TTC#1 - Looking for Others in the Same Boat PART TWO THE SEQUEL WHERE WE ALL GET OUR BABIES???!

@MocktailMe I am just so so sorry 💔 there really are no words, this is beyond unfair and you don’t deserve any of this. My heart is broken for you. Of course there is some solace in the fact that it didn’t rupture and you won’t need surgery but that doesn’t make it any easier or less painful. I’m sending you the biggest hug 🫂 xx

@MocktailMetotally normal not to be excited yet. Honestly after everything you’ve gone through it might take a long time for you to feel excited, I feel like I’m only now at 30 weeks letting myself get excited. It’s a very anxious time at the beginning, particularly for you with your history of ectopic but once you get to that first scan and if all looks ok it will be such a huge weight off your shoulders. Until then just do whatever you have to do to stay sane, if that means taking millions of tests (like I did) then go for it! I have a good feeling for you this time though for what it’s worth, your tests are looking really good 🤍🤍

Okay so I was just coming it catch up as been laying low. But wow, @MocktailMe this is amazinggg news I’m so pleased for you. It is quite cliche to say but you hear of so many people getting pregnant when not trying or just before IVF (I know you’ve had a cycle but still) I wonder if all those meds last cycle has helped somehow either reset or thicken your lining.. either way your pregnant!! Completely get the nerves, your friend is right everyone feels that way but with trauma it is going to be heavier and more consuming and there is nothing wrong with that. Do what you gotta do to get by, test, cry, literally anything your in survival mode at the moment. Hope for some happy news at your scan, I’ll be checking back in regularly now to see how things go for you. Sending you my
best wishes! Xx

@MocktailMe no squinters there! Given what you’ve been through I think it’s very normal not to be jumping for joy yet.

Even at 16 weeks I still feel nervous till the 20 week scan - I think post infertility trauma we all know hope is a dangerous zone.

dDefinitely keep on taking it day by day xx

@MocktailMe infertility trauma is real!

I’ve been waiting for something to go wrong all pregnancy even though there’s a much higher chance of things going right. It feels like you just get so used to bad news it becomes the new normal. I think we get used to things going wrong so it’s preparing for the worst.

The thing which helped me was knowing my mindset or anxiety won’t affect things and not trying to stay positive or not worry but accepting that it’s natural and normal to feel uncertain and worried. I saw it as saying hi to the elephant in the room.

Good you’ve got the scan booked and I’ll be thinking of you and praying for absolutely no dramas and an incredibly boring textbook pregnancy for you.

Think about the things you can control - like continuing to look after yourself and be kind to yourself ❤️

@MocktailMe honestly take it day by day.

I really struggled with anxiety this pregnancy and time just went so slowly but unfortunately the only way to get through it is to get through it. You’ll be feeling all the feelings!

You could always speak to Tommy’s who have a helpline with midwife’s who might be able to give some tips post eptopic about what your options are.

Sending you big hugs xxx

@MocktailMe just catching up - well this is a plot twist!

I’m a PSYCHOTIC tester so understand how agonising it is. I was also up at 4am pissing on sticks with FMU and tested every single day till I had my 6 week scan at the epu. I stuck them all to a piece of paper with a glue stick to compare.

What sort of helped me was thinking no amount of testing will impact the outcome so it’s just a waiting game to see what’s going to happen.

Everything crossed 🤞

I’d definitely get bloods if you can as squinting at lines can be quite inaccurate.

I think the difference between 13dpo and 15dpo looks about right. And I was the same around that time with the clear blue being 1-2 weeks, didn't get the 2-3 until about 20dpo.
It is an anxious time at the start and most of it is a waiting game, but you have no bleeding which is amazing (and remember some bleeding can be completely normal), and I know it's so hard but try not to focus too much on the line progressions, so many factors come into play with it!

Oh and remember the tests dry darker so only compare with photos you took in the time frame, I really worried myself with that

Those strip tests take SO LONG to go really dark. So I would try not to worry too much about that! You may also be a few days off as you were not tracking ovulation! Progression definitely looks good 🙏

When we got pregnant with our little boy my first clear blue came back 1-2 then the week after 2-3! They are very accurate so congratulations!

That's great progression! It's unlikely to be as dark as the control line for a good few days yet, and it depends on what tests you're using. I found the boots early detection tests really good for seeing the progression

There is no denying it in today’s photo @MocktailMe that is definitely a BFP!! And so much progression in 48 hours!

Oh my gosh @MocktailMe ! I really hope this is it for you, those lines look similar to mine at around 13dpo. I totally get why you feel a bit blindsided after all you've been through over the last couple of years - but my fingers are firmly crossed for you. Take the next few days/week a day at a time and keep us updated 🤍

I hope so so much that this is it for you @MocktailMe🙏🙏 you deserve it so much. Definitely a good sign that you are not having bleeding and feeling sick! So understandable to be fearful of another emergency surgery, you’ve been through so much. I used those strips and they are definitely reliable and take a long time to go dark so the fact that you are getting clear lines on them is definitely positive. Please keep us posted 🙏🙏 xx

Oh my goodness ! @MocktailMe can you contact EPU for advice and assurance ?

Oh my gosh @MocktailMe I definitely see those lines and this is exactly how my tests started out. You might have ovulated slightly later than you think. I bet if you got a first response or another ultra early detector it would be much darker. I totally understand the feeling of not wanting to even feel excitement and guarding your heart. The next few days will be very telling! Cautious congratulations 🤍🤍🤍