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Very nervous to TTC after a miscarriage but am going for it

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Bella23 · 20/01/2005 09:19

For those who want to look to the future and TTC again I would really like some support, advice etc.
I thought we needed a new thread with positive energy (yes have turned into chanting hippy) so that we feel we are moving forward rather than dwelling on what has already passed.
The only thing I can concentrate on at the moment is that next Wed is the day that me and DH can start trying again (this will be 2 weeks after ERPC).
Anyone else ready to try again?

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george32 · 24/02/2005 11:41

Romilly I'm so sorry for you and Mr R.
I'm keeping my fingers crossed for the retest.
It is so hard going through this. Prior to m/c I would never have imagined just how much it affects you moving forwards.
Sending you {{{{hugs}}} and lots of positive vibes across. xxx

romilly · 24/02/2005 11:29

thks mishi

romilly · 24/02/2005 11:28

thks bella - thank god for you guys - really does help

btw bella - i was thinking about your OV test time question last night (as you do!) and i checked the info on my clearblue digital OPK instructions - which said, quite categorically, you can test at ANY time as long as you have left 4 hours before urinating - so i'd imagine that for most of us that would have to most convenient first thing a.m.! right?? so DQ i am really confused about this now - where did you get your info and does it vary according it DIGITAL and non-digital OPKs or what? (yes, mishi that would be the smiley face ones!!)

also persona works on the principal of first pee of the day.

mishi1977 · 24/02/2005 11:20

aww romilly huge hugs hun i was so sure u would be..dont know y..lol
Maybe as bella said it might be too early i know with pip i tested on 10th nov and got bfn but on the 14th got bfp and i even had a small sign of af?
Huge gigantc hugs hun

Bella23 · 24/02/2005 11:10

Oh Rom - its so hard isn't it!!
I think you did the right thing, have a good cry to get it out of your system. There is still hope but to be honest I would really try to prepare yourself for AF. That way it would be great if you got a BFP next week but mentally you will be prepared for if she shows up.

Am so glad you DH was with you, it really helps when you think they feel exactly the same way you do, it makes you feel like you are more in it together.

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romilly · 24/02/2005 10:56

thank you bella and thank you for thinking of me everyone

couldnt hold out any longer, on the testing

one solitary pink line on first response - and boohoo - took me straight back to where i'd been post erpc. just broke down am afraid. STUPIDLY i got all excited as no signs whatsoever of AF - and to be frank waiting to CD28 (13DPO) made me pathetically hopeful, because my pre mc cycle was NEVER over 26 days (and mostly a lot shorter.)

i have learnt one thing from the experience - don't test right before going to work if you don't want to end up with your make-up running down your face . not a good look! there was one big consolation for me - d/h was just lovely, big hugs and i honestly think he's sad too

MAYBE, bella there is still hope because absolutely zero signs of AF but i dont want to build up my hopes again at the moment, the disappointment is too immense.

Bella23 · 24/02/2005 10:34

ARH Rom - sorry !
Could be early though? Cycles could be a bit longer this time round? Not over until the fat lady sings and AF arrives.
How are do you feel?

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romilly · 24/02/2005 10:28

BFN

Bella23 · 24/02/2005 09:50

Morning all !
DQ - agree on the ironing front, we have a cleaner once a week and she does all the ironing and cleaning. We got one after DH admitted in a "discusion" that his time was too precious to waste on cleaning and ironing....mmmm....this was after I had spent the time doing it myself!!!!!!!!! So the next week I organised a cleaner, it was either that or leave him for being a sexist pig! I also spend the night before tidying before she comes!
Right have come armed with ov tests so will be testing at 10am every day.
Romilly - Let us know an update please?
George, great idea to keep up with the DIY, its a great distaction! Thanks also for the advice about BF, I shall arrange to see her next week and bite the bullet.

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mishi1977 · 24/02/2005 08:01

morning all
Dh is having a lie in so have snuck on

Romilly r u one day over now? when are you going to test was thinking about you last night

DQ i want a cleaner who irons...although think we already have one ..me..i absolutely hate ironing so try to limit it to once a week...good excuse for having tons of clothes..lol

Bella good luck with the ov testing hopefully 10am should give u a pos

George good to see you back..i did see u had moved back to the other thread hope you are ok

yingers/hereshoping hope you are both ok
skips full of baby dust for everyone

dramaqueen72 · 23/02/2005 23:36

just love coming and reading all your posts! (i dont get out much..........LOL)
george - surely that colgate cant cause ferning? just smeary bits??? its making me giggle anyhow. maybe you should contact the test makers and say excuse me does colgate often give false results>?????
love the link bella, ta much! will get one for him now. met your br and bite the bullet once and for all. even if its a crap quick painful meeting, you will have done the first hurdle.
ah yes george i have a cleaner who irons!!!! that wold be why i have time to paint and bake and scrapbook etc etc......TBH i cant cope with the housework my brood conjur up, i simply cant keep up. so after many a breakdown over it, dh got a cleaner organised, she calls twice a week, - not often enough! but just keeps it together enough for me to keep up you know? its like the waltons here already. cant wait to add to the chaos!!! my cleaner absolutely despairs with me, apparently no family has ever made this much ironing ever!! and i'm the ony person in the world who tidies BEFORE the cleaner arrives so shes not horrified!!!!
happy birthday for the morning Mr mishi!!!
have you tested YET rom???

george32 · 23/02/2005 21:40

Bella, well done for staying away from the Aug thread.

