TTC for 18+ months and feeling low!

@LucyLoopyLu it really is. Thanks, I was just having a wobble that day.

This two week wait must be a very hard one for you?

@CatCaretaker I get that feeling too. I think it's hard not to when you've been disappointed so many times. I think it's totally normal x

@Natty2 I'm ok thanks. I was upset on Monday and really weirdly tearful and emotional on Wednesday but other than that I've been fine this week. I've done a lot of googling which may have been a mistake. Far too much phone time. Emotional ups and downs not helped by progesterone! I'm also worried the pessaries are giving me thrush now as well.

How are you doing?

AIBU...

I'm 6 DPO and I just 'feel' like it didn't work, again. I have no evidence either way, of course. AIBU to put any faith in my feelings, or is it silly to think that my feelings on this mean anything at this stage, and that I'm likely just pessimistic after so much failure?

@LucyLoopyLu I am so so sorry to hear about your transfer day. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and staying positive for you and a positive outcome!

@LucyLoopyLu dont forget it's totally okay to let yourself be down in the dumps about it all! It's not been an easy journey and now this has happened too, try not to bottle it up!

I'm alright thank you, new sickness meds are helping a lot more than the previous ones! Actually managed 2 short workouts this week!

@missmoosh thank you, it has been very up and down. Had a few low points but I'm trying to stay stoic. There is still a chance so just have to wait. I don't think the progesterone is helping my mood! I've also had indigestion all week which is very unlike me.

How are you?
Anyone got any other updates than my pity party? 😂

@LucyLoopyLu i am so sorry to hear that. Hoping one of the 2 they put in surprise you. What a horrible rollercoaster of emotions you must be going through. Thinking of you and your husband ❤️

@CatCaretaker transfer was Monday. They will book a follow up consultation once the negative pregnancy test is confirmed next week. They couldn't give us any answers about why they didn't develop well. I don't know if it's something they can fix as there could be so many reasons, some of which we just don't know.
We likely won't continue with the same clinic as it's far away from where we live and we only get one round funded.

I'm sorry @LucyLoopyLu that's devastating. When was the transfer day? Do they have a plan of action to do anything differently, if you want to try again?

Thanks @Emz09

It didn't go well on day 5 unfortunately. Low quality embryos and nothing to freeze. They transferred the best 2 but the quality was very poor so we have slim to no chance this time. Day 6 update on the remaining ones was still nothing to freeze. So we went from 8 good embryos on day 3 to a very poor day 5/6.

I'm pretty gutted and so is my husband. Need to think about next steps now.
I've been back at work as well and I just can't be arsed with it, I don't think the progesterone is helping - I was alright yesterday but emotional today.

I feel like my life is on hold and I'm sick of it.

@LucyLoopyLu I hope your transfer went as planned, I have been thinking of you x

Thanks all 💓

@missmoosh no, nothing planned except for work! I'm going to prioritise de stressing, gentle walks and not let anything into my chilled energy forcefield. We'll see how well that goes!

@LucyLoopyLu you've got this! Great update for day 3, they'll keep going till Monday I am sure of it! Will be thinking of you, best wishes xxx

@LucyLoopyLu eeek hope they all continue to grow well! Not long now! Gonna be a long tww for you, have you got anything nice planned?

@Natty2 @missmoosh @Emz09 thanks ladies. Had the day 3 update this morning and all 9 are developing although 1 is a bit slow, but still got 8 at a good grade at the moment. Fingers crossed for blasts on Monday. I'm booked in for transfer Monday morning so just need to keep calm before then.

Hope you're all doing well?

@LucyLoopyLu ahh this is amazing news! Fingers crossed you will be doing a transfer before you know it!

@LucyLoopyLu that is fantastic news! Really pleased and relieved for you. 9 is brilliant, keeping everything crossed for you in the coming days xxx

@missmoosh @Foreverhopeful92 @Emz09 @Natty2
Hi, thanks for the good wishes. EC went well yesterday, they did manage to get to both ovaries in the end so the worry was for nothing.

They managed to get 14 eggs and the update this morning was that 12 were mature and 9 fertilised. They had to do ICSI (due to the sperm being in clumps which I'd never heard of before) which we weren't expecting, although luckily they get you to sign all the consent forms etc in advance just in case. Next update Saturday morning so just hoping and hoping they do well.

@missmoosh - glad your new meds are working and you're feeling and being less sick. Fingers crossed it will continue and you can recover and enjoy your food again!

@LucyLoopyLu sorry to hear about your scan, I hope that everything will go well today. Keep positive. It will be ok 🤍 xxx

Lovely to hear all your updates!!

@missmoosh hope you’re doing better and the meds start working for you! How are you feeling otherwise?

@LucyLoopyLu wishing you all the best for collection! Sorry to hear you were disappointed - I hope they can give you some answers if they are unable to access your other ovary. Thinking of you today!

@Natty2 Congratulations on your latest news! Sounds like a complete turn around from last time - what great results! I hope all goes well in the next stages as you prepare for transfer! But sounds like you have some amazing grade frosties 🥰

@Natty2 oh wow!!! What fantastic news I am so happy for you! So glad this round has worked out so much better! Now just to wait for the OHSS risk to subside! Do let us know when you are heading for transfer ❤️

@LucyLoopyLu I'm sorry that you haven't got the results you hoped for from first scan, hoping they can access the ovary and its just a worst case scenario preparation for you. Hoping collection goes okay for you today, let us know and remember it only takes one ❤️

In relation to my sickness the new meds they have put me on have helped a lot, only been sick once since being on them! But you can't take them until trimester 2, which is why I have had to wait so long and then totally forgot they were an option! On a lot of different meds trying to get all my other levels stable, but as long as little one is getting what they need that's all that matters to me!