TWW thread around 27/02/23

Well girls af arrived for me as per 13dpo last night and shes a sore sore one. Ive to ring to get hubbys n my results today but gona be honest here .. i am that consumed with anxiety and pressure i feel like regardless of wat it says we try one more month n then give up. Even at that i dont even know if i wana try anymore. I keep thinkin that wen i was on pill everythin was plain sailin my periods wer so light n hormones wernt all over the bloody place like they are now. My emotions too! An thing is yes we cud jus forget about it all n say we arent tryin but i think back of my head would be lik but i know we are like my body would know anyways. Sorry for the rant jus need to get my shit together. Really am leanin towards jus leavin it n bein happy with my daughter. Shes 7 now and im 38 im not gettin any younger what am i doin forcin this. Is this the universe jus sayin no xxx

Aww @Freya8 it's awful isn't it! I can't have the ivf yet as still waiting for smear results unfortunately. Its been ages! It is definitely all a roller coaster! I'm sorry you are feeling so low. Well done you for taking control on tests though, hopefully this will give you some answers and piece of mind. It could be a small imbalance and can be fixed and then hopefully you will have your much deserved BFP! I'm crossing everything for you xxxx

@Floralsandsmiles heyyyy babes im so sorry your journey isnt plain sailin either truely am 😔 what about the ivf? My hubby suggested it to me there but im a good bit older than u so that i feel would go against me. Dunno heads in a pickle a bit like yours just feel at end of tether n came off pill end of feb n jus hada rollercoaster of shite basically same as you. I dont wana be all doom and gloom at all but feel its def a slippery slope. At this point i cant imagine myself with another baby which is so sad xxxxx

@ddaisynner awh not long now at all until a scan! Tho i know wen waitin it seems like a lifetime. So excited for u!! Id take the nausea at night anytime!! Im jus kinda in limbo and don't even know wat answers i want my results to give. Like do i hope theres something wrong they can poss fix? Or do i jus hope its nothin but then torture myself every month bein like why crazy way to be thinkin xxx

Hi @ddaisynner 👋 glad to hear you are keeping well! And that its nearly scan time! I didn't know it was all online now with midwifes! Surprised you haven't had any contact yet at all? Xxx

Sorry to hear this @Freya8 ! But positive steps on the tests being done! I had all those tests done and nothing has come back wrong... and I'm still not there either. I know you had a suspected CP too, that was horrible. I haven't even had that, so really worrying there is an issue.
I say a gynae about spotting and they have given me progesterone tablets to start 4dpo.. I am ovulating today. So I'm hoping this makes a difference! Although reading up, i can't see anything where people have said this helped them conceive? Absolutely delayed and devasted with you, so am joining your club too.my nerves can't take much more! Xxx

@Freya8 I have my fingers crossed for you that this is the cycle. I honestly don't blame you, you have had so many ups and downs really hope the doctors can help and af doesnt come. You deserve some good news 🤞🤞

I'm 8 weeks today, nothing much to report to be honest. I get random nausea usually at night, still haven't had my first appointment with the midwife but hoping to hear from them soon they have changed it so its a online referral rather than a through the gp appointment but been waiting 2 weeks and haven't heard anything 🙈 it's strange thinking in a months time I'll be having the first scan

@ddaisynner hey my love how r u keepin? ❤️ im ok af due monday so 11dpo today completely broke down this month my nerves and anxiety about it all wasnt gonna lh test but had to know wen to book 21 day test for progestrone with dr. Didnt give it our all as absolutely deflated. Hubby done sperm analysis also so we are jus waitin on results of everthing. So wen af shows here on monday i think i need to take a break from it all and seriously hava think about if we want to continue. Done accupuncture n cuppin too. How many weeks are u now xxx

@Freya8 how you doing lovely, I was trying to work out when the next testing phase would be. Any news?

Oh @Freya8 I'm so sorry 😞 I really thought this was going to be your month big hugs defo get to the docs and see what's happening and maybe get some progesterone to help baby stick 🤞

Aww I'm so sorry @Freya8! that really sucks! Will they do tests to make sure this is another chemical? I would recommend a month off of LH testing etc.. mentally I couldn't cope either, it does help. Sending you hugs xxxx

Naw girls thats me out again heavy heavy painful af thats floored me completely. Gettin onto drs today to do some sort of bloods or somethin like cuz clearly there's 2 chemicals in the space of 3 months. Not gona do ov tests or anythin this month comin need to take a break here mentally its jus consumin me as to why its not happenin xx

I can see a small line on the 2nd pic @Freya8 ! Xxx

I can defo see a line and its red. Hopefully just some hormonal/break through Spotting 🥺 got my fingers crossed this is it for you 🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞

So done a boots early response. N ive jus started spotting so expect af to be here in full force by tonight ... jus gettin so sad 😞 xx

@Freya8 I still have all my fingers crossed for you that this is the cycle. Hopefully that line gets darker and af stays away 🤞🤞🤞

I'm good still no symptons tbh which is weird I even took a test this morning to make sure it was still there because I'm a weirdo. The boobs are only just starting to tingle and I have a taste for spicy food which I'm not usually a fan of but other than that fairly normal :)

@ddaisynner lit dunno wat to do anymore 😪 doin everythin by the book. Im 11dpo apparently tho i always thot i was 12dpo. Af due 13dpo. So expectin it tomorro or thurs. I am jus so down about it all. N i know ill pick myself up n go again but jus that realisation of this may never happen. Sorry am so doom n gloom today. How u feelin my love xx

@Freya8 awe babies I can defo see a line! My lines were defo fainter in the morning than in the evening. How many depo are you today?/when's af due. Honestly defo looks promising and lines are different for everyone. It depends on your baseline and how much it goes up each day which is why some people get their bfp early at 9/10 and some later at 14/15. There is a theory that girls hcg rises quicker too so who knows you might have a cheeky chappie hiding in there ;)

I would defo maybe do a 4 hour hold this afternoon to compare to the other afternoon one. Maybe get a early clear blue digital (without the indicator). I hope you feel better soon big hugs

@ddaisynner dont really know babes. Was voilently ill on fri night were i was gona pass out and kept vomiting. Sat i slept like all day pretty much. Jus the odd weird feelin in boobs. Caved n done a cheapie last night so thot evap. Done one with water n never made a mark. N then this morn pure squintin to see n had to go work. Gettin really frickin down as to why this isnt happenin for me really is soul destroyin like am comparin mine to urs n all n urs got darker xx

@Freya8 how you feeling hun 🤞🤞🤞

Aww this is lovely! Please do drop in every now and then, gives us all hope and we are all routing for you and a healthy pregnancy xxx

Yeah it has been mostly fine, extreme tiredness and some nausea/loss of appetite but luckily haven't actually been sick and think starting to feel better now first trimester coming to an end. I did have a scan at 9 weeks and all looked okay 🥰 but will be nice to have the official one next week for sure! Xxx

@Piglet34 ahhh good luck with your scan next week. That defo has gone so fast 🥺 would defo love an update 💕

@Piglet34 thank u for droppin in 💗 how hav u been finding pregnancy? Hopefully the 12wk scan will settle ur anxiousness i can't believe how fast that has flew in to be fair it seems like yesterday you showed us those 2 red lines!! Xxx