January 2025 ✨

@Sunshine924 I think we might also be CBs! CD26 for me today!

@lynzmb so sorry to hear that! Antibiotics you poor thing, they always wreck my stomach. I used to be really prone to UTIs years ago it was awful, now I swear by Holland & Barrett triple strength cranberry tablets (I actually pop one after every time I DTD, just in case! 😂 and when travelling). Totally know what you mean about wanting to start afresh next cycle too. When I know it’s not worked I’m exactly the same.

@LuxyLocket this is wonderful! Tentative congratulations, this must have been a right rollercoaster ride for you.

In the end I asked my friend the actual quotes I was on about and this is what they are:

First: unless proven otherwise, everything is going well.
Second: the only thing you can do (besides taking care of yourself obviously) is tell them you love them.

Hope they can help anyone 💜

@HopeB thank you for your kind words. Absolutely - we are usually really open with each other so I don’t know how I ended up in this pickle where I was trying to hide from him just how much space it’s been taking up in my mind. Like you said we are in it together… I think I got my myself all worked up wanting to not share too much info with him in case it “put him off” if you see what I mean… it’s hard not to feel like you’re putting pressure on someone…

Oh my gosh - testing!!! Still holding out - I have said to myself I will do it on Friday. How about you? My app says Monday but no way I can wait that long!! I’m also symptom spotting like crazy… I do feel like I have cramps, telling myself it’s period tho.

Haha I know it’s insane… if I get accepted for any of them god knows what I’ll do! I even sent off another application today, I can’t stop haha!! I want to do it in music therapy. That’s amazing you are writing a book! What’s it about? I would love to read it! I’ve always wanted to write one, they say everyone has a book in them (I guess I’ll get my wish if I do end up doing a PhD 😂)

@PamelaDoov that’s amazing! glad you’re well

Baby dust to all! ✨

My FET was 6 days ago and I'm currently going mad with the pregnancy tests. I had a positive on 4th with a Clear Blue (I know this is way too early to be testing) but then since learnt those tests are notorious for giving false positives. I might have had a squinter with one this morning but I don't trust them anymore. I've been looking everywhere for First Response but couldn't find any, so have ended up buying other brands, even though I know they'll give me a negative cos the tests aren't sensitive enough. I have a delivery of the First Response 6 day early ones coming tonight, I can't wait. I can't remember getting this obsessive about testing last time 😂 TWW sucks!

Thank you so much @Summerrose24 you are totally right about the rollercoaster after loss. Really really hoping that odd blood result was just an early wobble and things will progress ok from now and this will be our long awaited rainbow.
Hope you’re ok in your first cycle trying again, I remember how that felt myself. Sending you all the baby dust and love, I know ttc is so hard after losses 💕🩷🩷
I’m trying to catch up with everyone’s post but just as a general I’m sending love and luck to all

Hi @luxylocket just wanted to say I'm so happy to see you've had progression on the clearblue tests and I'm sending you all the good wishes that this week continues to bring good news. I've had 3 MC so know the rollercoaster.
I'm currently 4 DPO in our 1st cycle trying again, and just trying to distract myself.

I caved and took a clear blue 6 days early it was negative so I think I'm out for this cycle.
Keeping everything crossed for you 💞

@Sunshine924 it’s so stressful, isn’t it.
hopefully you can hold out on testing. That way, at least you’ll know for sure either way. That’s how I’m looking at it, anyway. ☺️
I have everything crossed for you! 🤞🤞✨✨

I usually get cramps and breast pain and sensitivity from ovulation, right up to the start of AF. But this cycle, I have had zero breast pain or sensitivity. I am cramping though. Well, more aches than anything.
I’m Really hoping that this is a good sign for me 🤞🤞✨✨

@HopeB I usually get some cramps and bloating. I've just started getting cramps now so perhaps AF is on the way :( really fighting urge to do a test