I'm so sorry for the pain you are going through with your BF. I have a similar situation with mine (she called me on sat with news on her scan). I'm trying to be honest with mine in order to get through this and it is very hard. She is also feeling really disappointed in what has happened and also feels abandoned & alone at the moment. We were both so excited to be going through everything together and I think she is genuinely scared to have to face this without me going through it at the same time.

I really would say, as hard as it is, try to see her. I went to see mine last week and was terrified but I'm so glad I went. Despite circumstances you probably both need each other more than ever at the moment.
xxx

george32 · 23/02/2005 21:25

Hi all, feeling better again so I'm creeping back over here again. I'm like a bloody yo yo at the moment!
Thanks for keeping me going whilst I crawled under a stone for a few days.

Had an exciting moment earlier....I found some ferning on my saliva thingy . Really cool until I remembered that I brushed my teeth before testing this morning so think it's just dried colgate instead. Ooops.
This waiting for ov is driving me mad!!

Romilly, sending you lots & lots of babydust. Fingers crossed for you. Is this the first big test on the thread? I might have missed some with my springing about threads.
Mishi, can't believe your DH is complaining about your demands - surely that is what men dream of?

I am now queen of DIY in our house by saving 35 quid and fitting bathroom vinyl myself. Not quite as easy as it might look but very theraputic, and I'm sure no-one will notice the crappy bits!! I think painting & DIY is my baking - certainly have got a lot done over the last few weeks!
DQ I have discovered your secret for lots of baking - having a cleaner who irons!!! How lucky are you....I'll swap you a mountain of ironing for a tray of flapjack (honest I'm sure your cleaner won't notice!)

Nice to be back over here again and thanks again for all the support xxx

Bella23 · 23/02/2005 21:19

Sorry forgot to add that i have managed 2 whole days without going near the AUG thread - you see I did listen!
Must admit though that I have been avoiding my BF (one who is pregnant). I have cancelled arrangements twice now. I need to bite the bullet soon as i can't carry on avoiding her. Genuinely feel scared of seeing her as just don't want to kick of my emotions of feeling sorry for myself again. I told a friend last night how i felt and she has agreed to chaperone me when i see BF to help me out - sorry all sounds a bit pathetic doesn't it !!
Honestly this TTC malarky turns you to mush doesn't it! Believe it or not I used to be viewed as the "strong one" in my group of friends, the one to help everyone else and after my m/c its like someone zapped me of all strength!
shall sto wittering on! DQ - hoorah am with you on the babies for us all!!!

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Bella23 · 23/02/2005 21:10

MMMM bugger then as have been testing when I first get up! Oh well at least know now, still pre ov i think so will start doing it at 10am from tomorrow. Should be fun seeing as I shall have to do it at work and my office is really small with one toilet !!
DQ - new computer desk sounds fab. Ski pass thingy - see this skipass
Romilly - we are all on tender hooks for you.
Mishi - hope you have lovely day with DH tomorrow. According to reports it is supposed to really snow tonight so you could have a lovely winter wonderland day tomorrow!

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mishi1977 · 23/02/2005 19:57

aww romilly i really really hope u have a bfp we all need it..lol

DQ o deffo cat some cookies my way..lol also with the bding next week dh said he hates when i have baby making in mind cos its at least every day if not twice a day..pmsl i jus thtink the harder i try the more likely i am to succeed..pmsl

bella hope u have managed to stick to not reading aug thread...im not looking at any at the min its too hard..lol

Not got much planned for tonight but will be popping on and off...dont know if any of u have msn messenger?

Tommorow is dh bday so we are going out for lunch which should be nice...

romilly · 23/02/2005 19:26

hiya dqueen - i'm dying here too! i'll let you know when, promise....

wish you could CAT us some of those cookies and cakeys!

romilly · 23/02/2005 19:18

Bella - i heard the same thing, because you can get a false surge in the morning or something ?? anyway i still do it in the morning

thank you everyone for the babydust, please keep sprinkling for me

im really too nervous to be chatty today. take care all

dramaqueen72 · 23/02/2005 19:17

ladies! gosh feel like i have been away for ever! today was dhs day off so we have been out and about. bought myself a new computer desk/cupboard; got dh to build it -something he hates doing!!! i'm the flat pack queen around here!- so am sat MILES away from the monitor at swish new desk...
got dd new shoes too. cute button she is. will have to work out way of showing you photo of her, without showing it to loads of weirdos too. hmmmm.
oh god rom please test. i'm DYING here for you.
Girl - the baking NEVER stops! have a new batch of cookie recipes to test tomorrow. yipeee!

