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Traumatised from neonatal deaths. Pregnant again.

31 replies

Ella31 · 31/08/2024 11:15

Hi all,

I'm 6 weeks 4 days pregnant, first pregnancy after losing my beautiful identical twin boys last November. One of boys was stillborn and my second boy passed away at 4 days old in our arms in the NICU. They were our first after 2 early mc's.

I'm convinced something is wrong. I've cramps on and off and I'm not as nauseous as I was with my boys. I had slight low back cramps yesterday evening and I'm just so afraid ill lose this baby too.

I've an early scan on Thurs at 7 weeks 2 days but I am just dreading there'll be no heartbeat. Im also terrified of the ultrasound. My last one was the night they told me my baby was gone and his brother was slipping. It was completely out the blue. Thanks for listening to my rant.

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Pocketfullofdogtreats · 31/08/2024 11:32

I'm so sorry about your boys. Have a hand hold from me. I don't think lack of sickness is a sign of anything bad. Look after yourself and your baby xx

holi2024 · 31/08/2024 11:32

What you have been through is unimaginable and I am so sorry for your losses. It is completely understandable that you’re feeling anxious given what you’ve been through. Pregnancies won’t necessarily be the same so try not to compare your symptoms from last time. I have everything crossed for you and am sending a big, big hug x

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Ella31 · 31/08/2024 11:29

Ella31 · 31/08/2024 11:15

Hi all,

I'm 6 weeks 4 days pregnant, first pregnancy after losing my beautiful identical twin boys last November. One of boys was stillborn and my second boy passed away at 4 days old in our arms in the NICU. They were our first after 2 early mc's.

I'm convinced something is wrong. I've cramps on and off and I'm not as nauseous as I was with my boys. I had slight low back cramps yesterday evening and I'm just so afraid ill lose this baby too.

I've an early scan on Thurs at 7 weeks 2 days but I am just dreading there'll be no heartbeat. Im also terrified of the ultrasound. My last one was the night they told me my baby was gone and his brother was slipping. It was completely out the blue. Thanks for listening to my rant.

Thank you I'm in Ireland so once I've my booking scan at 8 weeks, I'll be meeting the midwife.

I just hope the cramps are normal. I did have them with my boys but it's hard to remember

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MorphandMindy · 31/08/2024 11:28

Oh, Ella, what a scary time this must be for you. I'm so sorry to hear you are struggling, anxiety is an awful feeling even without all the trauma you've experienced. Sending you a virtual big tight hug and all my supportive best thoughts.

Nannyfannybanny · 31/08/2024 11:20

I'm so sorry, I hope very much you can get an urgent scan and it will be positive news for you 💗

Beginningless · 31/08/2024 11:18

Oh it’s not a rant my love. I’m so sorry for what you have experienced and it’s completely understandable that you would be feeling the fears and anxieties you are feeling. Do you have good support around you? Once you have a midwife then let them know how you are feeling, hopefully they can offer additional support. It’s so hard I know but are there things you can do that help ground you a bit?