Good luck! @DaringlyDizzy and welcome ☺️✨

Hey @Sunshine924 , oh wow, not that long to wait then (kind of 😅). Do you usually get symptoms before AF? If yes, having no symptoms this time could actually be a good sign? Everything crossed for you! ✨✨

Hey @dev86 , thank you for your message. You’re so brave and it’s exactly the right thing to do - communicating openly with your DH. It’s the hardest thing to do sometimes - for some reason. And it’s a good reminder that we are going through this WITH them. Not just by ourselves ☺️

Ooh! When are you planning on testing?
Haha! I actually laughed out loud 😂 distraction is the absolute key! lol, what are you going to do if you get accepted for both PhD’s?? 😂😅 so funny.
What’s the subject area (just out of interest)?

I’ve been deep cleaning my house at all hours of the night when I can’t sleep, and I’ve even started writing the novel I’ve always wanted to write (35k words in so far ☺️), and yet, I still have head-space to obsess over my cycle like a mad woman 😂 sigh!!
Everything crossed for us both, and all the baby dust ✨✨

Thinking of you @lynzmb I really hope it’s not too painful and AF comes quickly ❤️

That’s AMAZING @PamelaDoov !! So happy for you ☺️

@LuxyLocket THIS IS AMAZING!! I really hope this one sticks and everything goes smoothly from now on! And I really hope the EPU look after you! Wow! What a rollercoaster ✨ xx

What a rollercoaster for you @LuxyLocket - will have everything crossed for you, keep us updated if you feel up to it xx

Hi ladies sorry for being quiet for a few days was a lot to take in and thank you for everyone’s absolutely lovely words 💕🩷after resigning ourselves to the fact that the pregnancy wasn’t going to continue after that nurse said my bloods hadn’t risen enough on Thurs. 3 days later still getting dark line progression on strips, so did a clear blue this evening and can’t believe it 2-3 weeks. So shows the hcg has risen. Hopefully this is a good sign. Still not out of the woods and annoyingly that scare on Thursday has caused a great deal of anxiety but for now we are pregnant!
I’ve been referred to the EPU and got them contacting me over the next couple of days to hopefully have things a bit more clarified. I almost regret doing that private blood hcg draw and wish I hadn’t as we would just seen our BGP and would be none the wiser! We are still taking it a day at a time but maybe my hcg just rose after the 48 hours and things will be ok after all 🤞this is further than we’ve got before and pregnancy after loss is so so so hard but all we can do is be greatful for now and try and stay calm and take a day at a time. Sending love to all and I’m so thankful for your support.

I’m doing good thank you :) nice strong lines on my tests now so im happy there’s progression, won’t bother doing any more!

Not really @dev86 , thanks for asking though. Still pretty wiped out, I've had antibiotics for a UTI as well but think I need a longer course. I'm waiting on AF arriving, obviously it's late when there's no chance I could be pregnant this month 🙄 Roll on February is all I can say 🤣
How are you? x

@PamelaDoov how are you? X

@lynzmb how are you feeling? Are you recovered now? X

Hello all! Hope everyone’s doing alright 💜

@LuxyLocket thinking of you. It sucks. Milestones are always difficult and it can feel like a setback. How are you feeling now?

@Emiily887 I relate about the “wasting time” feeling, it’s horrible. We had had a good try this month (despite temperature carnage thanks to the flu) and on about CD18 I was thinking I really don’t feel like DTD but I’m going to have to because if I’m fertile now but didn’t cover this day I will beat myself up about it. I felt like I was going mad so I actually had an open and honest chat with my DH where I broke down and cried cause I’d just felt so up in my head about it. He was great though and kind of took the pressure off me for it “having” to be this month, which is exactly the space we get ourselves into. It did help and calmed me down cause I’d been bottling it all up and not being honest with him for so long.

