TTC May 2023 💝 Previous MC March 2023 (thread 4)

Hey!
I’m ok thanks @Westy22 , booked in for my mva tomorrow and was in hospital today getting my bloods taken, paper work and meds ahead of it. Just wanting the physical aspect of it done now. How are you keeping?

How are you doing @Supertrooper101 , do you have your next scan coming up soon or I’ve maybe got confused with everyone’s dates.

@Westy22 it has hasnt it lol maybe its only busy when the weathers crap lol

@Sez281 we finally have (probably had now) sunshine too lol did you book a private scan?

How are you doing @xxcxdonxx ? ❤️

Hope everyone else is okay, it's gone a little quiet on here, where did you all go 🤣

@xxcxdonxx just the same shit different day tbh hahahah that's my life moto ATM xx

100% agree with this 💗

Aww thank you @Jadeypie , you are so sweet and I really love your positivity!!

How are you doing anyway?

@xxcxdonxx I think being angry, bitter and sad are all very very valid feelings and don't feel bad for feeling them because quite frankly you deserve to feel angry and bitter because you've been through a terrible time of unfairness. But you'll be okay eventually because your strong and there is ALWAYS a rainbow after a storm!! Xx

Thanks everyone, it does seem very unfair to be left in limbo like this for a week.
I think what tipped me over yesterday was hearing my friends news. I’m angry that that was once me, decide to have a baby and make it happen, no heartache in-between.
I’m also sad that I’m going to become this bitter person who can’t hear good news but I know it’s likely just a moment in time and it won’t feel like this forever.

@xxcxdonxx am with jadey on the cruel aspect, how the hell can something like that be scedule for only once a week like its a routine appointment. Its, well, not humane 🙁... just do you and 🤞 you will start to feel abit better soon

Oh @xxcxdonxx I'm so sad for you!! Make sure you do what helps you the most!! It's so wrong to keep you waiting round. I understand the department has a lot to deal with, but God, it just feels cruel keeping u waiting so long. Sending my love xxx

Thanks @Westy22 , I’d hoped the same too but for whatever reason, this one wasn’t meant to be.

I really get that @SnookyPook and I can’t imagine that fear ever really goes until you have your baby in your arms. I was saying to my friend that even if we did try again and find out I was pregnant, there would be so much to dread. I know I’d need to go for an early scan at epau and then follow ups two weeks apart which would bring a whole new anxious wait. It’s mad the hoops we need to jump through.

I'm so so sorry @xxcxdonxx I really hoped this would be the one for you 💔 look after yourself, I can imagine how tough and heavy it feels right now 😔 really can't believe this is happening for you again Xx

@xxcxdonxx I know what you mean, sometimes too much time to think isn't helpful. Working from home can be really handy sometimes. After my losses it was good to get some routine back but also to be able to just step away from the comp for a quick sob or a walk in the sunshine if the mood took me. Just listen to yourself I guess and allow yourself to process it all etc.

Yes, hopefully so. I still find occasionally the fear ramps up again even as we approach 3rd trimester. It's mad what a mental slog pregnancy after loss is. And so many women silently getting on with it, or going through further pain as you are now. It really is crazy what we go through isn't it.

I know, I couldn’t make this stuff up. I was off today but I think I might just work the rest of the week. I just feel like I’m going to be moping about the house otherwise and work will keep me busy. I’ll see how it goes though. I’ll be working from home so easy enough to log off if something happens.

That’s good, not too long to wait. I’m sure all will be fine for you and another chance to see your little one 🥰

@xxcxdonxx oh bless you what shit timing 😞 Not surprised it's been a tough one. Are you able to take some time off work etc?

Next scan will be Friday 17th while my Hubby is away so hoping it will all be fine. 🙏🏼

Thanks @SnookyPook , I did ask about any chance of cancellations etc but they apparently only do them once a week
now so just need to wait it out. All seems a bit unfair.
It’s been a bit of a day. My friend text me to tell me she was pregnant. She obviously didn’t know what was going on with me. We would have been due around the same time too so it’s all been a bit heavy.

How is everyone doing anyway? When are you back for your next scan @SnookyPook ?

@xxcxdonxx so sorry my love. Sending you an enormous hug. That's rubbish they can't fit you in sooner either. Maybe worth ringing in a day or two to ask if it could be brought forwards at all? So sorry you're having to go through this again. It really isn't fair 😞 xx

@xxcxdonxx so sorry that you are going through that again, and having to wait so long as well! Must be so tough for you

@xxcxdonxx sorry youre having to go through this again! Even worse still having to wait another week.

@Sez281 thanks, hope you're enjoying your holiday 😊
@xxcxdonxx I hope they can give you a definite answer today and that you're OK x

Thanks ladies, that was nice of you to message. That was it confirmed today it’s been a missed miscarriage. I opted for the mva again but they only do them once a week so the earliest I can go it next Tuesday. I’m worried that stopping taking these pessaries will make me miscarry at home again though so we will see. My little boy has an induction day at school on Tuesday too which made me sad I could possibly miss that for him.
Just feeling a bit rubbish about it all just now.

@Sez281 glad your enjoying the break!! I find toddlers easier than newborns tbh it's my favourite age. Also I agree with @Supertrooper101 can be abit later to feel movements don't worry and don't worry about size either my boy lived in my back and caused all kinds of back pain leg pain ect haha. Yeh nice 6 day af so starting tracking with opk in the next day or so xx

@xxcxdonxx thinking of you today xx

@Sez281 morning from another shitty overcast day lol back ache during the nite, am going with age lol getting less n less slp but never got any of these special pillows etc the other times so am hoping its a phase lol had the 2nd scan last week, she said all ok thankfully. Was on about my boy being small and she said this one is big, but she wasnt clear in context...big big or big compared to too small so average 🤔 lol ... are you about 17 now? They say with your first it can tame longer to feel them.did they say where your placenta is? Just have a private one mid holiday, if it gives u peace of mind whats it matter lol
@xxcxdonxx hiw you doing, daft question, i know. What time are you there?