August TTC thread ❤️

No I’d be the same!

I’ve tested again and it’s still the same, basically BFN but with a slight shadow (that’s more visible in photo than real life, which says something tbf), still only 10dpo so could change in next two days but I feel like chances are slim now.
feel slightly less disappointed as know I’ve got letrozole to try next and maybe that’ll be the key - trying to remain hopeful. I’ll probably still have a good cry and grump when my period arrives though! Haven’t been drinking lately so if BFN tomorrow I’ll treat myself to some wine 🍷

Same back at you, not crazy at all my love!
Crazy is me sat here constantly crying when I did a test this morning and it’s positive but I can’t shift the feeling that something could be wrong. I need one of those tests you just attached but see if HCG is rising

https://www.medichecks.com/products/pregnancy-blood-test?srsltid=AfmBOorsM7w4TPF3v4OJtbOoodrpP7WbKuvZvRALeIOFH_ox4wInNZim I’m tempted to buy one of these kits for when I next get these silly VVVFLs to see if it’s actually hcg or im going mad. Now that probably is a bit crazy! But it’s hard not knowing what’s going on in your own body.

it blows my mind that some people just have sex once and that’s that, without having to think about all this stuff!

Definitely not crazy!

No darl, the one I was sent on here they don’t do it in my area. That would really help me to know it’s progressing. A lot of people probably think I’m crazy as I have lines on a test but I can’t help it.

It’s horrible place to be as I haven’t got excited yet and don’t know if I can because of these tests 😢

@SureLookyeh I would normally peak around CD14 / 15 I think. It’s hard for me to measure other signs like EWCM due to being blind, that’s why adding the tests into the app kind of does it for me but there has to be an element of trust on technology haha. I’ll keep testing, I just feel a bit baffled!

@SureLook no idea without the card. I guess I was lucky the pharmacist did an emergency card the first time and it just cost the 80 euro. I had thought it was capped at 80 for the year 😅My sister works for the NHS up the north and couldn't believe the price! I haven't taken my aspirin yet this morning because I've been retching. I didn't get to the nausea stage before the mc in Feb.

@Iris2024 no cramping and no spotting are good signs. Your tests also haven't gotten any lighter. It's so difficult that it's wait and see at the moment but there are positive signs there today ❤

@SureLook it’s roughly same as Tuesday. Yesterday was lighter than today. I’ve ordered some more frers as they showed progression from Tuesday to Thursday.

Photo is clear blue Sunday to Tuesday left then Wednesday to today right.

First response Tuesday and yesterday

Just hoping and praying but the lines haven’t disappeared and no spotting or bleeding. Hope I don’t.

I’m so confused and sad :( could yesterday have been my peak day? Is it even possible to ovulate with such low levels? I don’t understand 😭 last month my peak was at CD15 and was 1.68

@SureLook 🤞I think the progesterone and aspirin has helped me get this far. I did get the drug payment card but still have to pay 80 euro a month for that and the aspirin. The pharmacist said I can enter the receipts on my revenue and get some money back. If you get the progesterone invest in ugly pants. I went to dunnes and bought a pack of giant ugly ones 😂

Hi @ForGiddyDreamer Thank you for checking in, such a nerve wracking time. I’ve still got a line on clear blue this morning, easy at homes are still a no go and very faint line since the start.

@Muddysocks1 I see those lines. I really hope you get a sticky one and those progress 🤞

How are you both @Iris2024 and @EmPeEf today?

@SureLook & @ChaE05 you both have appointments coming up soon don't you? I have the 4th and 8th in my head. I've booked in for an early scan next Friday when I'm hopefully 8+1 🤞

@Muddysocks1can u get some boots first response? I dont think they are evaps or any of your other positives have been either the second one isnt even dry and i see it clear as day (and remember im someone who thinks all lines are evaps to the point where i doubted my own pregnancy for everyone on this group to tell me it wasnt an evap) i am hoping thw letrozole has worked and this is a sticky bean for you!

Yeah I think it’s definitely a think!!

A positive spin I guess is that due to chromosomal issues chemicals are common and don’t necessarily mean there’s an issue, they just don’t work out early, and most women probably don’t know. I guess I just worry as we’ve been TTC unsuccessfully for so long (this is cycle 17) that something doesn’t seem to be working 🙈 putting all my hope into letrozole as a way of looking forward 🤞🏻

Also I’ve already wasted so many tests this month! They’re easy at home so cheaper but still pricey if going through them fast

Erm actually I’ve just zoomed in on this and I can definitely see those lines, I think they’re darker than my stupid ones yesterday

@givingitanothergo IC stark white this morning 🤦‍♀️ didn’t even bother with the FRER as it’s like weeing on £5 😂 I obviously ovulated late this month but didn’t catch the egg anyway or I’m pretty sure I’d have at least faint lines by now. Never mind! Just waiting for AF now

@Muddysocks1 your theory could be correct, perhaps you’re catching vvvvvfls on the tail end of a chemical(ish) where it has begun to implant. Actually…that could have been what happened to me this month as surely it’s not a coincidence that I had 3 shadowy lines on different tests, my tap water was BFN…and now nothing but stark white even on the same cheapies as yesterday and a FRER!

I’ve been out of this game for 5 years and forgot how much of a mind fk it all is 😵‍💫

I seem to get very very very faint shadow lines around this time 9-10dpo, not every cycle but often. I don’t think they’re faulty tests etc, because of the pattern in which they happen (as in - it’s not random, if it happens it’s around this time, it’s several tests in a row, and there’s nothing earlier or closer to AF). I’m convinced it must be some issue with implantation - like sperm and egg are meeting, it starts to implant and give of hcg then “fails” very quickly. I’ve had one 5 week pregnancy loss then a more clear 2 days VFL but these seem to happen more often. It’s disappointing because I always feel like it might turn into something then doesn’t.
it’s not really visible in photos and probably less so when the quality changes with upload, but that’s today and yesterday.

Can’t believe they’ve told you that. I got it in my head that it was me imagining things because my lines were never dark but I got a full negative clear blue test today and it was actually reassuring as the difference was so obvious I knew it wasn’t all in my head.

Please look after yourself, it’s really hard to go through this. Especially if it’s recurring and the drs aren’t helping. I broke down on the phone to the drs when I called to tell them that I no longer needed referral for my pregnancy because I’d had an early miscarriage and to make a note on my record (in case it becomes a recurring thing) and the woman was so blunt and said ‘ok so I’ll put not pregnant’ and that was that. No sort of empathy at all. I just don’t think if you’ve not gone through this journey you can understand the emotional turmoil.

I have to say I feel significantly clearer headed and better now that my brain has come to terms with it and I do think the hormones have settled which has made a huge difference. I think I underestimated the effect of all this crazy hormones have especially when you’re then grieving a loss.

Sending you best wishes and hugs. You’re not alone xx

Not yet from me - did another test and couldn’t see much but only 9dpo so still time 🤞🏻

Ooh I see - that sounds much wiser than me and a good idea!

letrozole is. Medication that can boost/help ovulation. Consultant thinks our trouble TTC and with the two chemicals is likely to be due to weak ovulation, looks like my eggs are maturing well enough. Trying this for 6 cycles started when my period arrives, I’m looking forward to trying something new