@HopeB I am glad you are feeling better. It’s totally normal to freak out about stuff cause we are going through it so much. I think we might almost be CBs (!) as I am currently on CD25 and although I have bought the tests and planned meticulously when I am going to take said tests, I have somehow managed to refrain from doing a test. So far!! My main method at the moment is distraction. I’ve took it a bit far this time I think. I have actually decided I want to go back to uni and have applied for 2 PhDs and a (second!) masters in the space of a week 😂. DH has absolutely no idea about this and it is in no way compatible with having a baby 😅 I just absolutely have to be doing something to keep my mind occupied because I feel like I’m going fucking crazy. If I don’t test positive this cycle, what will I be up to next month I wonder? Scaling Everest? Sailing around the world? Watch this space I guess 😂

@KittyFantastica That is just lovely that you have shells for George. I’m sending a photo of my garden now. The big stripy stone is for my little Peanut, then my friends daughter’s memorial, and I thought the shells could be for all the many other little souls we have lost. If you would like me to add his name to one of these, or if anyone else would like that, just let me know 💜

Sorry to read of hard results 😕 it's not an easy journey at all. @HopeB I'm on cd27 and like you trying to hold out to test. I didn't properly track ovulation so not sure where I am DPO (or that I ovulated!) AF could be due tomorrow or Tues or Weds (,cycles vary 28-30 days) I've had no symptoms at all (apart from so many weird dreams which I think I get anyway pre period) so not getting my hopes up this time

Hi all!

Dipping my toe back in. Tried to TTC number two since 2022 and had multiple losses. Two losses last year and needed a few months off TTC that turned into 6 months off. Resuming again this month

Hey everyone, I just wanted to check in with how everyone is doing today?

Quick update from me:
I’m on CD21, and 7DPO (I think). I’m going to do my absolute best not to test early - although, I have all of my tests ready to go - its going to be pretty difficult, but I don’t think I can take the emotional roller coaster right now.

We’ve booked a few days away for the end of January now too. It’s a nice distraction, but completely flexible (so, if I get a BFP 🤞🙏, we can just change the dates and if not, then I have a nice break to look forward to).

I spent all of last year not wanting to book a trip “just in case” and ended up not going anywhere. We decided that wouldn’t be the case this year, so I’m proud of us for keeping to it ☺️

How is everyone else doing?

@LuxyLocket and @Emiily887 I’m thinking of you xx

So sorry to hear that @LuxyLocket

So sorry to read this @LuxyLocket , lots of love to you and take care of yourself 💕

@LuxyLocket I'm do sorry to hear about your result, so unfair! Thinking about you and hoping for peace and strength for you ❤️‍🩹 it's such a hard blow, we're all here to offer support and wish you well.

@Emiily887 I really think it's important to have that chat with your OH... this process impacts so many aspects of your life! I'm still keeping everything crossed for your BFP, but I completely understand you may crave some space and relief from all this. What you write about endo sounds terrible, is there nothing that can be done to help?

Nothing much to report from me, started taking progesterone tablets, plan is to begin IVF stims at the end of month. I actually feel they make me emotional, but that may be just another form of symptom spotting! I feel like I stumbled into yet another way to be unhinged and second-guess myself while TTC, what a ride this is 😅

Such sad news @LuxyLocket I'm so sorry to read this.

Oh @LuxyLocket, I’m so, so sorry.
this really is unfair. I wish I had some comforting words … all I can say is that we’ll be here for you, just like @Emiily887 said 💕

sending lots of hugs to you both ✨

@Emiily887 Thank you so much lovely 💕💕I know you completely get how this feels. I know lots of us have had difficult times which is comforting but also so unfair that any of us have this when it is so easy for others. Really appreciate your words and support. Next month is our first angel babies due date so I know I’m going to find that hard.
completely get that about a break and we have been talking about doing the same. 1 year mark is a very hard milestone to hit I’m so sorry it sucks and sending you a big hug xx love the support on the thread I’m so glad we all have eachother. Still rooting for everyone else