Immune/NK cells pred thread #34

Hey @Hopeandfaith1990 and @Jecca88 those bleeds after ivf procedures are really hard going it used to affect me emotionally pretty badly as well.
@Hopeandfaith1990 i hope they let you do it this cycle i totally know that feeling of wanting to get going again I had retained products for 5 months so couldn’t do anything and it half killed me.
@jecca got everything crossed for good results you got amazing numbers so it’s all in your favour xxx

ahhh been thinking of you lots @Meg310532 have you got a good support system round you?

@Hopeandfaith1990 how are you doing my love? what are next steps? I started my withdrawal bleed on saturday - wow it was heavy but i relieved it is here, i was still so hormonal after EC. Scared for PGTA results. Need to book in with CRP now :)

@Hopeandfaith1990 Hope you are feeling ok 💕

@Meg310532i am really really sorry for your loss, i hope you have family and friends who can give you comfort. We are all here for you. Sending you big virtual hugs !

@Meg310532 Also in time to talk to the hospital and CRP if you feel you need answers. Sending you lots of love 💖

@Meg310532 You are Hallie's home and she is forever in your hearts. It will be a journey to recover physically and emotionally but you will get there I promise. I'm just so sorry you have to go through all the hurt first. Its really crap and bloody unfair. I had a fantastic counselling charity geared specifically to pregnancy loss if ever you felt you needed that- it helped unleash so much and to manage my head. Please don't torment yourself with the what ifs. You are Hallie's beautiful mother, just remember that💗

Oh @Meg310532 I am so very sorry for your loss. There are no words. I hope you are looking after yourself and have support from those around you. We are also here for you ❤️ life is so unfair xxxx

They said the swelling was normal pregnancy related stuff because my blood pressure etc was all okay. I’m not sure if they had done my blood tests at that point that they would have been able to see any slight bleeding inside me or not…. It’s always the what ifs isn’t it. I’m struggling to look at my body in the mirror and see anything other than Hallies home. They made me have emergency c section if I didn’t I would have died. Now I’m left with pain/scars bruising and a broken heart. Love all you girls ! X

Hey @Meg310532 life is just not bloody fair is it? Please don’t think I’m comparing as our loss was much earlier but we did have to have a funeral. At first I was dreading it but in hindsight I think it gave me closure rather than bottling it up like I think I would have done. If you have any questions please just ask xxx

@Meg310532 I am so, so sad for you. Cannot begin to imagine the depth of loss you and your husband must be feeling. You and Hallie have been in my thoughts... Relieved to hear that Dr Edge was there for you in such a tragic and difficult time. I would really recommend bereavement counselling from Sands or similar, if you feel up to it, of course. I have seen a counsellor too, for six early miscarriages, and she has been a real help. Sending my warmest thoughts to you.

OH my love @Meg310532 this is absolutley heartbreaking, i bet you are going through all the scenarios in your head about what could have been done differently. It just will never make sense. Did they just assume the swelling was normal pregnancy symptoms? Did you have to have a C-section? So much trauma I can't even comprehend. I have no words of comfort, just know she was perfect and you created her and you did EVERYTHING you could possibly do to keep her alive. I said to my husband last night if this happened to us - which is so hard to even imagine your pain, i am not sure if i could try and carry again - and surrogacy would be my only option. I know you just need to focus on your recovery and grieving process. I will light a candle tonight for Hallie :(

@Jecca88 yes hun I’m home now recovering. It’s so mental as I was in the hospital the day before as I had swelling of hands and feet and they checked her heart beat and my blood pressure etc and sent me home. Then 4am I woke up thinking I was going into early labour as I had such cramps and I went to hospital and knew straight away she had no heart beat I could tell from their faces. Then only when they took my blood they realised how much I was bleeding internally it went into panic stations and I was rushed for surgery. I think the hosptial said the funeral will be about 20th sep! Ish ! I am really starting to feel like this isn’t going to happen for me now. Three miscarriages and a stillborn surely I can’t go through anymore !!!! X

@Meg310532 Glad Dr Silva gave some comfort. I am so sorry you had to go through all that trauma and near death for yourself, so unbelievably scary and all you're trying to do is have a baby. I have been thinking of you since i read your message and have been so upset for you my love. I just cannot believe the universe would throw this at you. I have read that Plancental abruption is quite rare. Have you had a hoppital debrief? Are you at home recovering? I can't quite believe i have to ask but have you had the funeral? :(

Thanks so much girls ! How are all of your journeys going ?? I called CRP clinic and spoke to Dr Silva and found some comfort in that! Xxx

@Meg310532 I am just so very, very sorry p! This is the most awful news and, as others have said, there are no words to express. Hallie is a beautiful baby and will always be loved by you and your family. I am shedding tears for you all. Once again I question what sense there is in life. X

@Meg310532 I can’t find the words, im am soo devastated to read this, I never thought this would happen to you, How can this world be so fucking cruel. Hallie looks so precious and perfect, it’s just so unfair. I am here if you need anything and I know we have never met but I have always loved speaking with you and know you always rooted for me too. Heartbroken 💔

Oh @Meg310532 im just so so sorry. There are no words to even start. You, your family and your little one I’m just so so sorry xxx

@Meg310532 There are just no words, life is so unbelievably cruel. I just want to give you the biggest hug in the whole world and to squeeze the pain away. Your little girl Hallie is absolutely gorgeous and she will be a treasure in your heart forever. Take time to grieve and we'll be here to support you when you feel ready. You've been through so much, you are so strong. Sending your family so much love 💗

This is the most awful news, I genuinely have no words. I can't begin to understand what you must be going through, but wanted you to know that my heart goes out to you and I'm sending you so much love. Nobody deserves to go through what you have.

Hi girls I can’t believe I am having to give this update it’s the most horrendous and unfair world that we live in. I lost my beautiful girl Hallie who was born sleeping after I suffered a near death placenta abruption at 35 weeks and 2 days. She was absolutely perfect In every single way and I just don’t know how I’m supposed to move through life anymore. 3 miscarriages and a still born how is this fair girls ??? How can I go through all this again!

@Hopeandfaith1990 I’m so sorry sweet it just sucks and isn’t fair. Been thinking of you xxx

@Hopeandfaith1990 I am so so sorry, I'm so devastated, I was crossing everything so tightly for you. Allow yourself to be sad and angry, let it all out and then think to the future. Sending you the biggest hugs in the world 💕