Hi everyone,
Sorry for a bit of a long post, just needing to vent really. We're TTC our second. We have one living son who is 2, and a daughter we sadly lost before him at 22 weeks. 10 months of TTC now, tracking BBT and for a few months did the clear blue advanced fertility monitor before the sticks got way too expensive to keep that up! My cycles are regular-ish and have been 25-32 days since coming off the pill last summer. Luteal phase is on the short side at 10 days and I consistently spot for 4-5 days before AF starts. Due to be getting bloods done this month to check if there's a progesterone problem.
Every single month I get my hopes up that it's implantation bleeding, and start testing ridiculously early from like 8dpo. Even when BBT starts to fall at 10dpo I convince myself it could be an implantation dip. The disappointment gets more and more crushing each month that goes by.
I know how incredibly lucky I am to have DS, but I'm finding the journey so hard right now. He and our angel baby came relatively quickly and I'm paranoid something has changed. I don't understand why it's taking so long and I know we're definitely hitting the fertile window plenty each month. Trying to relax, enjoy it, plan fun activities and not let it take over our lives. I guess I'm just looking for some solidarity and hope stories from anyone that might be in the same boat!