Oh no bella! your lh surge is repressed first thing so apparently you should test after 10am -asuming you get up around/before eight. eek! did you waste loads? and, and this is the part that bugs me, you shouldnt test after about 8pm either for a correct reading. starting to get complicated! i'm never really 'free' of household stuff/children til after 7pm. so unless i remember during the morning its about 8/9pm when i think 'oh bu**er!'
NEXT week i'm creating a baby so will be opk testing around 10am EVERYDAY then. come hell or high water. have briefed dh as to whats required. even the 'no older than three days sperm' part. his face was a picture. PMSL
af got abit painful today and heavier (tmi i know sorry) freaked me out alittle. but i guess as long as it doesnt hang around longer than usual i dont care. i am going to be a nightmare on my 2ww i'm warning you. mishi -maybe you have it right kinda 'vague' about exact 2ww means you cannot count hours/minutes seconds down to test time. like me.......
er guys, ds is NEVER going to go for tights. thermals are enough of a 'girly looking thing' to him. i have had to bribe him. sigh. bella, WHAT does a retractable ski pass holder look like? can you find a link to a picture. i cant even begin to shop for one, as have NO idea what they are like.
oh and travel games anyone? where can i buy good ones???
understand about all thees darn pg women.....i have someone i'm close too whos just threatening to 'announce' something, she has that kinda air about her lately 'i know something you dont know.' bluuuuurgggggggh. i'm NOT asking her whats the news cause i dont want to hear it if its babies.. only from romilly/mishi/heres/girl/bella/george/yingers/anyone i've missed out{sorry}/and me!
well missed you all all day today, will stick on here all tomorrow to make up for it.
love ya.

Bella23 · 23/02/2005 14:20

Quick question re ov testing. I have been testing first thing in the morning (ie 1st wee of the day) but have just been reading somewhere that this is not right time. Any advice as when is best to test? When do you guys do it?

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girlfromip · 23/02/2005 11:05

morning everyone babydust to romilly and all .
Dq hope you're having a good day and your course was good. Only four of us turned up at my class and the teacher was very pleased with our progress felt hugely proud of myself (saddo!).
A friend of mine is due to give birth any minute -I'm irritated waiting for the call and ready to be delighted of course! But bored with other people's glorious pregnancies to be honest and equally bored with violent fecundity of some (i.e. the one that's due only has to walk past her husband to get pregnant and never misses a chance to pretend to be hugely exasperated by that....) Forgive me, am in pissy mood today as the yanks would say......
Has the baking stopped? I never managed the apple crumble, fell at the first hurdle.
yingers and mishi, I so need new glasses, my old ones are in desperate need for an update.

Bella23 · 23/02/2005 10:35

I hear ya hereshopping, due in dec thread- WE WILL GET THERE!
Thanks for telling me to stay away from August thread, have abstained today - you see I am listening.
Am chuckling at the idea of DQ telling her 13 yr old the benefits of tight wearing under ski suit (which I agree with) - can imagine lots of eye rolling and exasperated face pulling!!

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hereshoping · 23/02/2005 10:21

Morning all
lots of babydust to those who need it - next month I want lots my way please
bella stay off aug thread - if you want to feel a little better go on sept/oct due dates and feel all that stressing about problems and feeling sick and awful and enjoy this small window we have from being that way
dq - skiing - agree need good socks, two paris gloves as they get wet, thin layers and goggles and glasses. mine wear tights under their ski suits but mjr probs persuading 6 yr old boy of value of this so no chance at 13
also send him with lots of mars bars so he can stuff his pockets with them
sunblock, lip block, neck thing that can be pulled up over head as balaclava useful - they have treandy name but cant remeber what
everyone still religiously on folic acid girls?
lets turn this into a due in dec threaD SOON

mishi1977 · 23/02/2005 09:39

aww romilly tons and buckets of babydust for u hun when are you going to test?

Bella no snow here for us it pathetically tried for a little bit but nothing much

Oh well not a lot happening here baby wise as am now on 2 week wait i think..lol..im terrible wiht my cycle havent a clue what its doing but then it does tend to play tricks on me..lol
hope u all have a great day
take care

Bella23 · 23/02/2005 09:16

Morning ladies
Romilly - good girl, I think a few glasses of wine was exactly what you needed. Girly I am sending you very large anounts of babydust - hang in there as we are all routing for you
Well not a lot happening with me at the moment, enjoying seeing the snow, nice to wake up to.
Hope you all have a good day

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