. I think this is another chemical. I’m going to stop the progesterone and let nature take its course. Feeling very sad today again

@Fullofconfusion everything crossed for you, hope the next few weeks until your scan go quickly & smoothly!

@Blondepeachits definitely not easy to keep the hope but it’s there. 2 miscarriages, 1 chemical and a TFMR for me.

I called EPAU and they will put up some progesterone. They’ve also booked me an early reassurance scan for 7 weeks 🤞🏻

@Fullofconfusion completely understand keeping it to yourself for now, I think I tested for around 10 days and every morning I was just waiting for the tests to fade, but this time it didn’t (I had x3 chemicals and an ectopic prior).

All you can do is hang onto some hope which is an absolute mind game itself! Everything crossed for you ❤️

Thank you ladies.

@Blondepeachthat’s so helpful, thank you for posting them. My original test which would have been 9DPO looks like your second one so there is progression. I’m just totally in my head about it because our journey has been a very difficult one. I’ve also not told my partner yet as wanted to check it was progressing and wasn’t a chemical. He’s massively struggled with the losses and is stressed at work at the moment so I didn’t want to cause more stress for him.

I’ll give EPAU a ring and ask about progesterone today. And then keep fingers, toes and all other extremities crossed that this is finally a sticky one!

@Fullofconfusion I would also say that’s a good line for 11dpo! I’ve attached my 9-11dpo tests, so mine was probably even a little fainter. Also remember hcg should double every other day rather than every day ☺️

I had progesterone ready to go which I took from my 10dpo test I think, so would say it’s definitely worth calling to try and get asap!

I think that’s a good line @Fullofconfusion- I’m not having to turn my phone on its side and squint, it’s very clear. No idea when you can get progesterone but you are very likely pregnant right now!

@BlondepeachI did. I’ve tested this morning. There’s a line but still incredibly faint. I’m worried that it may be a chemical as not darkened much between tests.

Did anyone take progesterone in early pregnancy? I know the EPAU said to ring them when I have a positive test but how positive does it have to be? 🙈 I realise this might be a silly question. I’ll add a photo of this morning’s test at 11DPO

@Fullofconfusion 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼 have you tested again today?

I’m 9DPO and I caved and tested.

There’s the faintest of lines 🥹
I’m not sure how I feel right now

@Fullofconfusion thank you ❤
Hope the rest of the 2ww goes quickly for you and you can enjoy your holiday regardless of the outcome x

@LuckyDuck93 and @Blondepeachwishing you both the best of pregnancies. I’m genuinely so happy for you both.

I’m 8DPO and resisting testing. We’re going on holiday next week and I highly suspect that AF will arrive just before we go. I’ve got my usual cramps so she’s probably on her way already. For the last few months I’ve also been getting a really weird pain in my groin when AF is due and during my period. It’s not something I’ve had before but definitely seems to be linked to my cycle and is very uncomfortable. I hate the TWW. At least I have plenty of Easter chocolate to get me through!

@Fullofconfusion I'm doing well thank you, same as @Blondepeach though, feels like an out of body experience and i'm not sure i'll even believe it until baby is here!

@Fullofconfusion Im doing well thank you, had my 12 week scan this week which went well and was a bit surreal - still feels like some sort of out of body experience if I’m honest 🥲

Hoping you hit those days and that this is your month 💕

@Taysonicyour situation sounds very similar to mine. I feel awful guilt that my partner doesn’t have his own child. He loves my son and they have a great bond but I know he’d love to have a baby together too. I sometimes think that if we had tried and nothing had happened it might feel different to us having the losses but we know we came so close that it’s hard to give up. But also incredibly hard to keep going when it seems to be heartbreak after heartbreak.

@LuckyDuck93@Blondepeachhow are you both doing? Well I hope!

I feel like we’ve managed to DTD a good few times at the right time so fingers crossed. Officially in the 2 week wait now…the torture!

Hey @Fullofconfusion and @Taysonic - same as the above, hopefully you both are on the way to get some answers. Hope you are holding up and feeling positive (know it’s not easy!) 💕

@Fullofconfusion @Taysonic nice to see you both back on here, I hope you both get some answers in the next few months, you both deserve that at least! ❤

Oooh get cracking! At least you're not in ovulation limbo and know that even if your cycle hasn't settled as normal completely, that you are still ovulating.

Thankfully, yes - I have a living child. Mine's also a son, and he'll be 10 in June. And similarly, I'm no longer with his Dad and trying for a second with a new partner. My partner doesn't have any children (he's quite a bit younger than me!) and I think if it weren't for that factor, I probably wouldn't feel as much pressure to have a second... not that he's pressuring me in any way at all - he's been wonderfully forthcoming in that he's with me for me. If a child comes along, then great, but it wouldn't change anything for him if it didn't happen. I still feel quite a lot of guilt around that though. He's been THE BEST stepdad to my son and I don't want to feel responsible for him not having any bio children of his own.

I was only referred to recurrent loss clinic this month. They said it could be a 4-6month wait, but they wanted to do an extra round of blood tests in the interim despite having already done bloods after the second loss. They did say they'd test for a couple more things but I haven't thoroughly checked the paperwork yet to see if that's true.

I've convinced myself it's an auto-immune issue. I previously tested positive for thyroid antibodies which can be indicative of auto-immune issues, and I've also had some crazy rashes over the past year that have affected different parts of my body and lasted a really long time - I've currently got a huge patch covering almost all of my shin. Who knows though!?

All I know if that I don't want to go through another loss. So we're both not prepared to try again unless there's some kind of new protocol they put me on to try and resolve any issues.

@Taysonicyes I believe we are in a similar leaky boat! I did the standard bloods after this loss. Full blood count, thyroid, pre diabetes etc. and all came back fine. So I’m hopeful that the recurrent loss clinic can do something else or investigate further.

I can’t remember if you have any living children? I have a little boy with my previous partner who is 7. No losses prior to him. Then a 22 week TFMR and since then 3 further early losses. I just didn’t expect it at all after having zero problems the first time around.

I’ve tested again today and now have a proper positive LH test, yay! So we’ll try again and see where we get to.

everything crossed that you get some answers too. Do you have an appointment or just been referred? I was referred in September so 9 month wait which has seemed like an age but now seems fairly close!

Ah, it's lovely to see your name pop up @Fullofconfusion - I hope you're doing alright.

I feel like I'm in a similar boat to you. I've been referred to recurrent loss clinic. They want to do an extra round of blood tests six weeks after my first 'negative' test after latest loss. That will be around end of April. I'm presuming those tests will continue to show I'm testing positive for thyroid antibodies and I'm going to try and push for something to address that.

Depending on when the appointment comes through, and what the blood test results say and what's offered, we'll need to think about whether we continue to try. I'm in two minds. We're not actively trying at the moment (well, we're actively avoiding!) until after the blood tests for sure.

Hopefully you figure out what's going on with your cycle this time round - I'm sure all will become clear at some point and that you get some positive news before the June appointment. Keeping my fingers crossed for you.