TTC Thread 15...........a thread full of babydust.

Well, just come back to the thread and in tears again - this time in a good
way! You are all so lovely. Jingle, what can I say - your post was so
thoughtful, so caring, so moving; it meant a lot to me, thank you. MIFF -
you always step in with the right word at the right time, not just for me
but for so many other people on Mumsnet. Thank you so much.

I still feel very nauseous but have resigned myself to not knowing what's
going on for a few days (my period isn't due till Wednesday). Every symptom
I am having I have previously had before both periods and pregnancy, so who
knows. Realised earlier that I don't feel as though I am waiting for a
period; I feel as though I am tentatively pregnant and am waiting for a
miscarriage. I guess I'm still working through those feelings; it has been
less than a month.

Thanks all once again. You're great.

Colinmummy, I hadn't picked up that your sister was so ill. I am so, so
sorry. You must be feeling so scared. Huge, huge hugs for you.

Fastasleep - you ok, lovey? That sounds really rough. I hate to say this
as you didn't, but are you thinking.. miscarriage? Huge hugs to you as
well; so sorry you're going through this.

And finally, the good news! KIZZY KIZZY KIZZY! Sounds REALLY hopeful.
Will you come back and tell us the moment you have confirmation? So
thrilled for you! (And not a little relieved that we will soon be starting
a new thread; my machine keeps crashing!) and xxxx to you and all.

PS. So sorry about funny layout - PC keeps crashing so had to cut and paste from email...

Im on another night shif tonight, and i really want to have a morning urine test. so i could wait till monday morning. what do you reckon are my chances of waiting till then. lol lol. looks like a expensive few days testing for that pink dot/ line..

thanks
partner just returned and he is laughing saying im only 2 hours late. so postive...

not quite, we'll wait for the ultimate BFP! he he it's lookin good thou kiz!

I'm going to go sit in the bath and sniffle to myself while eating chocolate... rather than sit here depressing everyone... does kizzy's news call for a new thread?

I used to like clearblue +/- ones, the digital clearblue are expensive, yet fun :o... first response I think gives the clearest result (as in the background isn't already faintly blue, and I've heard that clearlue digis aren't as sensitive..) if you already have a faint dot don't get a cheapy! You deserve a good one... Although if you want a cheap option everyone says boots ownbrand are pretty damn good :)

WELL DONE!! By the way!! :o

how is everyone today. all well i hope. i on the other hand did a test today and have a slight faint dot. was due today and tested about 2 hours ago on the smallest of trickle of urine. so im hoping for good news when i test again tomorrow. need to buy new test. have been using the name predictor in pink box. any ideas on a good brand?

It was a great post by jingle sniffle

jimgleballs that was such a lovely message. i felt tearfull myself, hester has a good friend in you...

hugs to colinsmommy too!!

Awww Hester massive hugs... you can take me off the list girls! I'm not sure this is AF though all I can say is OWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW and chunky (eww tmi!)...and OOOWWW, did I say OOWW?! sniff don't want to think about it...

It's really more stabbing than cramping, well cramping with this stabbing pain in the same place... felt like contractions earlier!! Thank god for painkillers... good luck to everyone waiting to test and I hope this is the month for you Hester I really do!

Sorry to hear how you are feeling, Hester. Sorry about AF, Tania. Not much going on here. AF is due Wed. I have sore boobs, have been feeling sick to my stomach the past few days, and am very tired. But I think very much that it could be due to the stress of my sister's cancer. Good morning to all.

(sorry didn't mean that to be so long or like a lecture!) ooh and choc helps as well. lots of choc..... it's good for u u know, i read somewhere)

ernest - not soon enought! he he 13th jan. (at last check)

Hester - hon, I've been thinkin about this all day. I really feel for you. I do hope you're PG, but for your own sanity if you're not, don't worry, it will happen again. There will be days when u're down and you want to curl up into a ball and cry - that's ok. there will be days when u curse the gods and shout and scream at them - that's ok. and there will be days when u wonder if that was u're only chance at mother hood and now it's gone -again that's ok. it's all normal. you need to greive for the loss of your baby. but please, let me reassure you. you will become PG again. might not be this cycle of the next but I believe we all will when the time is right. But please hon, don't you for one minute even think we mind you getting upset here with us, we've all cried together, we've all laughed together, (and for the most part we've kept each other sane). so u lean on us as much as u want, and don't worry about it. I will say thou, and I know this will sound harsh - (but it's a lesson it took me too long to learn after my M/C) it's better to grieve straight away and learnt to accept the process than to put it off and focus your attention elsewhere only for it to come an bite you on the bum at a later stage. it's no good thinking 'what it' or 'maybe' or she/he would look like this or what would happen if.... you will eat urself up inside doing that, and believe me hon, it won't alter the course. it's ok not to be the strong one all the time. anyhow, I hope it helps to know ur not on ur own thru this and I understand what ur going thur (even if I was a lot younger). Email if u wanna have a chat anytime. thoughts are with u and urs. Hopefully thou, just hopefully you'll be PG again, but remeber it won't replace the one you've lost, nor will it take the pain away, however you will find peace and joy in the sadness. Take care hon. keep ur pecker up

MB XX

Hester, so sorry, love.

cm & jb, when r u due to b reunited with dh's?

ooh, yes, where in London, , sil now lives inRudy. i used to live in Battersea.

ok. am off this time.ciao.laters everyone

cockenzie*

I am cocenzie, far to the west as you can go b4 U get into the sea! :o

me to, u know we're on 923 posts already, I think if we've not had a BFP by 1000 we should start a new thread anyways.

right i'm off out any how. talk to you later on enjoy ur day cockenzie/RD

jb - u in Wales?
funny , cos when i was in London (alhough staied there 10 years) i never ever got used to the cold and damp.only been in scotland for 3 years now, and i soon got used to the cold.its not the same cold, its fresher, finer air. i think anyway

right, nuff chat from me for now (it will only make the thread longer ). catch you later cockenzie - good luck with the shopping and the bd'ing!!

rudy - sw london? where r u? used to stay in Thornton Heath not far from Crystal Palace? or Bromley was working in Bromley South

i went to enidbough once, (actually three times) to glencourse.... it was bloomin cold... It was november.. god i've never been any where so cold! the shops looked nice there thou, didn't manage to get around them mind. I'm in a whole nother country (and beleive me u need a passport to come this far into wales!) unfortunatly so for now, we'll have to message/mail! :o